Something

Saturday, 9 February 2019 09:59 pm
apollymi: Doujinshi art of Sirius Black, no text (HP**Sirius: Do not approve)
Well, I'm a little bit less livid today, but I'm still in no way ready to talk about the last week at work. I'm dreading going back next week even more than normal now, but I also feel like I've made a lot of my feelings pretty clear to LaTrease and Chris in such a way that they might now better understand my urge to leave. Now I just need to either get this job at Emory or something to come up that would make the whole thing a bit more worthwhile. Don't ask me what that would be, because I have no idea

Mum sent me a list of foods that are lectin-free, because she's starting to wonder if that might be the cause of some of my stomach issues. The ones she lists are: onions, broccoli, cauliflower, mushrooms, pumpkin, sweet potato, carrots, asparagus, cherries, apples, blueberries, oranges, and lemons. And the ones she has down to limit are: nightshades (tomatoes, eggplants, okra, etc), legumes, peanuts, grains, and milk/dairy. She also sent me a note about eating foods with polyphenol, such as cloves, dark chocolate, berries, and some other fruits, like plums, cherries, and apples... and that dark chocolate and red wine are free for alls. Basically, what she's looking at is the Plant Paradox, for whatever that's worth.

Anyone know anything on it? Is it any good? Specifically, is it any good for vegetarians? Or is it just one of those fad diets that makes the rounds every so often?

Friday at last

Friday, 1 February 2019 09:09 pm
apollymi: Usagi holding Luna, Artemis, and Diana, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Kitties!)
Okay, wow, I am so very out of it. I've been stumbling over words and zoning in and out most of the day, but at least it hasn't hit me in the word count, so I'll take it.

Don't you hate it when there's a food you want but the only way to get it is to make it? And you have none of the ingredients (or time, or brain space enough) to make it yourself? That's where I am right now with my flavored oyster crackers. I've been snacking on them since Christmas, because they sit all right on my stomach, but I'm pretty much out now, and it makes me sad.

It's pretty much so stupidly late that it's come back around to early. I'm going to see if my bed will accept me for a few hours. Later, all.

Something here

Sunday, 27 January 2019 11:23 pm
apollymi: Split icon, 1st close-up of Ripley's smug face, 2nd close-up of Hicks' grinning face, text reads "Where do you want it" (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley: Where do you want)
I am watching the weather like a hawk. (No Atlanta Hawks puns intended here. I tend to forget that team exists anyway.) It's calling for a wintry mix, which classically means that GSU will close with "an abundance of caution" or some other way of saying this is the South and we don't know what to do with snow, ice, or sleet.

So continuing the stomach weirdness, [personal profile] katsuko and I took Anastasia out for dinner last night to a Mexican restaurant we go to frequently. I carefully avoided anything with tomatoes or peppers in it, just to be on the safe side, and I even ate extra slow so that nothing would get stuck. In fact, I just got nachos, splitting an appetizer of them with [personal profile] katsuko and Anastasia, and then getting a plate of them for my dinner. Both the appetizer and the plate had cheese and refried beans, and the plate added on guacamole. It should have been safe, because these are all ingredients I've had at this same restaurant before. And yet, I spent most of the night dealing with the... explosive evacuation of the contents of my bowels, which usually means that something I ate a few hours before then was a very, very bad idea.

I don't know here. It's a single location place, though I would hesitate to call it a "small" restaurant. I can't vouch for the authenticity of their recipes. I know I always order from the "Vegetarian" section of the menu... But I also know that authentic refried beans are made with lard. I usually don't eat their rice, because I know a lot of authentic Mexican rice may be cooked with chicken broth.

I feel like the food I can eat is slowly being whittled away. Pretty soon, I'm going to be down to cheese balls, oyster crackers, and pudding, with the occasional side of potatoes and tofu.

And the damnedable thing is, I'm hungry. I'm so damn hungry. I feel so sick so much of the time. I have food evacuating my body at top speed, and yet I'm hungry.

So tired

Saturday, 19 January 2019 11:12 pm
apollymi: Zack looking confused, text reads "WTF?" (FF7**Zack: WTF?)
I'm in that nebulous point where I'm bloody exhausted and so far beyond tired... but I'm not sleepy. Not really anyway. And even though I'm this level of tired, my brain just doesn't want to shut off. Granted, all it's doing is spinning its wheels with loads of useless trivia facts and "shouldn't I check Facebook/Twitter/Tumblr/Instagram again" and so forth. I'm not going to entirely blame it on having caffeine so late at night... nor on how late we had dinner either.

I am happy to note that my usual Taco Bell fare didn't do anything untoward to my stomach, though. Pizza with red sauce was a bad thing, though.

