Nthing to say

Tuesday, 28 March 2017 10:56 pm
apollymi: Bakura and Kaiba, close up on eyes, text reads "Your eyes" (YGO**Bakura/Kaiba: Your eyes)
I really ahve nothing at all to say. I'm so tired that my eyes keep drifting shut, and it's getting harder and harder to open them once again.

So while I should do a full journal entry today... I'm going to finish up the post, finish up Monstrous: After Midnight, and then maybe go the fuck to sleep.

And yeah, that's all I've got today. Later.

Updating on stuff

Monday, 20 March 2017 11:08 pm
apollymi: Close up of Hicks' face, text reads "Save your life" (Aliens**Hicks: Save your life)
All I've written on in the last couple of days has been the zombie fic. Tentatively, [personal profile] katsuko and I are calling it Resurrectionist. I'm not sure if that will just be a working title or an ongoing title. Only time will tell. I even have a writing playlist for it. That's usually a sign that I intend to stick with a story. For whatever that's worth.

I emailed GSU yesterday and heard back today. They're verifying references at the moment. I'm not sure how that affects me, if it does at all. I'm applying to other positions as well while I'm waiting, because I refuse to hedge my bets on one position alone. I need out of Mirko Pasta, and apparently that's only going to happen if I throw as many hooks out there as I possibly can.

That's about all I've got to say for myself for today, though. I've got catering in the morning, which is fine, I guess. I tore my finger open a bit last Tuesday doing all of this, but there's no one available to help me unload it from the van at the school, so I've got no choice but to do it myself, really.

And even though I rested a bit, I'm about to fall asleep here, so I'm going to type up the bits I have handwritten, and then I'm going to go the fuck to bed.

Later, all.

Lazy day

Thursday, 16 March 2017 10:45 pm
apollymi: Hicks holding Ripley back, text reads "Together" (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley: Together)
I did a whole lot of nothing today. I feel vaguely more human than I did yesterday or the day before, but I also feel like I could use two or three more days of this to be in a better place mentally. I'm still working on it, and mostly it involves sleeping a lot. But I'm getting there. I'm trying.

I still have moments where I just want to go jump off a bridge. I'm not exaggerating. I want to jump off a bridge. I'm afraid of heights. But no, my brain has decided that the 400-to-85N overpass looks really fucking appealing. I drive over it once a week, and I drive under it three or four times a week. It's a constant thought. I tell myself that rush hour traffic is bad enough without a body to contend with too. Some days it even helps.

What I haven't done yet today is write. I've answered questions about writing. I've read other people's writing. But I have done very little of my own.

I need Wicked Ones to talk to me. I need to know what the hell is going on in Joshua's head, post-confrontation with Goody. I know he's working his own way to a better mental place, but he's not 100% there yet.

Damn, I wish all my friends from all my fandoms would watch this movie. I appreciate all the reviews and such I've been getting, but there are just times I want to see what [personal profile] desolate03 or [personal profile] daimeryan_rei think of some of the crap I'm writing right now. Granted, some of the stories are so AU that you almost don't need to have seen the movie. But sometimes we just flat out skip scenes that we didn't change from the movie, so that doesn't actually work.

The cut on my hand is looking a little closer to healed. I almost think the part across the meat is nearly there. It's the part that's closer to the side and the nail that is still lingering. The butterfly bandages have done a great job of keeping it from moving and all, so it is getting a chance to heal up nicely. It ain't gonna be pretty, but hopefully sooner or later, it'll be healed up.

What little I have written today has been on Monstrous: After Midnight. I'm working on the final battle in chunks and pieces. I have a whole mess of things that have to happen. I need to get through the Gatling gun, Fae-raday being shot, Jack Horne turning wendigo, blowing up the Gatling gun, and the aftermath. I don't know what [personal profile] katsuko's plans are, if she's going to try to get us to the point I'm writing, if she's going to tackle the Bogue takedown, or what's happening.

And that's enough whinging for today. I've been working on this for well over an hour now. That's longer than any journal post of any length should take.

Later, all.

