Blegh

Sunday, 17 February 2019 11:23 pm
apollymi: Bakura looking smug, text reads "He belongs to the dark" (YGO**Bakura: He belongs to the dark)
I'm really not ready to go back to work tomorrow. I've spent the most part of the weekend sick as a dog. Even not eating has been making me nauseated today, though admittedly that might have a lot to do with the headache I've been rocking since last night. I tried laying down for a bit during the day, hoping that would take care of it, but alas, the neighbor kids were right outside again, so there was no getting quiet up front of the house, so I went back to the bedroom and turned on the air purifier to drown them out a bit. Two Maxalts later, and I'm feeling vaguely more human. The head still aches some and feels a bit disconnected from the rest of me, but it's better and I'll take that small relief.

Which is probably a good thing, since the neighbor across the hall has had his music going full volume for a good hour or two now. I'm not in the mood to go bang on the door again: I've had to do that too many nights after midnight to want to do it again, and [personal profile] katsuko won't. (I don't know if it just doesn't bother her as much as it does me or if she feels unsafe doing it or if she just doesn't want to. (Or if she doesn't want to put her phone down long enough.)

So, yeah, that's it.

Today

Wednesday, 6 February 2019 10:41 pm
apollymi: Vasquez scoffing at Faraday, animated gif, no text (Mag7**Vasquez: Scoff)
Well, I can't say I really know how well the interview went. It kept getting interrupted, mostly be LaKeisha trying to deal with ongoing testing. So I spent this interview that was supposed to only be 30 minutes (but stretched to an hour and 15 minutes because of interruptions) mostly chatting with the Testing Director, Chris, about fandom and how it's changed from the old Usenet days to now, as well as various ongoing fandoms we have in common... mostly Star Wars (and the disappointment that was The Last Jedi).

But yeah, that's pretty much all I've got. Supposedly they'll be letting the final candidate know by the end of the week, but I'm still not exactly holding my breath here. It would be too much like helpful and a good thing for me to get this position, so I likely won't be getting it.

And now I'm gonna throw myself at my bed and see if I can't make myself sleep off this cough and other grossness.

Well... today...

Monday, 4 February 2019 09:06 pm
apollymi: Duo, Usagi, and Heero with grunge border, text reads "OT3" (OT3: Duo/Usagi/Heero (grunge))
I had my first appointment with the gastroenterologist today. It was also my first appointment at Emory Saint Joseph's Hospital as well. That was interesting. Very confusing parking lot, but interesting all the same. I do have to have another endoscopy done. And let me say that getting a time set up for that was fun. They offered me Wednesday, but there was no way I could do that. Testing is just too crazy that day for us to even try that. I tried to counter with a Monday date; the doc doesn't do procedures on Mondays or Tuesdays.

So the best day we could come up with? Friday the 22nd. Yes, I have to have an endoscopy done on my birthday. Yay.

Sunday

Sunday, 3 February 2019 10:37 pm
apollymi: Stitch holding his head in pain, no text (L&S**Stitch: Headache)
Well, no, I guess I was wrong: I didn't exactly get a lot done writing-wise today either. I barely got much of anything at all done today, point of fact, thanks to a nasty bit of headache. I finally just gave up and took some of the prescription stuff. Anything to counteract the stabbing pain in my left temple.

I texted this to Mum to remind to ask about, but I'll put it here too: I need to mention to the GI doctor tomorrow that, very suddenly, a lot of foods made with garlic suddenly taste very overpoweringly astringent or metallic to me. Which is distressing to me, because I love garlic.

In light of the headache, though, I'm going to try resting and see if that helps matters any.

006

Sunday, 6 January 2019 11:23 pm
apollymi: Vasquez firing his gun, no text (Mag7**Vasquez: Out of focus)
Well, yesterday's headache is still lingering a bit around the edges. Since I have to get up early to go back to work tomorrow, though, I'm not going to risk taking the prescription stuff again. I'll just try to soldier on with the over the counter stuff.

But at the same time...? Damn, I don't want to go back to work tomorrow! I still feel like shit, even though the last couple of weeks have given me some time to rest. The latest I managed to sleep in the entire time I was off was 8:30, which is just so wrong. I don't feel like I caught up on my sleep at all!

