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I can't even. I've got nothing.

I came home from work today, to find Roo had passed away. We had him from the time he was six weeks old until he was eleven.

He had a bad bout of anemia from fleas last fall, though, and he never really recovered his health from it. Last night, he was a bit weak, a bit shaky in his back legs. This morning, he didn't want breakfast but nibbled on some dry food when I put it out. Given his low weight thanks to the anemia, we decided he needed a vet visit today. Neither of us could get off work on short notice, so we decided that, if I could get out on time, I would go get him and take him.

Well, I got off early, got [personal profile] katsuko dropped off at Mirko, and came to the house... to find he had passed away. Boo was right there with him, acting like she had been there for quite a while. Given how close they always were, I hope this means she was with him through it all.

I started 2017 with three cats. On 18 April, we lost Jimi. And today, 21 July, we lost Roo. Since we moved to these apartments, we've lost two cats. I'm trying not to see a pattern. I'm also trying not to see that I lost Jimi a week before I started at GSU and Roo a few days short of my 3 month anniversary there. I'm trying to tell myself it's bad luck piling on top of bad luck. Correlation, not causation.

But I cannot take much more of this. We only have Boo left. I'm thanking every deity I can think of that she's always been healthy as a horse, but then, until the flea anemia, so was Roo. I can't take any more of this. I just can't.

Date: 22 Jul 2017 07:24 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] daimeryan_rei
I'm so, so sorry to hear about your loss, dear. This is really too much to handle, and I wish I was closer so I could do something for you, if only for a few words of consolation in person. You did all you could do for your kitties dear, don't blame yourself for it. He wasn't alone when he passed away, and he's over that rainbow bridge where Jimi is waiting for him and every other cat in the world, to play with and love him. I know it's a sober consolation and I'm not telling you to move on immediately. Give yourself some time to grief and cry as much as you want. A companion of almost eleven years old is gone, but not forgotten. *superhugs* If you want to talk, send me an e-mail, okay/

Date: 22 Jul 2017 04:46 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] not_hathor
Oh no! I'm so sorry, my 'polly-mio.... many, many hugs!