very quick

Thursday, 31 August 2017 10:47 pm
apollymi: Jean Grey as the Phoenix, surrounded in flames and smirking, no text (XMen**Phoenix: The bitch is back)
This one is going to be very quick. In part, that's because I don't have a lot to say. But mostly, that's because [personal profile] katsuko had to wake me up to do this journal entry. I have drifted off twice in the time I've gotten been working on it.

I guess my body decided it needed the sleep. I told Coworker Anastasia that I would be going home, taking a nap, eating dinner, and then going back to bed. I guess that ended up being correct after all.

That firmly in mind, I"m going to go try to sleep in my bed. Good night, all.

Long days

Wednesday, 30 August 2017 10:41 pm
apollymi: Kaiba looking determined, text reads "Where angels fear to tread" (YGO**Kaiba: Where angels fear to tread)
I'm so sick of these long days. Leave the house by 5:30 every morning, getting to work by 7:15 every morning, work a 9 hour shift, walking back to the MARTA station, taking the train to Midtown, getting on a bus to Buckhead, and then waiting on [personal profile] katsuko to get off work at the restaurant.

In short, it means, for the last three days, I've left the house at 5:30 a.m. and gotten home no earlier than 10:00 p.m.

It makes for some stupidly long days, and I'm sick and tired of them. Thankfully, tomorrow is a relatively short day: no Mirko shift means that we get to come home right after I get off work at 4:00. I might celebrate by taking a nap.

Yeah, that sounds kinda nice.


Tuesday, 29 August 2017 10:51 pm
apollymi: Usagi in a swimsuit, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Summer)
I've taken my medicine for the night (the Paxil and the Protonix), so I have no idea how much longer I'll manage to stay awake. Probably not too long, because... yeah, the Paxil is known to knock me out flat. I'm actually pretty okay with this, because for the most part, it means that I get to get a good night's rest, even if it is a little drugged. Better than sleeping at work or sleeping in little fits and spurts here and there.

Let's see... We finished up The Defenders tonight. That was a good. I have to say that I enjoyed it a lot. There were some weaker points to the series, but all in all, it was a strong outing for all four of Marvel TV's major anti-heroes. [personal profile] katsuko and I were discussing that Danny is the idealism of the group, Luke is the heart, Jessica is the cynic (and self-preservation), and Matt is the brain. Together, they make a pretty good person.

I made it through another early work day, though to be honest, it was a fucking Tuesday, which seems to be the day the testers bring the attitudes. I wanted to cunt-punt one girl if she didn't rein in her impatience and impertinence. But I didn't. I was good. It was hard, but I was good. But oh, I entertained thoughts of cunt-punting. Yes, I did.

Not too much written today. These early mornings, it seems, are not conducive to me getting shit done, because I feel draggy the rest of the day... which sucks because I have plenty of day to get shit done. But I'm trying. I did do some editing and wrote a little here and there. Not as much as I should have, but more than I expected to.

And with that in mind, I'm going to go through myself at my bed, so that I can get up and do it all over again. Damn it.


Monday, 28 August 2017 10:51 pm
apollymi: Buffy looking displeased, text reads "Not impressed" (BtVS**Buffy: Not impressed)
This is just going to be a quick entry, because it's past bedtime and I really need to already be sleeping. That 7:15 shift every day this week comes so damn early.

So... watched Sunday's episode of Game of Thrones. Holy. Shit. Holy shit. No spoilers, but holy shit. So much shit happened, and the whole game has officially been changed, and I'm actually proud of and liking Theon for once, and Jon is a stupid but honorable son of a bitch, and Cersei is a crazy bitch with no idea the issues she has just made for herself, and Daenerys is a different kind of crazy bitch who loves to make a goddamn entrance like woah, and I want to dick-punch Euron all the way to Pike and back (but I've always wanted to dick-punch Euron, so this is no change), and the Starks make me so damn happy and so damn frustrated, and Jaime might be a character that I'm starting to love again (because I really kind of hate him when he's with Cersei because those two are terrible for and to each other), and Tyrion is a sly son of a bitch who has the best lines and character interactions with everybody (both good and bad), and the last season cannot come soon enough.

