Something quick

Tuesday, 12 February 2019 10:25 pm
apollymi: Chococat sitting in an orange chair, no text (Sanrio**Chococat: This is my ROOM!)
Well, once again, it's nearly the end of the night, and I'm not yet in bed. I still don't have an answer about Alpharetta. It was not a good day for pain and even more so for balance and nausea. I've just felt like curling up and dying. Hells bells, I even feel like I coughed out a lung, trying to keep from feel to horribly nauseous

I guess it just all adds up to feeling pretty miserable for most of the day today. Add in Glynda trying her best to go home sick because she felt like "she was dying" but she was "going to suffer through". All emphasis are hers. And meanwhile, I'm sitting there trying to work through the pain and

And yeah, that annoys me. She spent most of the the day trying to leave early or have today completely off all day.

And okay, I'm through dwelling on this (for now0. It feels good getting it offf my chest.


Sunday, 10 February 2019 09:34 pm
apollymi: Zack facing away, text reads "So don't judge me by my failures, only by my dreams" (FF7**Zack: Judge me only by my dreams)
The more I look into this lectin-free diet/Plant Paradox thing, the more it looks like just another fad diet. I figure, when any diet starts saying to cut out brown rice in favor of white rice, it's probably not the best sign.

Either way, though, I'm making no changes to my diet until after my endoscopy is over and done with. I guess I really just want the test to show my stomach and all as it is now, not how I would like it to be. If that makes sense to anybody but me. Though I guess that's what really matters: that it makes sense to me. Right?

Anyway, I just took a Maxalt and a Flexeril, so I'm gonna go throw myself at my bed and see if it accepts me.

Well... today...

Monday, 4 February 2019 09:06 pm
apollymi: Duo, Usagi, and Heero with grunge border, text reads "OT3" (OT3: Duo/Usagi/Heero (grunge))
I had my first appointment with the gastroenterologist today. It was also my first appointment at Emory Saint Joseph's Hospital as well. That was interesting. Very confusing parking lot, but interesting all the same. I do have to have another endoscopy done. And let me say that getting a time set up for that was fun. They offered me Wednesday, but there was no way I could do that. Testing is just too crazy that day for us to even try that. I tried to counter with a Monday date; the doc doesn't do procedures on Mondays or Tuesdays.

So the best day we could come up with? Friday the 22nd. Yes, I have to have an endoscopy done on my birthday. Yay.


Sunday, 3 February 2019 10:37 pm
apollymi: Stitch holding his head in pain, no text (L&S**Stitch: Headache)
Well, no, I guess I was wrong: I didn't exactly get a lot done writing-wise today either. I barely got much of anything at all done today, point of fact, thanks to a nasty bit of headache. I finally just gave up and took some of the prescription stuff. Anything to counteract the stabbing pain in my left temple.

I texted this to Mum to remind to ask about, but I'll put it here too: I need to mention to the GI doctor tomorrow that, very suddenly, a lot of foods made with garlic suddenly taste very overpoweringly astringent or metallic to me. Which is distressing to me, because I love garlic.

In light of the headache, though, I'm going to try resting and see if that helps matters any.


Saturday, 2 February 2019 10:27 pm
apollymi: Don Schanke with a paper, looking very unimpressed, no text (FK**Schanke: Schanke is unimpressed)
Well, another weekend day has come and gone with nothing really to show for it. Well, at least not that the internet at large cares about.

I got all my information printed out for Monday's appointment. I made copies of my last endoscopy results. I printed out my lab results from October's tests, which is the most recent set done. I filled out my medical history online, so that I don't have to do all that when I get to the appointment. I spent some time tracking down exactly where the appointment will be at (St. Joe's), but I still haven't been able to find out if parking is free or paid there. Given the area, it's probably paid, so Mum is coming to pick me up at the house. That way, we only have to pay parking on one car.

I guess that's about all I've got to say for myself for today. Maybe tomorrow will be more productive, writing-wise.