I did manage to go with [personal profile] katsuko and pick up the groceries and my prescriptions. I also shanghaied the Amazon delivery driver at the complex driveway to get my new lunchbox and my two new cookbooks. I also did a good deal of cooking: a lemon chickpea orzo soup and a chickpea raisin quinoa. I'm planning on taking both to work tomorrow and have the quinoa for lunch and the soup for an afternoon snack. We'll see how that ends up working out, though, yeah?

And yeah, that's pretty much all I've got. I'm gonna try to throw myself at my be and see if I happen to achieve unconsciousness when I arrive there. Good night, all.

005

Saturday, 5 January 2019 11:22 pm
apollymi: Stitch holding his head in pain, no text (L&S**Stitch: Headache)
I have a lovely headache going that isn't responding to the OTC pills I've taken for it. I'm gong to give them as long as it takes me to type this up to, and if it hasn't improved, I'll take the prescription stuff and go on to bed. It always knocks me out. It'll be the second one I've had to take during my vacay from work. That wouldn't be too bad, if it weren't for the fact that I haven't had to take one in nearly four months before this.

And yeah, there will be prescription stuff. Going on to bed anyway, though.

New Years Day

Tuesday, 1 January 2019 11:24 pm
apollymi: Grumpy kitten, text translates to "the Kitten of Death has you in sight" (Kitten: Kätzchen des Todes)
I guess it's time to be that day again, the day when I try to rustle up something like a few resolutions to fail to keep this year.

So, for 2019...

(1) Write a journal post every day. That has been a thing I've been doing for several years now, and I've done pretty good at it so far.
(2) Try to write around 1,000 words per day. I freely admit that I'm going to fail on this some days, including today, but it's an attempt. Some days will be more, and some days will be less.
(3) Eat more mindfully and try to lose weight. I'm starting the year at 210. My goal is between 135 and 145.
(4) Go back to school. Thanks to working at Georgia State, I have access to going to any University System of Georgia school for free, and I might as well take advantage of it. Maybe Library Science? Why not.
(5) Pay off debts. There are plenty. Might as well start working on them so my credit can start moving to a better place.
(6) Try to focus on and improve my health. I'm starting the year in pain and, at times, barely able to move. I've got to find a way to try to make this a thing I can live with... somehow.

Monday

Monday, 3 December 2018 11:39 pm
apollymi: Eliot, Parker, and Hardison walking, text reads OT3 (OT3: Eliot/Parker/Hardison)
The best I can say for today is that my headache is finally starting to die down. It's only been going since Saturday, so it was really nice to have it die down a bit. I can definitely live with that.

That said, though, I've been about to collapse asleep all damn day, so I think I'm gonna go do that right now.

Whining

Sunday, 2 December 2018 09:47 pm
apollymi: Stitch holding his head in pain, no text (L&S**Stitch: Headache)
I don't want to have to go back to work tomorrow! I've been enjoying being at home and not having to deal with testers! More than that, I don't want to have to deal with Glynda. Either way, I guess I do have to go back, but that doesn't mean that I have to be happy about it.

I'm seriously feeling all the places where Doc Li had to poke me with the needle. Apparently, whatever painkiller they use to deaden teeth to do fillings and all, I metabolize it very quickly. If what I'm reading is right and the numbing drug they use is Lidocaine, then yeah, I do indeed do that. (And I need to quit trying to make sense of medical papers about the phenomena, because they don't make sense to me even when I'm not half drugged.

I made the mistake of taking one of my hydrocodone pills last night to try to forestall my teeth hurting too much. When it finally kicked in, I collapsed like a flan in a cupboard. I slept through the night for once, as well as a lot of today. Which is both nice and a pain in the ass. I hate losing days of my weekend like this.
apollymi: Stitch holding his head in pain, no text (L&S**Stitch: Headache)
Well, work did go okay today. The presentation even went well, if a little unscripted. I had been hoping to impress the Coordinator from Alpharetta, in case I did actually get the interview up there, but it turned out that she wasn't there today, so that was a little disappointing. But it is what it is, right?

I squeaked out a win on NaNoWriMo this year. It wasn't easy and it's not a great word count, but it's a win and I'll take it.

