apollymi: Duo and Heero back to back, text reads "Together" (GW**Duo/Heero: Together)
So. Damn. Sleepy.

I didn't have work today, but I still got up with [personal profile] katsuko to make sure she got off okay and arrived at work all right. And then I went back to bed and slept. I feel like I slept so much... but I also felt like I could have slept a few more hours and not been hurt by it.

Or I need words to cooperate earlier in the day so I can go to bed when I first start drifting off in the evening. I think in general, I need that to start happening, so that I'm getting more sleep during the week too. I'm already writing most of the train ride in, on my entire lunch break, and any quiet moments on the desk. I'm not sure how much more I can sneak into the work day. I guess I'll need to try and come up with something.

I'm just about to the point of telling [personal profile] katsuko to prompt me on these Worst Case Scenario stories. The initial few stories carried me through most of June and the first few days of July, but they're being difficult now. (I think I just wrote the world's vaguest cunnilingus. OMG.) I think I want to get through the sweet bit where I'm at and then go back to being mean to various versions of the characters, but the problem is that I'm not sure what kind of mean I want to be and to which version of the characters. I mean, we have eight different versions of this damn story, after all: main verse, modern au, femme Faraday modern, femme Goody modern, the femmes, worst case scenario femmes, worst case scenario bi!Goody, and BDSM verse. I think that's eight versions. I'm sleepy, and I can't count right now.

I'm seriously so tired that my brain feels like it keeps going offline and restarting every so often. I keep losing my train of thought and trailing off in the middle of sentences. I need sleep. Once I hit my 2000 words for the day, I'll go do just that. I'm probably going to have a lot of things to fix tomorrow, but I'll deal with that tomorrow.
apollymi: Close ups of Arthur and Eames, no text (Incep**Eames/Arthur: Perchance to dream)
It's actually taking everything I have today to keep my eyes open long enough to type this up, so that maybe I can go to bed at a decent time.

Yeah, right.

But I'm thinking I'm going to have to, because I'm actually more tired than I can ever remember being. I'm tired to the point that I'm not sure how to keep making words work for me.

I think I am going to try that sleep thing. I'll just have to make up my words tomorrow, once I've had a chance to sleep a bit more.

Good night, all.
apollymi: Loose jumble of books, text reads "The keyboard makes me their god" (My Writing: Keyboard makes me their god!)
Damn but today was a long ass day. I'm really, really glad it's over.

I'm not as happy with not getting quite as many words done as I wanted. I did manage to break two thousand written yesterday, but I don't think it's going to happen today. I'm just too tired, and my eyes just keep drifting shut for a few minutes at the time. I think they're staying closed for longer and longer each time, and it's not going to be long before I'm literally passed out on the couch with the laptop open in front of me.

It's been a while since that happened, however, so I'm kind of hoping to avoid it today. If at all possible anyway.

One more day at work this week... and then the weekend. I'm looking forward to getting to sleep in some on Saturday and Sunday. I do enjoy getting my days over with, opening the center this week, but when my brain isn't shutting off until late at night, I'm not getting enough sleep. (Obviously. See the fact that I'm talking about passing out at my laptop keyboard.)

I think, after Camp is over, I'm going to try to start setting myself a bedtime of perhaps 11 p.m. I mean, as opposed to midnight or one a.m., at least? Compared to those times, 11 at night is fairly reasonable. Especially when we have early mornings going. The downside is, of course, how it cuts into writing time so much, but if we try to buckle down harder and write more throughout the day, maybe it won't be as much of burden in the evening for writing lots and lots of words.

But then this is, more or less, me thinking "out loud". Who knows if I'll end up managing to do it? I know I used to go to bed fairly early back in Tallahassee, but that was back when [personal profile] katsuko and I had nearly identical schedules. That meant that we both got off at about the same time, so we could start writing the minute we got home, instead of one or the other of us having to sit around and wait on the other. (We also had the same days off, but I'm slowly starting to accept that that won't be happening again unless we get her a new job.)

And yeah, that's about all I've got to say for myself for today. Later, all.
apollymi: Stitch in a cape and hood, no text (L&S**Stitch: The... fuzzy blue alien kni)
Happy "When the hell are the fireworks ever going to end" day. I'm heartily fucking sick of them.

Happily, I do not have jury duty tomorrow. It seems that everyone who was supposed to show up at 8:00 was excused due to a case today running late. I am completely fine with this. It means I don't have to deal with trying to figure out the proper MARTA to get on and all that malarky.

So instead I have to figure out what time to get to the MARTA station in order to get to work to open tomorrow. That's a little less of a headache, since I did open today.