A... day

Thursday, 31 January 2019 11:19 pm
apollymi: Kyle and Sarah, text reads "Come with me if you want to live" (Term**Kyle/Sarah: Come with me)
Honestly, the only reason I know what day it is anymore is because it's on my computer. I kinda want to call it a week and not bother going back to work, but I have to, I guess. I mean, I'm going to be off so many days in February that it would be wrong to take another day any time soon.

Let's see: I have Monday the 4th off for this initial consultation with the gastroenterologist. I have Monday the 11th off for [personal profile] katsuko's birthday. I have Friday the 22nd off for my own birthday. I think I've mentioned all that before, though.

What's been added to that is that I now have an interview for the position in Alpharetta for Wednesday the 6th. I'm still not terribly hopeful on the whole thing, but it's worth a shot. I'm not throwing this shot away. (Yes, I had to go there.)

It's a work night, and I'm so tired that I can barely see straight, but I'm also not actually sleepy. Tired, but not sleepy. Seems to be the story of my life, huh?

Something here

Sunday, 27 January 2019 11:23 pm
apollymi: Split icon, 1st close-up of Ripley's smug face, 2nd close-up of Hicks' grinning face, text reads "Where do you want it" (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley: Where do you want)
I am watching the weather like a hawk. (No Atlanta Hawks puns intended here. I tend to forget that team exists anyway.) It's calling for a wintry mix, which classically means that GSU will close with "an abundance of caution" or some other way of saying this is the South and we don't know what to do with snow, ice, or sleet.

So continuing the stomach weirdness, [personal profile] katsuko and I took Anastasia out for dinner last night to a Mexican restaurant we go to frequently. I carefully avoided anything with tomatoes or peppers in it, just to be on the safe side, and I even ate extra slow so that nothing would get stuck. In fact, I just got nachos, splitting an appetizer of them with [personal profile] katsuko and Anastasia, and then getting a plate of them for my dinner. Both the appetizer and the plate had cheese and refried beans, and the plate added on guacamole. It should have been safe, because these are all ingredients I've had at this same restaurant before. And yet, I spent most of the night dealing with the... explosive evacuation of the contents of my bowels, which usually means that something I ate a few hours before then was a very, very bad idea.

I don't know here. It's a single location place, though I would hesitate to call it a "small" restaurant. I can't vouch for the authenticity of their recipes. I know I always order from the "Vegetarian" section of the menu... But I also know that authentic refried beans are made with lard. I usually don't eat their rice, because I know a lot of authentic Mexican rice may be cooked with chicken broth.

I feel like the food I can eat is slowly being whittled away. Pretty soon, I'm going to be down to cheese balls, oyster crackers, and pudding, with the occasional side of potatoes and tofu.

And the damnedable thing is, I'm hungry. I'm so damn hungry. I feel so sick so much of the time. I have food evacuating my body at top speed, and yet I'm hungry.


Sunday, 20 January 2019 11:58 pm
apollymi: Bakura and Kaiba fanart, pastel colors, text reads "Jealous yet?" (YGO**Bakura/Kaiba: Jealous yet?)
I feel like I could just keel over from exhaustion right here and now. I did manage to sleep last night, at least for a few hours, but it certainly wasn't enough. Even grabbing a catnap during the day didn't really seem to help much. In fact, it really just rather leaves me feeling like I've wasted part of my weekend, not a feeling I particularly cherish.

In a bout of ongoing weirdness, yoghurt continues to sit quite fine on my stomach, while milk itself is a terrible, terrible idea. Cheese and butter are likewise okay. Potatoes are hit and miss, as are quinoa and couscous: I seem to do okay on them when I'm at home, but if I try to eat them at work, it gets bad. I just don't know.

So tired

Saturday, 19 January 2019 11:12 pm
apollymi: Zack looking confused, text reads "WTF?" (FF7**Zack: WTF?)
I'm in that nebulous point where I'm bloody exhausted and so far beyond tired... but I'm not sleepy. Not really anyway. And even though I'm this level of tired, my brain just doesn't want to shut off. Granted, all it's doing is spinning its wheels with loads of useless trivia facts and "shouldn't I check Facebook/Twitter/Tumblr/Instagram again" and so forth. I'm not going to entirely blame it on having caffeine so late at night... nor on how late we had dinner either.