Lady dammit

Friday, 3 March 2017 11:46 pm
apollymi: Richard III on castle wall, next to sign reading "Not Fair" (HH**Richard3: Not fair)
Sorry. The subject line references my cat Boo, who is indeed a lady, dammit. She might be a distinctly solid state (I'm not going to say she's fat, but she's got some heft to her) and she might be opinionated as fuck, but she's sweet as can be... and when she wants to be on a lap (at least when the lap belongs to [personal profile] katsuko), she'll circle back and forth and polite put one foot up on her lap until she gets permission. Because she's a lady, dammit.

Today was a long day, with catering in the morning, a long gap in the afternoon, and then dinner shift, all at Mirko. It would have been a lot longer if [personal profile] katsuko hadn't called out of IKEA for this morning. She was scheduled to be there at 6:00... which would have meant leaving the house no later than 5:15, so getting up by 4:30. I was already at the point of tired where I was setting dark skittering shapes out of the corner of my eye, which is the point of tired I don't enjoy being. Loopy enough for some all over the place writing? Fan-fucking-tastic. Loopy enough to see shit that ain't there? Pass.

So only doing the catering and not IKEA today meant that I got to get caught up a bit on some sleep. No more dark skittering shapes out of the corner of my eye, which was damn good, I think. If I hadn't had massive amounts of soda today, I would probably already be in bed trying to get some more damn sleep. Mmmm, sleep. It sounds lovely, but I'm a little too wired for it right now.

[personal profile] katsuko and I have just about finished with that scene of great heartbreak on Wicked Ones. We had to scrap about 400 words of it, because it was getting way too close to permanently and irreparably breaking the characters beyond what even we could fix. Joshua was at the point of just emotionally shattering, in a very literal sense, and... yeah. While it was very well written and evocative, it just broke the boys too much to leave in. I much prefer the new version we did today.

And yeah, I'm tired and sore and am giving some thought to giving bed a try anyway, soda or no soda.

So... later, all.

A lazy, lazy day

Wednesday, 1 March 2017 10:14 pm
apollymi: Hotaru skipping happily, text reads "The Hotaru-verse is a shiny and fluffy place with skipping" (SDK**Hotaru: It's a skipping happy unive)
We ended up not going to bed until late yesterday, with the thought that we had nowhere to be today, so we might as well do all the writing and stuff we want and to hell with sleep. So yeah, we ended up going to bed around 3:00 in the morning... and then I still woke up before 9:00 in the morning because Roo needed his loving.

I swear, he and Jimi are conspiring against me. Jimi gets himself settled between my knees in such a way that I can't move around in the night... which means I can't move into a position that prevents Roo from settling across my chest. It's like being tag-teamed. They're smart and devious boys, that's for sure.

I have a follow-up interview with GSU set for Tuesday, in response to the telephone interview I had last week. This one will be face to face in the department that I would be working in, with the people I would be working with. So that's a good thing. Also Mum forwarded my resume to a doctor in Kennesaw she's worked with before and who is in need of an Administrative Assistant, so there is that. Maybe. Just maybe. I'm not holding my breath. I'm tired of getting my hopes up and then getting them dashed to the ground again.

Right now, [personal profile] katsuko and I are working on the reconciliation chapter of Wicked Ones... and I want to shake both of these boys. Or smack them both with a rolled up newspaper. They kind of deserve it. They both need to stop and actually listen to each other, and they ain't doing a good job of that, even when finally making their apologies.

So, yeah, we're just going to keep working on that and get it out of the way. That sounds like a good plan. I like this plan. I think we're going to do that.

So, later, all.

Something

Friday, 24 February 2017 11:45 pm
apollymi: Hicks training Ripley w/weapons, Ripley looking over shoulder at him, text reads "You started this. Show me everything" (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley: Show me everything)
I'm not too sure how man words I have in me today. I'm tired... but what else is new? It seems like I'm always tired.

I did a phone interview today with Georgia State University in the Academic Testing department. Were I to get the job, it would mostly be overseeing testing to make certain that no one cheats, or at least that's what it sounds like from the description. I also went ahead and applied for two more jobs at GSU while I was on the site. It seemed like a good idea at the time. We'll see if anything comes of any of it, yeah?

I'm not exactly holding my breath here. After all, I've lost count how many applications and interviews I've done since I moved to Atlanta in 2013. It has to be over 1,100 applications and 25 interviews, though. I'm starting to think I'm going to be stuck at the restaurant until the day I die... because it's going to kill me.