And that might have been a ridiculously run-on sentence, but I don't even care. These are my spoiler-free feels. I have a lot more feels that are not spoiler-free, but I'm holding on to them. I will not be the person handing out spoilers.

I'm trying to decide how I feel about this opening shift thing. Glynda is on vacation all week, so I have to open instead. Which means getting there by 7:15. Which means leaving the house no later than 6:15. Which is way too damn early for every single day in a week. But it's okay. I'll deal. I'm just not happy about it.

Sadly, I only got a bit of writing done. Not as much as I wanted, but it's almost enough to make me happy. I think I'll end up being behind for the month of August, but I've already gotten my minimum for the year, and that's a good thing, I'm thinking.

And clearly this whole entry is going to be a mess of run-on sentences and nonsense, so I'm going to call a halt on it right now.

So long, my freaky darlings, and good night.

another today

Sunday, 27 August 2017 10:01 pm
apollymi: Bakura and Kaiba, close up on eyes, text reads "Your eyes" (YGO**Bakura/Kaiba: Your eyes)
Today... was an exceptionally lazy day. I watched The Defenders and Voltron: Legendary Defender. I read Jurassic World fanfiction.

For the most part, that was it. I did go pick up my last prescription from CVS -- one for prescription strength Vitamin D, because apparently my levels on that are abysmal. I'm going with "abysmal" as a definition: the levels should be 30.0 to 100.0 ng/ml (nanograms per milliliter)... and mine was 8.5 ng/ml. So "abysmal" seems to work.

My LDL was also kinda shitty, and my A1C wasn't fantastic either. So I'm gonna have to start worrying on getting those two down, while at the same time getting my Vitamin D levels up. Everything I'm reading says you can get LDL and A1C down with diet and exercise, though the diet is mostly vegetables, whole grains (especially barley and oats), and fruit. To that end, I got us a blender for fruit smoothies again in the mornings. And I guess I'm going to have to learn to start choking down some oatmeal. Blegh. Not a fan.

What I haven't done today is write. I fully intended to, but nope, I got sucked into a hundred other things.

So yeah, not a lot to prove for today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better?


Saturday, 26 August 2017 11:01 pm
apollymi: Doujinshi art, Roy & Ed, no text (FMA**Roy/Ed: These quiet moments)
I've been trying to type up this journal entry for nearly three hours. I just can't get my brain in the game. Kinda pathetic, huh?

We had a productive day today. We got up at a fairly decent time and rearranged the bedroom. It almost looks like we gained more room in there somehow, by basically changing where three pieces of furniture are located. And Boo now has a bit more safe area. Weirdly. Yeah.

I went with [personal profile] katsuko to Midtown, and I tried to get the shopping done while she was at work. Target did not have a broom to be found, and the only baby gates they had were over $70, and their blenders were not much cheaper. So I ended up googling and finding the closest Walmart. They had everything, but the tallest gate they had was 26 inches, which is nothing for Luci, so I just picked up the rest of the list: a litter mat (for Boo's bedroom litter box), a blender, a new broom, and some wet cat food.

After she finished at work, [personal profile] katsuko and I grabbed a quick bite and then went on the tour at Oakland Cemetery, "Dying in the 19th Century". Not quite everything I had been hoping for, but it was fun. I took some notes and a lot of pictures. Then we did a quick dinner and came home, and I've been trying to write up this journal entry since then.

I killed the battery on my phone, so I didn't really get any writing done while we were out. I'm going to try to play catch up tomorrow.

And that's it. Good night, all.


Friday, 25 August 2017 11:07 pm
apollymi: Usagi looking determined, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Determination)
I took my pill not that long ago, so I don't think I'll be awake to do much with this entry. We'll see if I manage to make any kind of sense. I'm not exactly counting on it, obviously.

It's been a very, very long day. I had GSU, followed by hanging around waiting for [personal profile] katsuko to get done at Mirko. Granted, it was a bit more in depth than I'm making it sound,, but still... It has been a long very long, far long than the simple explanation give or makes it sound.

I did manage to write a couple hundred words on Wicked Ones, which is something I haven't managed in a bit. I'm hoping for more tomorrow, but I'm not exactly holding my breath here. But I am going to try. Compared to the somewhat more light-hearted stuff I've been writing, Wicked Ones is almost unbearably dark.