I am happy to note that my usual Taco Bell fare didn't do anything untoward to my stomach, though. Pizza with red sauce was a bad thing, though.

I think tomorrow I'm going to try to make myself get some of all this handwritten stuff dealt with, so I can declutter a little bit.


Thursday, 17 January 2019 11:25 pm
apollymi: Split icon, top close-up of Ripley's face in color, bottom close-up of Hicks' face in b&w, no text (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley: Stares)
This is just going to be an incredibly short post, mostly because I'm about to go the hell to sleep sitting up at this rate, which is probably not a great thing. I'm not even sure if I'm making sense at this point. I'm tired. My head hurts. I'm cold.

We're pretty much at the end of the food that I've been readily able to eat... and yet now ramen noodles are causing me stomach issues. Let that digest. Ramen noodles. The same thing I've eaten pretty much my whole life, especially when I'm broke af... like right before payday. FML.


Saturday, 12 January 2019 09:48 pm
apollymi: Usagi holding Luna, Artemis, and Diana, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Kitties!)
Well, I finally got tired of using numbers for subject lines and went back to something a little more boring.

Today was a nice and boring kind of day. I texted with Mum, I hung out with [personal profile] katsuko and the kitties, and I read. I guess I also listened to the rain a bit to, which was nice, because I damn sure wasn't going to go out in it. And yet despite the "just above freezing" temperatures and the rain, the neighbors were out and being noisy, so I guess nothing short of snow or sleet slows them down.

Let's see: on the food note, I was able to a little bit of pasta last night, but it took me twice as long as normal. The brioche bread was all right and didn't seem to get stuck, but I did wind up feeling a bit queasy a few hours later. I'm not sure if that was from the brioche or because that had been all I had eaten all day up until that point. Mashed potatoes were all right, but broccoli and cheese sauce kept making reappearances.

Mum and I discussed the idea of me going back to doing smoothies again or even going with smoothie bowls. At least for a bit, until we get all this settled out with my stomach. And it's like, I would love to, but I'm not sure I can really afford to. Even frozen fruits get really expensive after a while.


Wednesday, 9 January 2019 11:51 pm
apollymi: Striker Eureka logo, bulldog with bomb in mouth, text reads "Striker Eureka" (PacRim**Striker Eureka: Logo (Max))
So I heard back from my doctor. She wants me to go see a gastroenterologist and likely have a new endoscopy done. She's not too sure what to make of any of this, and she feels like she needs more lab results instead of relying solely on symptoms. So she's going to put me in a referral to one she knows and has worked with before. Mum wants to come with to the initial appointment, and honestly, I'm inclined to let her. I seem to be shit lately at explaining my issues to doctors in a way that makes everything clear and understood. Letting one of the family nurses come along could only be a good thing, I'm thinking.

Other than that, it was a fairly quiet day today. I mean, yeah, Glynda made one girl cry, but that's not exactly unusual.

And I didn't get nearly as much written today as I did yesterday, but I guess that's okay too.


Tuesday, 8 January 2019 11:49 pm
apollymi: Drawing of cross-looking chick, holding a teabag. Text reads "No tea No work" (Stock: No tea = no work)
Well, today sucked out loud. And weirdly, it wasn't even work that sucked. No, it actually went pretty all right, with coworkers behaving well and pleasant testers, even when they didn't pass their tests! I know: amazing, right?

No, apparently, the ongoing saga of my health continues. I've had issues in the past with my stomach. I had a gastroenterologist back in Tallahassee, Dr. Konda. She was one of the most abrupt, terrifying doctors I've ever worked with, but damn, she knows her stuff. She did an endoscopy of me, I think back in 2010 or so. I had a small ulcer, a Schatzki ring, a hiatal hernia, and an esophagus that -- in her words -- looked like a cat scratched it up.

I keep having trouble with food getting stuck (or "impacted") in my esophagus. When it happens, it's a sudden sharp pain right below my sternum. Most of the time I can still breathe, but there's no getting around the issue. Sometimes I can try to swallow on nothing and get it to go down, but the majority of the time, I end up gagging and having to throw up all my food to get any relief.