I'm working on getting the next bit of Wicked Ones posted. I'm also trying to persuade that particular Joshua to let me finish the scene we're in, but he's not in the mood to cooperate. Whatever happened to my talkative Mean Joshua who gave me so many words over November, December, and January? Where did he go? Is it because I bragged on my philosophy of "shut up and let the Mean Faraday talk"? Because if so, not cool, man. I need words. I need all the words.

Gods, I could just fall sleep right where I'm sitting: scrunched up in a corner of the couch in [personal profile] katsuko's room, heading lolling to one side, kitty tucked up to my side. Roo has been a wonderful helper today, after all. It's been a very good thing. I wish he could go do the hosting at Mirko for me sometimes, but I'll take the rest of the help I get from him. Right now it's the "holding the couch down so it doesn't float away" kind of help, which is very, very important, you know.

What I need to be doing when the gay cowboys aren't talking to me is working on the rewrite of Color of Life. Instead, I'm just sort of sitting here, staring at my Tumblr like it's going to do a trick. To be fair, it might. You never really know with Tumblr.

Anyway, I should be writing, but since I'm drifting off and having a very hard time typing without typos, I'm thinking I'm going to call it a night.

Later, all.

Updating

Thursday, 23 February 2017 11:35 pm
apollymi: Princess Serenity sitting on a throne, deep in thought, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Contemplation (Serenity))
I've had a full day, but most of it has been babbling. Honestly! I've babbled on Tumblr. I've babbled in review responses. I've babbled at work. I've babbled to the felines. None of it has been on any real substance, but it's made me feel a little better.

I've been in meltdown mode most of the day, to be honest. Mum hasn't been much better. She's been in panic "what do we do now" mode. I don't have the answers to that. Right now, I barely have the answers of what I'm going to eat for my next meal, much less how to recover from not getting a job I both wanted and needed... again.

#365k/365Day is still coming along nicely enough. I'm still sitting a few days ahead, though not as much as I would like to be. I'm going to keep trying to build that lead. I've got a ways yet to go to be where I want to be.

And I started on the second Wicked Ones "What If...?" story. This one is titled "Wild Horses" for now. It builds off a question asked by one of the WO characters about what their lives would have been like if they'd both been too young to fight in the War. So instead of being 11 and 18 in 1861, Goody and Joshua were both roughly 11 at the time. (There is an in story explanation for this. It's still not nice, because they still didn't have a worthwhile father.)

And now, I'm going the fuck to bed. I've got catering in the morning, barely enough time for a quick lunch with [personal profile] katsuko before I drop her off at IKEA, a phone interview with GSU, and then back to Mirko. It's another full day. Fun times.

Later, all.

Stupid early

Tuesday, 21 February 2017 06:50 am
apollymi: Sleepy orange kitten, text reads "Not awake not not not not not" (Kitten: Not awake)
I said last night that I had to get up stupid early to take [personal profile] katsuko to IKEA. Hello and welcome to stupid early. This post will be a huge ramble, because it's stupid early. Those two words might well be a theme for this post. I'm really tired, so I'm really babbly.

Cut for politics, US healthcare, and rants on Buckhead )

Cut for talking about writing and Mag 7 )

And finally, without a cut... Tomorrow's my birthday. I'm not even sure that I'm going to be able to go visit the family for it. Money's just too tight. [personal profile] katsuko and I celebrated her birthday too hard earlier in the month. I feel like I would be remiss to not include a link to my Amazon wishlists, though. Ummm, I like fanart and fanfic?

And I've killed most of the time I needed to wait, so I'm gonna close this off now. Later, all.

Something fast

Monday, 20 February 2017 11:23 pm
apollymi: The Labyrinth goblins staring out of dark background, text reads "The goblins are out to get you" (Labyrinth**Goblins: Out to get you!)
I'm going to make something really quick here, because I fell asleep in the middle of writing an entry last night. (Whoops.) Not exactly ideal, yeah? Go, team me, with the embarrassing, huh?

Tomorrow's an early morning too, with me having to drop off [personal profile] katsuko at IKEA at 6:00. ~.~ After that, it's over to Panera Bread to kill time until the kitchen guys get there for us to do the catering order. So I have to kill from around 6:15 until around 8:45, roughly speaking, given how long it takes to get from IKEA to Panera and then to get from Panera to Mirko.