And getting these words out in a sensible manner is taking way too long, so I think I'm going to head towards my bed and collapse hard. Sleep sounds lovely, and it's calling my name.

And that's about it. Later, all.


Thursday, 24 August 2017 10:57 pm
apollymi: Black cat sitting on pumpkins, no text (Proud mom of a black cat) (Kitten: Black cat)
So I heard back from my temporary doctor: I'm to take the Paxil at night, since it apparently makes me hella sleepy. I took it about an hour ago, so I'm waiting to see when it kicks in. If this suddenly descends into gibberish, you'll know it kicked in. We'll see.

I do keep drifting off. That's probably a sign that they're kicking in, yeah? Or it's just a sign that it's been too long of a day, and I'm ready to be done with it? I guess that one could go either way, huh?

I've done fuck all for writing today. Mostly, I've just been too tired for much of anything. That's... actually pretty typical for me starting a new pill. Plus the work day was kinda crazy, between 15 MCATs and one STEP 2 tester. The STEP was the issue, because she came wandering in late and then tried to catch an attitude. Glynda shut that down pretty hard, though. In turn that meant that I had to be "good cop", but alas, c'est la vie.

I don't think that I'm going to hit my goal of 1000 words today. I'm just too tired right now for that. I've edited a few hundred words in, but that's not going to be nearly enough. I'm not exactly upset by this. I probably should be, but I'm not. Good thing?

I did manage to win a $25 Amazon gift card recently. Everyone keeps telling me to spend it on something just for me, but I'm debating on using it to get a baby gate to go up in the house, so that Boo has some guaranteed privacy. The trick is going to be finding one that fits the wide hallway entrance. It's over 40 inches wide, approaching 50, so most traditional baby gates aren't going to work.

And yeah that's all I'v got for today. Later, all.

Some results

Wednesday, 23 August 2017 10:26 pm
apollymi: Eternal Sailor Moon against a bright yellow background, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Stand tall (ESM))
So, I got back all but three of my test results. The three I haven't gotten back are my iron levels ones. Per her notes, I have a severe Vitamin D deficiency, severely enough that she called me in a prescription for some to take weekly. My A1C was a bit high, just under Pre-Diabetic levels, so I need to work to get it lowered. My LDL was high, so I need to work on getting down as well.

She also included a note to get in contact with EAP through work. Which sounds good, but I have no time at work to spare to do these visits, so I might see about the online therapist thing offered through work. We'll have to see there. It was one thing to go in a little early at FSU to make up for EAP visits. Plus we had plenty of coverage. At GSU, we are running with precisely the number of people needed... but there's no room for anyone to be out. There's no fallback or extra coverage.

So I'm thinking I'm going to start making my vegetable barley soup, because it's full of things that can lower LDL and A1C levels: barley, high fiber vegetables, beans, and so forth. I'm also looking at more recipes that (1) are vegetarian friendly and (2) contain foods that lower A1C and LDL levels. I'm going to see how adding sweet potatoes and brussel sprouts to the vegetable soup goes. I'm going to have to get a blender this weekend, I guess, so that we can start making smoothies at home, because a lot of the articles I've been reading specifically say to avoid smoothies you don't make yourself, because you can't control the amount of sugar in them.

I need to start watching what I eat more. Less soft drinks, for one. I'm going to have to start weaning myself off my morning soda, which will be hard, because I use it to wake up in the mornings. I'm going to have to start being better about eating more rounded meals, instead of just cooking quick packaged meals or getting Taco Bell all the time. I don't know: maybe this will be a good excuse to go back to Happy Herbivore meal plans or planning out what I'm going to eat throughout the week ahead of time. Because, of course, the rest of her advice was to exercise and lose weight. Of course. Because that's so easy.

Tomorrow, I need to call the gynecologist and rheumatologist and schedule appointments with them both. I might try to get all three appointments (these two and my follow-up with the primary) set for the same day, and then I can just take the whole day as a sick day. Get it all over with at once... and make it easier on my coworkers where there isn't a lot of coverage. We'll see what I can manage.