And I'm gonna go collapse in my bed. I've been about to do just that all day. Stupid headache.
apollymi: Faraday staring off, no text (Mag7**Faraday: Middle distance)
Okay, you guys, I am super glad today is over. I'll be even more ready for this week to be over. I'm tired all the time, almost beyond words, I keep a headache, I'm tired and grouchy... and yet I can't sleep. Not for more than two or three hours at the time anyway. That seems to be just enough to let me get a few hundred words written and make it through the day without biting anyone's head off... but not enough for me to function well.

And yes, I'm still behind on NaNoWriMo. I'm still hopeful that I can get caught up, but it's looking less and less certain. But I'm not giving up yet. Maybe the weekend will be good for writing. We'll see.
apollymi: Kyle holding his head, text reads "*facepalm*" (Term**Kyle: *facepalm*)
I lost a few hours on this. I sat down to try to make words happen, both on the train and on my way home on the train... but I'm so damn tired that nothing is happening. I start losing time when I'm this kind of tired, and I'm not sure, honestly speaking, if I'm falling asleep for a few minutes at the time or if I'm just so completely zoned out that I've got, I just can't tell. I think the headache's get a little worse each time I zone back in or wake up or whatever.

So despite the best intentions that I have, it's just not going so great.

More from Louisiana

Saturday, 27 October 2018 11:47 pm
apollymi: Stitch holding his head in pain, no text (L&S**Stitch: Headache)
We have one more full day in Louisiana... and it's going to be a New Orleans-free day. It actually feels a little weird at this point, to be honest.

Today, we went back to New Orleans and hit a few of the places we didn't get to do yesterday: Marie Laveau's House of Voodoo and the New Orleans Voodoo Museum. (I hate to say it, but I did end sitting there thinking that I could use some of the stuff I was seeing in stories. Bless Mag7 for giving me a canon Cajun character.) Then we did the French Quarter Ghost and Vampire Tour, which was a lot of fun.

I spent a lot of the day with a huge ass headache, though, mostly thanks to my mouth hurting again. Or still. I'm not sure which is the proper one to go with there. Either way, it has been a huge pain, pun certainly intended. I'm sure I've been more miserable... but I can't really remember when. I actually really hate everything about this, and I'm tired of being miserable with it.

Anyway, tomorrow is a Civil War battlefield, a (regular, presumably not haunted) plantation, and then The Myrtles... for the haunted planation experience.

And yeah, that's all I've got for today. Later, all.

Late

Sunday, 21 October 2018 11:14 pm
apollymi: Blank background, text reads "Some days the body count will exceed your word count. And that's okay" (Text: Body count vs. word count)
Well, it's late, and my head hurts, but I'm actually typing this after midnight, so I can't eat anything else. I'm not supposed to drink anything else either, so that's gonna make for an interesting morning tomorrow/today.

I feel like a mogwai here: no food after midnight. Already broke the rule about getting wet though, since a shower was hella hella necessary.

Surgery tomorrow, so I'm not sure how coherent tomorrow's post will be.

Ugh

Friday, 12 October 2018 10:50 pm
apollymi: Hatter with a cuppa, text reads "Tea?" (Alice**Hatter: Tea?)
I... feel seriously gross today. I woke up with the same headache I went to bed with, and I kept it for the most of the day. It's really only just started to fade out some. I'm not enjoying it, so it's a good thing that it's going. Hell, I've spent most of the day feeling like if I could just throw up, I would feel better. It never happened, but maybe I'm on the mend.

And in my daze I've had going for the last several hours, I've been reading Venom fanfic. Don't save me. Send more fic.

Blegh

Thursday, 4 October 2018 11:24 pm
apollymi: Hatter with a cuppa, text reads "Tea?" (Alice**Hatter: Tea?)
I can't put into words how cruddy I feel right now: cold and clammy but also hot, like there's something stuck in the back of my throat that I can't quite cough out, tired but not sleepy, sore, and headachy. I pulled a charley horse overnight yesterday (and yet somehow managed not to wake myself up with it, clearly a sign that I'm too used to my legs hurting too much if I slept through it), and it's still been sore today. Not to mention the ongoing foot/ankle pain issue.