It does do such a good getting the day over with, opening and all, that I might ask if LaTrease needs me to do it next week also.

I feel like I'm giving out feedback on the other parts of this particular Camp story hand over fist... and getting pittances in return. It's not a feeling I'm enjoying. And yes, I've already said something. No real improvement beyond an hour or two.

I'm so close to the point of just giving up on the idea of getting feedback. I'm just going to write into the void and see what happens. It's not my favorite thing to do, because obviously I really enjoy feedback, but rather than have to force it, I'm just not going to bother trying.

And that's all I've got to say for myself for today.
apollymi: Heero staring forward, Duo staring off to side, no text (GW**Duo/Heero: Starry Night)
I am so not awake. The only reason my eyes are still open is because the fireworks are still going off around here. I'm not sure, actually, when they'll be done. Soon I hope. I've got an early day to tomorrow, and I could really use some damn sleep.

Not that I think I'll get it. I lack [profile] katusko's ability to drop off to sleep at a moment's notice once I'm in bed. On the couch? Yeah, sure, I can nod off like nobody's business. Actually in my bed, though? It's my herbal stuff to help me sleep, two fans on (because there's no overhead fan), the air purifier going, an ambient sound tract going, and as little light as possible coming in. That's a good night. Tonight will not be a good night, not with all the fireworks.

I'm going to do my best to get some actual rest, but I am not overly hopeful. Basically, everything is still noisy as hell and I'm not sure I'll be able to pass out right away either way.

Either way, I'm going to give it a try. Good luck, all. Sleep well.
apollymi: Captain America and Bucky staring at each other, no text (Aveng**Steve/Bucky: Watching)
I'm trying to get my words for the day, and it's just not cooperating. Maybe because I'm working on conversation today, instead of porn? I don't know. I don't like it.

I'm still ahead for the month and well ahead overall for the year, but today isn't going to be a great day for words. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better.

That said, I have tomorrow off work, because it's a federal holiday in the US. I'm hoping to get caught up on some sleep and then caught up on some writing. After [personal profile] katsuko gets off work and home, maybe we'll go do a write-in somewhere, like Qdoba or Panera Bread, if either of them are open. If not, then I don't know. I just don't anticipate Roo letting us get a lot of work done. Or letting me get a lot of work done, since [personal profile] katsuko is not the mommy he likes to torment.

And yeah, that's about all I've got to say for myself for today. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better writing day, and I'll manage to get caught back up to where I want to be.
apollymi: Loose jumble of books, text reads "The keyboard makes me their god" (My Writing: Keyboard makes me their god!)
I have a certain biting/nibbling feline son trying very desperately to help me write this journal entry, so it's probably going to be very short. Getting your fingers bitten when you're trying to type does tend to make that activity very difficult.

And to make matters worse, I think he thinks that this is a fun play game we're doing. He takes a bite out of my finger, I put him back on the floor, he gets right back up and does it again, I put him right back down on the floor, and repeat ad nauseum. Because in a battle of stubborn, Roo and I are evenly matched.

No, actually, I'm lying there to try to protect my own dignity. Roo usually wins these battles of wills. He's a lot more stubborn than I am, sadly enough.

I've spent most of the day cramping like a son of a bitch and editing stories for [personal profile] katsuko in Worst Case Scenario. Because that's a thing.

And yeah, I think that's about all he's going to let me do. I think I'm going to take the laptop back the hall and try to make words happen that way.

(I keep thinking that maybe he would let me get words done on the desktop, but... I seriously doubt it.)
apollymi: Stitch looking shocked and dismayed, text reads "Oh noes!" (L&S**Stitch: Oh Noes!)
It was a lazy damn day. And that was a very good thing.

I thought I was actually done with that extra long period, but nope, it came back. I had been down to just spotting, but the floodgates opened back up. I'm not sure if it's a continued period or the same one still ongoing, but I know my tracker won't let me start a new period so close to the last one, so I'm having to input it as the same one.

So basically, I've had a 28 day period so far. And it's showing no sign of stopping. It sucks, and I hate it.

And yeah, that's about it. Good day for writing, bad day for not hurting.

And that's it. Later, all.

Tired

Friday, 30 June 2017 10:53 pm
apollymi: Tracy on the phone, looking very unimpressed (FK**Tracy: Not impressed)
I'm tired. I've gotten very little sleep over the last few nights, mainly because my brain just refuses to shut down for me to go to sleep until ridiculously late. And I am now physically exhausted, like falling asleep in Panera Bread exhausted, but my brain is not there yet. It is fucking wound.