And that's about it. Later, all.
apollymi: Hicks holding Ripley as Ripley holds Newt, text reads "Family" (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley+Newt: Family)
So the doctor's appointment went fairly well. I'm pretty pleased with how it went.

I saw a temporary doctor today because my regular PCP is still on maternity leave. I kind of adore my temporary doctor, but she assures me that I will like the regular one once I get to meet her. Everyone at the office was super impressed with my record keeping and the fact I brought them in copies of some of my medical records. They all said it was a big help and gave them a good place to start, even if the records are four years out of date (because I haven't been to a doctor for more than a prescription top off or urgent care visit since then).

It did help that one of the records I found way a yearly summary, including medications I was taking at the time and what lab tests I had had done recently. Mostly those were checking and rechecking my A1C, my C-Reactive Protein, iron levels, and my thyroid levels. She expressed some concerns over the number of times they checked and rechecked my C-Reactive Proteins and thyroid levels. It seemed odd, she said, that they never managed to pin down the cause of my joint pain and just stopped at fibromyalgia without ever sending me to a rheumatologist. So she's not beating around the bush: she's sending me to one to try to pin down the problems with my joints.

Fibromyalgia is a diagnosis you only come to when you've exhausted all other possible diagnoses, apparently, and she was a little unhappy that they hung that diagnosis on me without those last few steps. If that makes sense.

So I'm back on some of my old medication: Albuterol (asthma), Maxalt (migraines), and Pantoprazole (gastroenteritis). I'm on a new antidepressant, Paxil. She's starting me on 10mg and will be building me up to 20mg in about a month. It's a chance to see if it's something that works better for me than some of the other things I've used over the years (Effexor, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Zyprexa, and Elavil), since it might also help with my anxiety.

I'm just ready to start feeling more like who I used to be again. I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.

I have to go back in three weeks, which is going to be fun, let me tell you, trying to get more time off work. I'll figure something out. I always do. (I always have to.)

Anyway, sleep now. It's an early, long day tomorrow, between [personal profile] katsuko's 6:00 IKEA shift, my 8:30 GSU shift, and [personal profile] katsuko's 5:00 Mirko shift. If nothing else, this visit has resulted in an admonition to try to take things easier... as well as a note to let me wear trainers to work, so that my plantar fasciitis has a chance to start trying to heal some.

And yeah, that's it. Later, all.

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Monday, 21 August 2017 10:50 pm
apollymi: Trunks staring off in the middle distance, no text (DBZ**Trunks: Sentinel)
I'm trying to be better about sharing pictures of the girls on my Instagram. It's a sort of ongoing thing. I'm not so sure how great it's going to end up working, but it's encouraging me to play around more with my photography. I think that's a good thing.

Tomorrow is my doctor's appointment. I'm seriously looking forward to the thing. I know I need to leave my house tomorrow morning at 6:00 a.m. to drop [personal profile] katsuko off at IKEA and then still get to work on time, having the car with me. I'll leave work at 1:15, which should give me just enough time to get there ahead of time and fill out all my requisite paperwork ahead of my 2:45 appointment. I've got my list of things I want to discuss with my doctor. The top three are (1) getting back on an antidepressant, (2) figuring out what's going on with my period, and (3) what the fuck is up with my foot and can I get a note to my job saying I can wear supportive tennis shoes (instead of dress shoes) because of the pain.

I've gotten as many of my medical records together as I can easily find. I'm not sure if they'll all be of any use, but I brought them out anyway. I'll try to remember to switch bags tomorrow so that I can carry it with me. I can't eat anything after 10:30, which is going to fucking suck out loud.

Or I'm going to do these things if [personal profile] katsuko lets me do any of the things.

I'm going to go commandeer this task back from her now. Later, all.


Sunday, 20 August 2017 06:48 pm
apollymi: Sarah reading a book, text reads "can't talk reading fanfic" (Labyrinth**Sarah: Can't talk - Fanfic!)
Of the past 75 days, I've been bleeding for 51 of them. I had a relatively blood-free day yesterday, just some light spotting, but it's back with a vengeance today. I haven't wanted to move at all, thanks to the cramps, and I feel like I've only barely choked down food all day. Big not fun, really.