I'll do the catering tomorrow and drive it over to its two respective schools, though thankfully not in my own car, and then it's back over to IKEA to pick up [personal profile] katsuko again. We're going to go from there to the tag office to renew Shinigami's plates ahead of my birthday on Wednesday. I think [personal profile] katsuko is planning on moving laundry up to tomorrow instead of Wednesday like normal, and I think that's about it.

Writing. That needs to happen, and a lot of it needs to happen. I'm still running ahead of the year. It's Day 51. I'm sitting at 58,195 words so far for the year. It's respectable. I'm not behind. But I'm losing my surplus. [personal profile] katsuko is running about 2500 words behind right now. I know that, once the April Camp NaNoWriMo rolls around, we'll be able to get caught up and get some more, but we're trying not to fall so far behind that Camp can't catch us up. So far she's had 4 days completely without writing. I've managed to avoid that, but my word day has been 465 words... and I've had a few of those kinds of days during February. Most days are still over 1000 words, but not enough of them to make me happy. I'll get back over there, though. I just need these damn boys to start cooperating.

I might need to include Roo in "these damn boys". He's giving the laptop some major headbutting love, enough to damn near knock it off my lap. That's saying something. He has great happiness, obviously.

Anyway, it's now time for sleeping so that we can get up stupid early in the morning. Later, all.

Long day

Sunday, 19 February 2017 11:06 pm
apollymi: Hicks' face, faded icon, text reads "If in doubt, NUKE IT" (Aliens**Hicks: Nuke the site from orbit)
Long day was long today. I'm really rather glad it's over and done with... even if [personal profile] katsuko and I do still have to get up and get going early tomorrow morning. Not as early as it could be, true, since she doesn't work until 10:00, but still early.

In fact, I'm taking her in for what amounts to a training session... and that's it. She has to be there for two frickin' hours.

Something

Tuesday, 14 February 2017 10:12 pm
apollymi: Yami no Bakura on a stripy background, text reads "Evil (crossed out 'looks like') IS a gay Japanese schoolboy" (YGO**Bakura: The face of evil)
I'm struggling to keep my eyes open at this point. [personal profile] katsuko has given up trying and has passed out. I'm just trying to stay awake until my hair is dry, but if it takes much longer, I'm just going to braid it wet and go to bed.

Yeah, I think that's what I'm going to do.

I've managed some words on Wicked Ones, but most of my word count today has been the Monstrous site's page for the Wild Hunt.

Wish me luck tomorrow with the second interview at GPLS. I have a half hour meeting with the State Librarian and then an hour long skills test.

And damn, [personal profile] katsuko is snoring up a storm, so yeah, I'm going to go back the hall to my own bed now. G'night, all.
apollymi: Duo and Heero back to back, text reads "Together" (GW**Duo/Heero: Together)
Today has been a damn long day and I am more than ready for it to be over. I got [personal profile] katsuko to work at IKEA by 6:00 this morning, which meant that we had to leave the house by 5:20, so we had to be up by no later than 5:00. Like I said, I dropped her off and then tried to go to Starbucks. The sign on the door said that they open at 6:00, but it was damn sure still dark when I tried to stop by, so I went on to Panera Bread. By the time I got there, it was about 6:10 or 6:15; they open at 6:00 on the dot, or they're supposed to, per some other locations besides this one. The person who rang me up was ill-tempered, rude, and given to the heavy "why are you making me work" sighs. Still, I got my hot tea and tucked myself into a corner with an outlet to try to make words come until it was time to head back to IKEA, once it was open for the day.

I didn't manage nearly as much as I wanted to, words-wise. I haven't done too bad today, but I have yet to reach the minimum number of words I need--1,000--but I haven't given up trying for the day yet either. I'm still fighting these boys, trying to make them do what I want them to do. Not what they want to do, which is apparently make googly eyes at one another.

I got bored and uploaded a screenshot of my Scrivener folder... or at least The Magnificent Seven part of it. Because apparently the world needs to see the level of ridiculously organized insanity that I subscribe to and create.