I made through a period that lasted from 05 June until 28 June with only minor cramps. In the two days since it ended, however, I have had some hella cramps, the kind where I actually get out the heating pad to deal with them.

So I think I'm going to take my heating pad and go back the hall. I'll see if I can't manage to make sleep happen.

Later, all.

Something

Thursday, 29 June 2017 10:27 pm
apollymi: Hicks, text reads "My hero" (Aliens**Hicks: My hero)
I have a whole lot of nothing to say for myself for today. I went to work. I made it through the day. I didn't kill anyone.

I wrote. I wrote a lot, actually, though not as much as [personal profile] katsuko managed. She broke 6,000 words today. I just managed half that: a little over 3,000. To be fair, I wrote both original versions of that scene she's rewriting for yet another version of Worst Case Scenario, but still...

But yeah, whole lot of nothing otherwise.

Another late day

Wednesday, 28 June 2017 09:43 pm
apollymi: Quentin Collins on a dark green background, one eyebrow raised, no text (DS**Quentin: Oh really? (eyebrows))
We had OME testers again today, so we were late getting out again today. I have at least 30 minutes of comp time built up for this week, and I know I have 45 minutes built up from last week. Supposedly I'll be able to get to use them tomrorow and Friday, but we'll see. It all depends on if the MCATs get done on time both days. Otherwise I'll lose that extra time again this pay period like I did when LaTrease was out of town.

Writing is progressing. I'm happy with this.

But that's about all I have to say for myself for today. Later, all.

Stress

Tuesday, 27 June 2017 11:53 pm
apollymi: Hudson freaking out, text reads "Game over, man. Game over". I find this completely realisitc for the situation (Aliens**Hudson: Game over man! Game ove)
Work is a bit of a pain lately. We've had people taking one test several days for the last two weeks. Routinely there is at least one person a day who is at 5:15 or after getting done. For this particular test, they should be done by 5:00 at the latest. It puts me late getting out, and I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to get the time made up leaving early. LaTrease did offer to let me come in late a time or two this week, but honestly, that would just mean I'd be sitting in the Peachtree Center Mall that much longer in the mornings.

Yes, it would give me writing time, but still...

And Roo is about running me crazy with his newfound insistence on chewing on fingers and grabbing at keyboard keys and snatching food and so forth.

So yeah, I'm a little stressed tonight. I feel sorry for my Mag7 boys and girls.

Writing

Monday, 26 June 2017 11:52 pm
apollymi: Ed glares & Al stands behind him, no text (FMA**Ed: Ed is unimpressed)
Well, I’ve managed another good writing day. I’m trying not to talk too much about it, since it's in the Worst Case Scenario.

Work today was all right. It was a Monday, that was for sure. I ended up not getting to leave until late because we just had one person who somehow managed to get the computer to let him go over his time by about ten minutes. I was ready to commit the most cheerful of murders for that. I now have about 45 minutes of comp time built up over the last week and this week that I need to use before Friday, so I am going to have to get creative.

And really, that's about all I have to say for myself.

Until later, my freaky darlings.

Another

Sunday, 25 June 2017 06:52 pm
apollymi: Black cat sitting on pumpkins, no text (Proud mom of a black cat) (Kitten: Black cat)
Another good writing day. I've topped 3,000 words so far, and I'm pretty much going to write up until I go to sleep tonight, I'm thinking.

I doubt I'll top my best writing day so far (just under 5300 words), but I'm going to see what I can do. If I do manage to top that, I'll be stupidly impressed with myself.

That said, it's not long until bedtime, and I'm going to try to cram in as much writing as possible between now and then.

Good night, all.

Progress

Saturday, 24 June 2017 11:00 pm
apollymi: White background with a black flashing cursor, text reads "It mocks me", animated (My Writing: Cursor mocks me)
I've actually made some writing progress today. I'm not sure how much of it I'm actually proud of, but I've made words happen. I'm choosing to be proud of this. I'm also choosing to be proud of the plotting and planning [personal profile] katsuko and I have done in this dark version of one of the verses we've got going. (In fact, we call the dark verse "Worst Case Scenario" for a reason.)

I can't say I've done much today, but I've managed to get a goodly number of words done. [personal profile] katsuko and I also went to see Wonder Woman. I feel like we spent a lot of time making D&D references (Wondie is so the tank in this situation) and a near equal amount of time comparing it to Captain America: The First Avenger. But it was really, really good. We both enjoyed it. [personal profile] katsuko only ended up crying once, so that's a step in the right.