I got the results back from my latest blood work. My C-reactive protein remains high: currently an 11.6 when it should be no higher than 4.9.

And that's it. I'm going to make myself go to bed now. Good night.

Something

Wednesday, 26 September 2018 11:50 pm
apollymi: Grover sitting on a cow, text reads "I'm on a cow" (SS**Grover: I'm on a cow)
Yeah, this one is going to be very short. I'm tired. I feel like crap. I went on the rag nearly a week early. I'm crampy. I'm bloaty. My head hurts. I just feel like crap in general.

On the other hand, I have very sweet kitties who insist I need all the purrs and nuzzles to make me feel better. Luci has bathed my fingers I don't even know how many times. It's all very sweet and all, and I have to say I do appreciate it. They're good girlies when they're not fighting with each other.

And yeah, that's about all I've got. I'm just ready for this work week to be over, so that I can have my weekend. It'll probably still be too short anyway, but a couple of days off my feet sounds really lovely right about now.

And that's it. That's all I've got. Good night, all.

Friday Freedom

Friday, 31 August 2018 11:25 pm
apollymi: Chococat sitting in an orange chair, no text (Sanrio**Chococat: This is my ROOM!)
Well, it's been a real busy kind of Friday, but I feel like we got so much accomplished all the same, which is a nice change to feeling like the whole day has been wasted at work. We picked up my handicapped placard for the car. We got my blood work done. We did thorough showers in anticipation of dying hair on Saturday or Sunday. We stopped by a couple of places, picking up things we did need from the stores, and that's been about it.

It's a nice change of pace, feeling like I've accomplished something during the day.

Tomorrow, I think the MRIs are the only thing I have to do. Or it's the only thing that has be done at a certain time. Wish me luck.

And that's it. I'm tired. I've got nothing else left in me. Good night, all.

Noooo

Sunday, 12 August 2018 08:38 pm
apollymi: Doujinshi art, Roy & Ed, no text (FMA**Roy/Ed: These quiet moments)
Somehow my entire Sunday is gone again already?! How does this shit keep happening?

Okay, granted, today was a lot of a repeat of yesterday: feeling like I'm getting yanked down into unconsciousness. I'm still not sure if this is something to be concerned about or if it's just thanks to my general lack of sleep during the week.

Tomorrow through Thursday, I'll be opening at work. I've already been told that there is a strong possibility that we'll be secret shopped again. All I know is to be looking for a black man in his 50s: no idea what test or anything. I even made a point of telling LaTrease, "No offense, but I'm not opening ever again: too much of this shit keeps happening on days when I open".

Damn, but I feel queasy. I think I'm going to have to dose with some Pepto Bismol before I go to bed. I know part of it is, sadly, the fact I'm hungry, which is a pain.

Anyway, I'm going to see if crashing will help with any or all of this. See everyone tomorrow.

Wednesday

Wednesday, 8 August 2018 11:29 pm
apollymi: Stitch holding his head in pain, no text (L&S**Stitch: Headache)
How the hell is it only Wednesday?! I swear this week is fucking dragging by, and I don't like it. I'm ready for this week to be over. I'm ready to have a few days to myself, with just [personal profile] katsuko and the kitties around. The girlies are still behaving themselves, able to tolerate being in the same room for more than two seconds at the time. Luci has pretty much quit chasing Boo, and Boo is hardly hissing at Luci at all lately. (Enough so that I was able to migrate Boo's dishes and litter box out of my bedroom and back into the rest of the house. Yayz!)

It only took them a year.

I managed all of an hour and a half's sleep last night. I need to make myself fall asleep faster, but I really don't want to have to drug myself to do it. Maybe last night's lack of sleep will translate into me falling asleep earlier tonight.

Finally, I have a freaking headache, and the lights hurt it, and sounds hurt it, and smells hurt it... and every time I get a cramp hurts it. Maybe sleep will help with that too, because I have no good way of calling out of work any time soon. Glynda is out all of next week (so I'll probably be opening again, though hopefully not working open to close again too), and I still need to find out if my schedule will change any next week or not.

Anyway, yeah... I'm going to sleep if laying down will help the head or anything else. Good night, all.