I've had this for years, obviously. It's been an issue in the past, but oh, it has been flaring up quite a bit recently. It's happened a few times with bread and once or twice with tortilla chips, but now it's starting with pasta and sometimes rice too.

Well, joy of all joys, it happened today at work. I had a couple of bites of my lemon chickpea orzo soup... and then, bam! Stuck feeling. I ended up throwing up in the staff room sink a few times, before I retreated to the staff restroom to throw up for pretty much the rest of my lunch period. In fact, I ended up vomiting so hard that I actually got to see what looked like silver sparkles or Christmas tinsel all over the room. Let me tell you: that sucked. I thought I was going to pass out in the staff bathroom.

Obviously I got through it, but damn, it was scary. I mean, like, legit scary. Between feeling like you're choking and then thinking you're going to pass out? Not a fun way to spend a Thursday lunch shift.

So I couldn't eat my lunch or snack today. I ended up having breakfast and dinner and a lot of soda, because sometimes the carbonation helps clear up the choking feeling.

And yes, I contacted my doctor. I'm waiting for her to get back in touch with me. The nurses in my family want me to get checked for something called "eosinophilic esophagitis", especially since my PPI medicine doesn't seem to be working much anymore.

So, I guess I have to find a new GI doctor up here. Great, more money going out.


Sunday, 12 August 2018 08:38 pm
apollymi: Doujinshi art, Roy & Ed, no text (FMA**Roy/Ed: These quiet moments)
Somehow my entire Sunday is gone again already?! How does this shit keep happening?

Okay, granted, today was a lot of a repeat of yesterday: feeling like I'm getting yanked down into unconsciousness. I'm still not sure if this is something to be concerned about or if it's just thanks to my general lack of sleep during the week.

Tomorrow through Thursday, I'll be opening at work. I've already been told that there is a strong possibility that we'll be secret shopped again. All I know is to be looking for a black man in his 50s: no idea what test or anything. I even made a point of telling LaTrease, "No offense, but I'm not opening ever again: too much of this shit keeps happening on days when I open".

Damn, but I feel queasy. I think I'm going to have to dose with some Pepto Bismol before I go to bed. I know part of it is, sadly, the fact I'm hungry, which is a pain.

Anyway, I'm going to see if crashing will help with any or all of this. See everyone tomorrow.


Sunday, 17 June 2018 09:57 pm
apollymi: Duo, Usagi, and Heero with grunge border, text reads "OT3" (OT3: Duo/Usagi/Heero (grunge))
I have had the sick stomach most of the day, along with the headache from hell, so I've been taking it easy and trying to recuperate a bit before I have to go back to work tomorrow. I can't even say I left the house, because I didn't even manage that much.

I did actually take a wee bit too much NyQuill last night, so I slept fantastically, but that's probably a little beside the point.

Luci has sung me many, many songs today. It's been terribly sweet.

And damn it, I just hit a wiki-about that has kept me awake far longer than I meant to be. I'm gonna tie this up and go the hell back to bed. Later, all.

A few things to say

Friday, 16 March 2018 09:27 pm
apollymi: Captain America in the middle of rubble, no text (Aveng**Cap: Devestation)
I guess I can provide a little chit-chat about things that went on yesterday and today. It's certainly not going to be much, because I think I drifted through most of this week.

I did have my rheumatologist appointment yesterday. Of all the doctors I actually have to see, I like Dr. Singh and his PA Magdelena best, simply because they actually seem to give a damn about finding out what my problems are and how best to handle (and maybe fix) them.

Cut for health blathering )

I'm just about to give up on the fundraiser. I've only gotten the two donations, and while $50 is generous, it's not enough to do anything car-wise. It might not even be enough to put gas in the Malibu. It's pretty obvious that this is really low down on the priority list, with all the other fundraisers going around, especially on Tumblr, recently.

I don't have a good enough sob story, I guess. I just have a dead car, a loaner that I won't have for long, massive debt, bad credit, and an overwhelming urge to check my life insurance policy to see if it would help [personal profile] katsuko out if I could make it look like an accident, since there is a rider in my life insurance plan for that, since it's within two years of the start of my policy.