And yeah, that's about it. [personal profile] katsuko and I have been turning the house upside down trying to find Jimi's collar. He ditched it while we were at work yesterday, and now we can't seem to find it. Usually he's good about getting it back out from wherever he's ditched it in a couple of hours, but so far that hasn't been the case this time. And it's his spiffy Sith collar too!

And now, for real, that's it. Later, all.
apollymi: Animal with a drum cymbal in his mouth, text reads "Eat Drums! (Muppets**Animal: Eat drums!)
We had a busy day, between coming up with things to do for [personal profile] katsuko's birthday and trying to do the pet sitting too. It wasn't too bad, I guess, but it still wasn't the kind of birthday I wanted to do for her. We went out to lunch and did a little shopping and went to a movie, all of which is fine and good... but it was interspersed with the pet sitting. Teak is a sweetheart and all, but I guess I wanted a birthday completely off for her.

Especially since I doubt my birthday will be completely off, unless I manage to get the car finished before the very last minute. Yeah, I'm not exactly holding my breath on that one, as you might have guessed.

Also, we have had way too much Roo assistance since we've been home. It's... exhausting, more than the rest of the day was, I think. He's making laps of the couch and walking all over keyboard keys. It's made much of anything very, very difficult.

So I think I'm going to try to write while he's occupied elsewhere. Or I might just eat the word count loss and go on to bed. We have another full damn day tomorrow.

Actually, yeah, that sounds lovely.

So yeah

Tuesday, 7 February 2017 10:54 pm
apollymi: Hatter with a cuppa, text reads "Tea?" (Alice**Hatter: Tea?)
Long day has been hella long. I got up ridiculously early and took [personal profile] katsuko to IKEA by 6:00 in the morning. I then went to Panera Bread and tried to stay awake until catering at Mirko time. That ended up going very well; my Greek school gave me cake this time, which is always a nice thing. Like I told the administrator there, never say no to free cake. I helped Carlos out with a few issues in the restaurant that he was having trouble with, mostly the new email system. And then it was back over to IKEA to wait for [personal profile] katsuko to get off work.

I also ended up getting a call back from GPLS. They want me to come in next Wednesday for a second interview. So... maybe that's a good sign? It's going to be a longer visit this time, and it will consist of a half hour meeting with the State Librarian and then an hour long computer skills test. So maybe something good?

I tried to grab a nap when we got home, but of course Roo and Boo didn't permit for that, so instead I ended up catching up on some of the fanfic reading I had been putting off. But hopefully that means I'll sleep good tonight. I'm not exactly holding my breath for it, but I'm hopeful. Yeah, hopeful.

And yet again, I've spent most of the day working on the Mag7/Lev thing instead of the stories that need it. I need words to happen on Wicked Ones or Monstrous: After Midnight... or even Trinity, not the Mag7/Lev thing. But oh no, that's the Vasquez that wants to talk to me. And he has plenty to say. I'm actually having a hard time keeping up with how much he wants to say. And, weirdly, the original thing I worked on during July Camp NaNo is giving some words. I'm not displeased with this part, but I really need Wicked Ones to play nice.

But yeah, that's about it for me for now.

Something

Tuesday, 10 January 2017 11:09 pm
apollymi: Scarlett looking pissy, text reads "Bitches get stuff done" (GwtW**Scarlett: Bitches get stuff done)
I did my catering this morning for Cliff Valley School. It's always one of the easiest schools we have to do every week, and they are certainly the most consistent. [personal profile] katsuko talked to Carlos and got some things clarified about what all she is responsible for as bartender. We came home and got some food into us and had a shower in preparation for the massive hair dying that will be occurring tomorrow.

It's always a task and a half getting my hair dyed, but it'll be worth it to have black hair again. I've missed it. I mean, I've missed it like burning. I mean, I spent money I really should have been saving back towards hair dye, that's how much I've missed having my black hair. We are still searching for some of the John Frieda red depositing shampoo and conditioner for [personal profile] katsuko, though. After all, she went with the Gingering route for her hair this time around.

I've had kitties on me most of the day today, which has really made getting much of anything done today interesting to say the least. So, yeah, I really haven't been able to do much of anything. I read, and when I had all three on me and couldn't even get to my laptop, I napped. I had had plans of working on Wicked Ones today, but yeah, not so much. Not to say that I'm not going to keep trying to get words on it today, but I am running out of today to keep writing in.