And yeah, I've barely gotten any writing done. I've been trying. Gods know that I've been trying, but obviously, when I feel like shit, not a lot gets done. I'm trying to get caught up for the month, but that's looking sort of iffy.

So yeah, I'm tired. I'm bleeding again. I'm roasting. I'm cramping. I'm nauseated. I'm enjoying exactly none of this.

If I put all my symptoms into WebMD, it's convinced I'm in perimenopause. I... think I could live with this. Yeah, it's incredibly early. Yeah, I already asked Mum, and both she and Grandmother had hysterectomies in their 30s, so they don't feel like they're good examples of when women in our family have menopause. Granted, I'm now old enough to have a hysterectomy if I wanted to; Georgia state law says I have to be over 35 or have 3 kids... and have my husband's permission. But still... That's a topic for another day, after the doctor's appointment and whatever results I get from it.

And yeah, I think I'm going to try to make some words happen today. I'm not greatly hopeful, but I'm going to try. Later, all.

Long day

Saturday, 19 August 2017 11:31 pm
apollymi: Faraday counting his kills on this fingers, animated gif, no text (Mag7**Faraday: Counting kills)
For as little as I did today, it felt both long and exhausting. I mean, honestly, I woke up with a screaming headache, saw [personal profile] katsuko off to work. I putzed around on my phone until I got the text that she had arrived safely at work, and then I went back to bed. Boo hung out on the bed with me, though she did bail when Luci showed up. I slept until around 10:30 or 11:00, got up and fed the cats, and putzed around on the computer. Some of what I did was editing, but mostly it was reading Jurassic World fanfic...

...because every time I try to rewatch the movie, it's usually so late at night that I fall asleep somewhere in the vicinity of the Raptor Motorcycle Gang and wake back up in time for the closing credits. Which, whoops, defeats the purpose of trying to rewatch a movie.

I'm also trying to find my copy of Ocean's Eleven, because I want to give it a rewatch soon too. In part, this is because I'm giving thought to finally giving the fanfic "Chisolm's Seven" a try again. And in part, it's because I love watching Brad Pitt and George Clooney's characters banter and play off each other. It's sort of cute and sweet and just so on point... and I wish I could emulate it in my writing. I try, sometimes, but I think I fall short.

Also, I forgot to say, but as of last Thursday, I've written more than 365,000 words this year. How much of it will ever be seen is something I don't know. I'm enjoying the things I'm writing, but I freely admit that the stuff I'm writing breaks up the fandom OTPs... and I don't even care.

We did the fancy dinner out that we've been wanting to do for months, and it was every bit as good as we were hoping. We got most of the grocery shopping done. And yeah, that's about all I've got to report. I've napped so much today that, while I'm exhausted, I'm not sleepy, so I'm not in bed. I'm tempted to go make a video of [personal profile] katsuko though, since she's snoring away. (Yes, snoring.)

Either way, though, it's time to end this entry. Later, all.

finally friday

Friday, 18 August 2017 11:51 pm
apollymi: Steve & Danny on couch, text reads "It is what it is" (H50**Steve/Danny: It is what it is)
Honestly, I was starting to think that Friday was never going to get here. Seriously, it's been for freaking ever, it feels like since last weekend. It's been long enough, in fact, that I just sat here and argued with myself for a good fifteen or so minutes that my calendar is correct and that's the right day of the week.

But now that I am convinced, I'm going to celebrate by feeding my kitties some dinner and going the hell to bed. Yay, sleep!

And yeah, I don't even care that my word count for today is low. Sleep... That is my prize today. Sleep.

Good night, all.


Thursday, 17 August 2017 10:53 pm
apollymi: Ninth Doctor, text reads "Oh, look who just graduated from idiot school" (DW**9th Doctor: Idiot school)
Okay, I guess I need to write a little something. I'm not sure what, if anything, I have to say, but words do still need to happen.

Something about Tuesdays and Thursdays brings out the crazies to the testing center. I get the ones who want to argue about each and every little thing (mostly GACE testers, which OMG, they're teachers, why are they always late and rude). I get the ones who are "running late (also, mostly GACE, but sometimes STEP testers). I get the ones who pick their toenails under the desk. I get the ones who heave heavy sighs when I make them take their feet out of the chairs. I get so many rolled eyes that it's freaking ridiculous. I want to tell them that their eyes are gonna roll out at the rate they're going.