And yes, the depression is back in full swing. And I don't even care.
apollymi: Buffy looking displeased, text reads "Not impressed" (BtVS**Buffy: Not impressed)
So what has today held? Well, not as much writing as I had hoped. I needed a good 5000 word day to start getting caught back up. That... didn't happen. I blame the fact that I've been feeling sick as a damn dog most of the day, like if I swallow wrong, everything I've ever eaten in my life is going to make a sudden and Technicolor reappearance.

There's also the bit about how the neighbors' stereo has been blaring since at least 10:30. Now, granted, tomorrow is not as early a day as normal... but it's still an early enough day that I want to get to bed at a decent time, not listen to their music at ass o'clock at night.

Also, the check Mum gave me for my surgery copay still hasn't gone through at the bank. I have to make that payment tomorrow morning, so that I can have my surgery on December 13, so obviously I'm getting a bit worried. Usually I get an email saying when my funds should be available, but I didn't get that email this time. Now the nice lady at Customer Service says that it should be there by in the morning, but yeah, obviously... I'm a little concerned at this point.

Everything is a complaint today. I'm kinda sorry about that. It's not my favorite thing to do, despite all evidence to the contrary. I might be good at it, but it's not something that I enjoy doing.

Mostly today I've been working on part of Shelter and some of the original thing I started before the holiday. It's... all right, I guess. I mean, to me, it's obviously an original based loosely off Mag7 and urban fantasy tropes, but it's making words happen. That's what counts right now, right? And it's sort of nice playing in the urban fantasy genre again. It's sort of where I cut my teeth in the originals market. And it's fun playing with the tropes -- the werewolf, the witch, the vampires, etc -- and seeing what new directions I can take them in. I've found a few of those, and it's proving interesting. Words, you know, right? That's what matters right now, right?

And yeah, I'm so very, very just... ugh... that I'm going to go ahead and throw myself at my bed. Maybe Pepto Bismol and sleep will do more to cure my stomach and general bleghness than sitting here bitching about it. Goodnight, all.
apollymi: Hicks holding Ripley as Ripley holds Newt, text reads "Family" (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley+Newt: Family)
So the doctor's appointment went fairly well. I'm pretty pleased with how it went.

I saw a temporary doctor today because my regular PCP is still on maternity leave. I kind of adore my temporary doctor, but she assures me that I will like the regular one once I get to meet her. Everyone at the office was super impressed with my record keeping and the fact I brought them in copies of some of my medical records. They all said it was a big help and gave them a good place to start, even if the records are four years out of date (because I haven't been to a doctor for more than a prescription top off or urgent care visit since then).

It did help that one of the records I found way a yearly summary, including medications I was taking at the time and what lab tests I had had done recently. Mostly those were checking and rechecking my A1C, my C-Reactive Protein, iron levels, and my thyroid levels. She expressed some concerns over the number of times they checked and rechecked my C-Reactive Proteins and thyroid levels. It seemed odd, she said, that they never managed to pin down the cause of my joint pain and just stopped at fibromyalgia without ever sending me to a rheumatologist. So she's not beating around the bush: she's sending me to one to try to pin down the problems with my joints.

Fibromyalgia is a diagnosis you only come to when you've exhausted all other possible diagnoses, apparently, and she was a little unhappy that they hung that diagnosis on me without those last few steps. If that makes sense.

So I'm back on some of my old medication: Albuterol (asthma), Maxalt (migraines), and Pantoprazole (gastroenteritis). I'm on a new antidepressant, Paxil. She's starting me on 10mg and will be building me up to 20mg in about a month. It's a chance to see if it's something that works better for me than some of the other things I've used over the years (Effexor, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Zyprexa, and Elavil), since it might also help with my anxiety.

I'm just ready to start feeling more like who I used to be again. I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.

I have to go back in three weeks, which is going to be fun, let me tell you, trying to get more time off work. I'll figure something out. I always do. (I always have to.)