All in all, I just kind of want to collapse on my couch all over again and maybe do another nap. I'm tired, but I'm not really sleepy, not enough to go to bed for the entire night. After all, I'm still have the grossness from whatever set off my stomach yesterday. I had some very greasy lo mein and it did a lot to help, but I'm still feel pretty awful and am constantly running to the toilet.

But at least I don't have to do tomorrow's catering. That one is all Carlos, and I'm happy for it. I enjoy the money, but Christ the King School is just a gigantic pain in the ass, one I'm not willing to put up with. He wants to keep them, so he can handle them.

Tomorrow, though, we do have to do laundry and go by the apartment front office to show our proof of rental insurance... again. We've already turned it in once, but apparently it didn't get attached to our file or something. So we're going to turn in another one and see if that one takes. And yeah, the only other thing we have to do tomorrow is the laundry. We might need to run to PetCo and get some more high calorie cat food for the babies, but only if we can afford it. Otherwise it's probably over to Kroger for some regular grain-free cat food.

We might try to set up somewhere and do some writing, but that's very in the air. Funds are very limited, and we do need to get my hair dyed, which isn't a quick process, since there's so much of it.

But mostly there will be writing.

Today

Sunday, 25 December 2016 09:08 pm
apollymi: Usagi, wide eyed and excited, text reads "boy porn!1!" (BSSM**Usagi: Boy porn!1!)
What have I done today, other than a metric fuckton of driving?

I didn't sleep, so I got out of bed before 8 this morning to visit with the family. I helped Mum get the food ready for lunch. I let [personal profile] katsuko sleep in until around 10, so that one of us could be well rested for the day. I visited with some of Charlie's family. I ate lunch with everyone. I went with Mum, Betsy, and Jellybean to feed one of Mum's friend's pet goats. I got on the road by around 1:30 with [personal profile] katsuko and drove nearly three and a half hours while she wrote porn. I did the pet sitting for the day.

So yeah, I'm tired, and I'm hoping I sleep really well tonight.

G'night, all.

So tired

Sunday, 18 December 2016 11:48 pm
apollymi: Stitch banging his head against the wall, no text, animated (L&S**Stitch: Headwall)
I'm not sure if I can summon up things to say tonight. I'm just mentally and physically exhausted, and I just don't really know what to do with myself.

Another

Tuesday, 13 December 2016 10:46 pm
apollymi: Hatter with a cuppa, text reads "Tea?" (Alice**Hatter: Tea?)
It's been another day. I had the catering this morning, though it was nothing special. The second school of the day did happen to give both [personal profile] katsuko and me gift cards to QuikTrip gas station because we're always so punctual and take good care of them, so that was really nice. I also got an email saying that our Monday school will only be with us a few weeks into January, just until they finish building the new cafeteria.

I got a new volume to edit from Seven Seas at around 1:45 this morning... due tomorrow. ~.~ I'm not sure if I should be annoyed at the quick turnaround time or pleased that they think so highly of me to believe I can do that. I've already made one full pass over it, and I'm working on my usual second (when I have time enough to do a second pass, anyway).

I'm thinking of making this an early night. I keep drifting the hell off where I sit and have been all day, even at IKEA while waiting on [personal profile] katsuko to get off work.

Safe in the arms

Tuesday, 6 December 2016 09:08 pm
apollymi: Stitch looking shocked and dismayed, text reads "Oh noes!" (L&S**Stitch: Oh Noes!)
I'm so damn sleepy. All I want to go to sleep, but at the same time, while I am so damn tired, I just don't seem to have it in me to go to sleep, not yet anyway. I want to get some writing done on the various stories we have going, including the newest one we have that's completely supernatural AU. It will be glorious crack. If we don't get religious hate mail, I will be extremely disappointed.

And that's all I've got for myself for today. I'll be back to the reading I'm doing instead of writing. Dammit.

So tired

Sunday, 4 December 2016 08:13 pm
apollymi: Doujinshi art, Roy & Ed, no text (FMA**Roy/Ed: These quiet moments)
I think I'm ready to drop. I'm so damn tired and would just like to go the fuck to sleep. It's been such a rollover day. It's been raining and misty, and it just makes me want to go to sleep.

And yeah, that's about all I've got for today.