And now I think I'm going to work a bit more on [community profile] 15kinks... and maybe a bit on 15k:WCS. Because apparently we're fucking sadistic. This is a verse that will never be shared. It's purely for [personal profile] katsuko and me. It's that level of dark and wrong.

Weekend!

Friday, 23 June 2017 10:42 pm
apollymi: Captain America in the middle of rubble, no text (Aveng**Cap: Devestation)
It's finally the weekend! It's not quite a sleeping in kind of weekend, but at least it's a don't have to be at either job kind of a weekend.

I'm getting really sick of Roo's new habit of chewing on typing fingers. I enjoy him sitting in my lap and being all sweet and purr-some, but this new thing of his with biting is getting very old very fast.

I've deleted [community profile] 15kinks off my Scrivener twice this week. I'm just very damn discouraged on the whole thing.

But then, I'm just very damn discouraged on life and everything.

And that's it.

Oh well

Thursday, 22 June 2017 09:43 pm
apollymi: Drawing of cross-looking chick, holding a teabag. Text reads "No tea No work" (Stock: No tea = no work)
I'm in a contrary brain space.

I want to make more words happen. The harder I try, the less they want to come.
I get in a writing groove but have to leave at the end of my lunch break. I can't make words happen now.
"You look like you're enjoying your music." I cut off my music.
I'm so damn tired. I don't want to go to bed yet in case words do happen.
I feel like shit and want to talk. If I start thinking about talking, I start feeling like I'm choking.

As far as #365k/365Day is going, I've written over 268k so far. I'm approximately 73% of the way to goal. I've ended each month with at least 6,000 words over where I needed to be. My best month so far has been May, where I wrote nearly 36,000 more words than I needed. I might have the occasional shitty writing day, but I'm not letting myself get behind where I need to be.

I'm still on my goddamn period. I've been on my period since June 5. Monday will be three damn weeks. I'm fucking sick of it. It shows no sign of slowing down or stopping.

[community profile] 15kinks is... ongoing. I've had a few good writing nights in a row off it, so that's good. I still feel like it's ridiculous and unreadable and so fucking pointless, but I have one damn anonymous reader on Tumblr. I'm writing for them.

And on that contrary note, I'm fucking sick of Tumblr too. I haven't quite taken it off my phone yet. But it's not far from it either.
apollymi: Stitch looking shocked and dismayed, text reads "Oh noes!" (L&S**Stitch: Oh Noes!)
It's only Wednesday, and I'm already starting the 'ready for the weekend' song and dance routine. But it's true. I am ready for the weekend.

I'm hoping to get by the eye doctor this weekend, me and [personal profile] katsuko both. I need new contact lenses like months ago, and she's sadly in need of new glasses. If we can at least get prescriptions for them both, then we can start shopping around for good prices on them.

I'm still working on [community profile] 15kinks. I finished the "Fisting" prompt, and now I'm working on both "Spanking" and "Role Playing" at the same time. Because I'm crazy, apparently. [personal profile] katsuko is trying to make her way through the rest of the stuff at Rose Creek, so that we can start getting to the juicier bits, where they're starting a relationship, not just... you know... fucking.

And I guess I'm going to apply myself towards these two prompts.

Goodnight, all.

Something

Tuesday, 20 June 2017 09:52 pm
apollymi: Stitch lying on the beach with a lei, text reads "I like fluffy" (L&S**Stitch: I like fluffy)
I'm so ridiculously tired.

I made the mistake of doing Nyquil to get to sleep last night. Even though I went to bed early, I still ended up dragging ass all morning long today. The damnable part was that I slept really good, though. Granted, I ended up sleeping until about 15 minutes before I needed to leave the house to get to work on time and I never really recovered my energy, but I slept really, really fucking good.

It's almost going to be a shame to go back to the herbal stuff tonight, after last night's really good sleep.

And yeah, that's about all I've got in me for tonight. I'm not sure that I'm going to hit 1000 words this evening, but it'll have to be good enough.

Good night, all.
apollymi: Manic look Ninth Doctor, text reads "I solemnly swear I'm up to no good" (DW**9th Doctor: Up to no good)
I'm still kicking with the headache. It dimmed a bit earlier in the day, but it's back again full force now. I am not digging it, not in the least.

[personal profile] sharpest_asp, I fully intend to give your suggestion a try, but I have to buy both a hot back and s new cold pack before I can do anything like that.

In the meanwhile, I've already taken my Nyquil for the evening, so I'm going to try to go on to bed a bit early, see if that helps. I'm going to take my own advice and haul my pitiful ass on to bed.

Goodnight, all.