Mondays aren't usually too bad. Maybe it's because everyone's having a bad day, and we can all kind of laugh it off with one another as a bad case of the Mondays. Fridays aren't usually too bad, because sometimes we can leave a little early, and usually everyone's just counting down for the weekend, us and the testers alike. And Wednesdays are usually pretty calm. Except yesterday. Yesterday, I met Isla Fisher. That cancelled out any calmness I might have had. I played it cool and didn't say a word about knowing who she was. She was pretty freaking awesome, though, and a much better mum than most of the ones we get in for the (unfortunately named) SCAT test.

Tomorrow is a long day. I have to be at work between 7:30 and 7:45, so that I can leave when the MCAT students are done testing. I'm seriously looking forward to that. I'm ready for an early day. Maybe not the arriving early part of the day, but the leaving early is appealing. But then it's just a trip over to Mirko to get the car then Panera to wait for [personal profile] katsuko to get off from the restaurant. Normally, I would pack up my laptop to take with me for Long Day, but I think I'm just going to stick with the iPad tomorrow.

Saturday, we're going to try to go to the tour at Oakland Cemetery. Saturday's topic is Oakland and the Civil War, which seems topically important right now. I want to find out about parking and all before we go with Mist in September.

Also, the AC is now supposedly fixed. I'm enjoying having airflow without hearing water dripping.

And that's it. It's time to go to bed, since tomorrow is an early day. Later, all!

So hot

Wednesday, 16 August 2017 10:51 pm
apollymi: Split icon, 1st close-up of Ripley's smug face, 2nd close-up of Hicks' grinning face, text reads "Where do you want it" (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley: Where do you want)
So, we have a leaking air conditioning unit in our apartment. It's been leaking for a couple of days. Maintenance came today and shop-vacced it out and replaced the filter. Apparently, he said that it would fix the issue.

Well, it's still leaking water like crazy. We can't really cut the air on any higher than it is right now (78°F/25.6°C) or it starts leaking like crazy. So we have every fan in the house going, and all it's doing is blowing around the hot air. I feel like I'm suffocating. Big time not fun. We slept like this last night, but I was so hoping for a pleasant temperature tonight. (We usually leave the house about 74°F/23.3°C during the evening... but not right now.)

So, yeah, I'm going to see if I can't figure out a configuration for the fans to be in to keep us at least semi-cool.

Good night, all.


Tuesday, 15 August 2017 11:06 pm
apollymi: Stitch doing an handstand and wiggling his butt, no text, animated (L&S**Stitch: Kiss my ass)
Why are Tuesdays at the testing center always so weird? If weirdos are going to come in, it always seems like it's going to be on Tuesdays. If people are going to try to game their tests to get more time, it always seems like it's going to be on Tuesdays. If something on the computers is going to mess up, it always seems like it's going to be on Tuesdays.

Well, next Tuesday is going to be my doctor's appointment. I'm actually looking forward to it. I'm developing a list of things that I want to talk to her about. On the top of said list is getting back on a new antidepressant. Another high point on that list is the pain I keep having in my right heel, if it's a heel spur or if it's plantar fasciitis or some new bizarre twist on my fibromyalgia, and can I have a note telling my job that it's okay for me to wear tennis shoes. And that suggestion came from LaTrease.

Luci has already ditched her new collar. Seriously, she wore it for two days, if that. I haven't been able to find it yet, and I've been looking since we finally got home. It'll turn up eventually, but it's very annoying since she just got it.

And I think I'm going to try to go on to bed now. Later, all.

So tired

Monday, 14 August 2017 11:09 pm
apollymi: Hansel & Gretel in the woods, text reads "We've got the taste of blood" (H&G: Hansel & Gretel: Taste of blood)
I'm so damn tired, but I'm trying to edit some of the [community profile] 15kinks stories into something like coherency. It seems that, when I was sleeping one night, I managed to open up Scrivener on my phone and just sort of flail across the keyboard. There are words that make no sense. There are words that have to be autocorrect or autosuggest at work all over the place. There are random letters scattered here and there.