Anyway, sleep now. It's an early, long day tomorrow, between [personal profile] katsuko's 6:00 IKEA shift, my 8:30 GSU shift, and [personal profile] katsuko's 5:00 Mirko shift. If nothing else, this visit has resulted in an admonition to try to take things easier... as well as a note to let me wear trainers to work, so that my plantar fasciitis has a chance to start trying to heal some.

And yeah, that's it. Later, all.


Tuesday, 10 January 2017 11:09 pm
apollymi: Scarlett looking pissy, text reads "Bitches get stuff done" (GwtW**Scarlett: Bitches get stuff done)
I did my catering this morning for Cliff Valley School. It's always one of the easiest schools we have to do every week, and they are certainly the most consistent. [personal profile] katsuko talked to Carlos and got some things clarified about what all she is responsible for as bartender. We came home and got some food into us and had a shower in preparation for the massive hair dying that will be occurring tomorrow.

It's always a task and a half getting my hair dyed, but it'll be worth it to have black hair again. I've missed it. I mean, I've missed it like burning. I mean, I spent money I really should have been saving back towards hair dye, that's how much I've missed having my black hair. We are still searching for some of the John Frieda red depositing shampoo and conditioner for [personal profile] katsuko, though. After all, she went with the Gingering route for her hair this time around.

I've had kitties on me most of the day today, which has really made getting much of anything done today interesting to say the least. So, yeah, I really haven't been able to do much of anything. I read, and when I had all three on me and couldn't even get to my laptop, I napped. I had had plans of working on Wicked Ones today, but yeah, not so much. Not to say that I'm not going to keep trying to get words on it today, but I am running out of today to keep writing in.

All in all, I just kind of want to collapse on my couch all over again and maybe do another nap. I'm tired, but I'm not really sleepy, not enough to go to bed for the entire night. After all, I'm still have the grossness from whatever set off my stomach yesterday. I had some very greasy lo mein and it did a lot to help, but I'm still feel pretty awful and am constantly running to the toilet.

But at least I don't have to do tomorrow's catering. That one is all Carlos, and I'm happy for it. I enjoy the money, but Christ the King School is just a gigantic pain in the ass, one I'm not willing to put up with. He wants to keep them, so he can handle them.

Tomorrow, though, we do have to do laundry and go by the apartment front office to show our proof of rental insurance... again. We've already turned it in once, but apparently it didn't get attached to our file or something. So we're going to turn in another one and see if that one takes. And yeah, the only other thing we have to do tomorrow is the laundry. We might need to run to PetCo and get some more high calorie cat food for the babies, but only if we can afford it. Otherwise it's probably over to Kroger for some regular grain-free cat food.

We might try to set up somewhere and do some writing, but that's very in the air. Funds are very limited, and we do need to get my hair dyed, which isn't a quick process, since there's so much of it.

But mostly there will be writing.


Monday, 9 January 2017 10:59 pm
apollymi: Hatter with a cuppa, text reads "Tea?" (Alice**Hatter: Tea?)
So it hasn't been a good day for writing, but I'm not giving up on it today, not yet. I've been fighting with Scrivener all day, trying to get it to sync into Dropbox or pull up the most up to date copy of documents or what have you. It's just been a pain, but it's still one of the better writing programs I've used, so I'm sticking with it. After all, I'm much more comfortable with it than I am with Storyist... and I can use it to share documents with my coauthor [personal profile] katsuko much easier than, say, Word.

Work was a bit of shit show today. Not digging the new manager, Erik. I'm assuming he's an Erik with a k, not an Eric with a c. It's a thing. That's all I've got to say on that. It's a thing. We're talking to Carlos about this thing tomorrow, so I'm not going to be getting into it until then.

I do have a serious case of the unhappy stomach though, so I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to sit around to get writing done. Maybe if I take my laptop with me to the toilet. It's not an appealing thought, but needs must and all that. I didn't eat anything today that I haven't had a hundred times before, but something with it made my stomach unhappy. Without anything better to say, I'll blame the barbecue sauce. :-(

So yeah, tonight might be the first night I have to admit defeat at less than 1000 words. We'll see. I'm going to keep on trying, at least for a little bit longer.