And that's why I suspect the phone edit thing, more so than the autocorrect and autosuggest things: there are no numbers or symbols that I'm finding. Nope, it's all letters, like switching over to the next keyboard screen was more than my sleepy brain could handle.

So I'm trying to make it make sense again. It's no easy task. And it's not made any easier by the fact that I'm probably just as close to sleep right now as I was when I did this little bout of sleep editing.

That said, though, I think it's time that I go back to bed and try to make sleep happen for a few hours, until it's time to go back to work again. (sad face) Tomorrow will be a long day, since [personal profile] katsuko has IKEA at 7:00 and then Mirko at 5:00. I'll have to get the bus from the train station to the restaurant, and who knows when I'll be dragging my ass in to Buckhead?

Part of me is sadly tempted to just get off the bus at Panera, instead of going on a mile or so further to Mirko, get the car, and going back up to Panera. The only reason I don't is because there is no guarantee that [personal profile] katsuko would be cut before Panera closes into order to come get me.

But it's still stupidly tempting.

Anyway, that's it. That's all I've got. Good night, all.


Sunday, 13 August 2017 11:31 pm
apollymi: Faraday in black and white, holding his gun, no text (Mag7**Faraday: Black and white)
I didn't get up to as much writing as I wanted to today. Gods know I tried, but the Nyquil and the headache and the lack of headphones didn't cooperate with this endeavor.

In further explanation, I took Nyquil to go to sleep last night. I slept the sleep of the well drugged, completely unconcerned for any spats the kitty girls might have been having. I barely woke up in time for [personal profile] katsuko to go to work, and I barely stayed awake long enough to get her text that she was arrived safely at work. At that point, I laid back down. Luci woke me up at 9:30 knocking stuff off the fridge, because her leaper is fantastic but her traction is in the negatives. I futzed about on the net for a bit, and then I fell asleep again rather than cook lunch. Yes, I literally decided to sleep rather than eat. I do this on the weekends. I don't care.

The headache, I think, is pretty self-explanatory. I took some ibuprofen, and that seemed to help.

The lack of headphones, however, requires some story time. Probably not much, but some. See, I loaned [personal profile] katsuko my headphones. They're not a great pair. In fact, I didn't even buy them: I found them at Panera about 10 months ago. Which is funny, because it was at Panera that I needed them. And I didn't have them. And oh gods, but the children in Panera today made me want to scream.

I have never before met so many children in one place that made me want birth control. Like, "ladies, I know they're your special snowflake of love and all, but they're making me wish for my uterus to spontaneously jump out of my body and flee to the hills". And "I see someone sitting by themselves trying to get work done... I must sit my three children next to them in the empty restaurant". Fucking Buckhead, man. Fucking Buckhead. It made me want to create a Tumblr just to bitch about it, with the subtitle being Buckhead: Where Southern Hospitality Goes To Die.

And Luci has decided today that she loves Roo's old Purple Mouse. Unlike Roo, though, she does not roll over on her back and put it on her head. She lays sedately next to it and sort of snuggles up to it, like it's her best homie. All love should be as pure as Luci and Purple Mouse.

And yeah, I'm deeply out of it, I think, so I'm going to go throw myself at my bed in hopes that sleep will happen. Or something. But hopefully sleep.

too much

Saturday, 12 August 2017 11:01 pm
apollymi: Close ups of Arthur and Eames, no text (Incep**Eames/Arthur: Dream bigger)
I'm just sort of done with everything.

The girls are fighting: growling and hissing and yowling and popping at each other. They've been hissing increasingly at each other over the last couple of days, but today has been the first day they've fought. Boo's stressed, Luci's stressed, and I am so far beyond stressed that I'm just sort of sitting in the corner crying. Boo is acting like she can't leave the front part of the house, Luci is acting like she controls the back part of the house, and I'm so goddamn frazzled by the whole thing. Boo runs, Luci chases, and I keep trying to separate the two of them without touching or favoring one of them.

This is more than my nerves can handle. I know there are growing pains to introducing animals to one another. I know I got spoiled with how well the previous four all got along. But really, I'm not even joking about sitting in the corner crying.

I don't even know what to do, so I'm just going to sit here and fucking cry. Okay?