I think tomorrow I'm going to try to make myself get some of all this handwritten stuff dealt with, so I can declutter a little bit.

Saturday

Saturday, 12 January 2019 09:48 pm
apollymi: Usagi holding Luna, Artemis, and Diana, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Kitties!)
Well, I finally got tired of using numbers for subject lines and went back to something a little more boring.

Today was a nice and boring kind of day. I texted with Mum, I hung out with [personal profile] katsuko and the kitties, and I read. I guess I also listened to the rain a bit to, which was nice, because I damn sure wasn't going to go out in it. And yet despite the "just above freezing" temperatures and the rain, the neighbors were out and being noisy, so I guess nothing short of snow or sleet slows them down.

Let's see: on the food note, I was able to a little bit of pasta last night, but it took me twice as long as normal. The brioche bread was all right and didn't seem to get stuck, but I did wind up feeling a bit queasy a few hours later. I'm not sure if that was from the brioche or because that had been all I had eaten all day up until that point. Mashed potatoes were all right, but broccoli and cheese sauce kept making reappearances.

Mum and I discussed the idea of me going back to doing smoothies again or even going with smoothie bowls. At least for a bit, until we get all this settled out with my stomach. And it's like, I would love to, but I'm not sure I can really afford to. Even frozen fruits get really expensive after a while.

Thursday

Thursday, 27 December 2018 09:58 pm
apollymi: Hudson freaking out, text reads "Game over, man. Game over". I find this completely realisitc for the situation (Aliens**Hudson: Game over man! Game ove)
Well, I've finally reached the point that the permanent crown is now actually permanent. I can eat with it now, which is something I haven't really been able to do in a while. I can bite down with my front teeth, which is going to make a huge different in what I am and am not able to eat.

That said, I haven't done a lot of eating today. Queasy stomach and all that grossness has put quite a downer on my food exploits.
apollymi: Hatter with a cuppa, text reads "Tea?" (Alice**Hatter: Tea?)
I feel like today was a continuation of yesterday, with just about as much accomplished. Well, no, I take that back: I guess I did get more done today than I did yesterday. I went by CVS and picked up two of my medications: the Maxalt for migraines (just in case) and the Cymbalta for the depression (because I was out). And then I managed to go by Walmart and pick up the groceries for the next two weeks. We came home and unloaded the groceries, and then we went back out. I gave Best Buy a try for finding what I wanted -- a wireless phone charger -- but it was a big case of no joy, so we headed on out for food.

That part didn't go as well as expected. Note to self: Macaroni Grill's Butternut Tortellicci is in no way vegetarian-friendly, even when you hold the pancetta. The dish includes a chicken demiglace, and oh, I'm paying the price for it now. So many Tums. So much Pepto. [personal profile] katsuko's truffled mac and cheese hit her pretty hard too, so I don't think we'll be going back for quite a while.

And yeah, that's it. I think I'm going to try to do the sleep thing sooner or later.

Dentist

Saturday, 8 September 2018 11:13 pm
apollymi: Ninth Doctor, text reads "Oh, look who just graduated from idiot school" (DW**9th Doctor: Idiot school)
So, I guess the dentist thing went pretty good. I guess I misunderstood because I thought I was getting a cleaning and then fitted for my temporary partials today... but all I was getting was fitted. It was uncomfortable, and I didn't enjoy it, and I think I can still taste the stuff that they use to make the impressions. Any way you cut it, it wasn't a great experience.

That said, I indulged in my favorite grocery store pizza for lunch and I used my Olive Garden gift card for dinner, so the day wasn't a complete waste. It was nice getting to have my favorite frozen pizza today, but damn, now I want it again already... in addition to the Indian I've been craving for a week. Paneer Mahkani sounds freaking amazing right now, especially with some cheese naan. I have needs, folks. Needs.

And I think that's about it. My concentration is absolutely shot today. I'm not sure I could string together any else resembling coherency.

At last

Friday, 10 August 2018 11:00 pm
apollymi: Faraday and Vasquez fighting back to back, no text (Mag7**Vasquez/Faraday: Shootout)
Seriously, guys, I thought I was going to go quietly out of my mind waiting for 5:15 today. Then it wasn't any better, because I still had to walk to the train station in the heat, take the train all the way home, take a Lyft home, and then I could finally relax... which pretty much involved laying on the couch and playing games on my phone for hours on end. Such an exciting life I lead. I sure know how to rock a Friday night.

Okay, maybe not as much as [personal profile] katsuko who is asleep on the other end of the couch again. No shock there. Boo is reclining. Luci is sitting on the arm of the couch, getting her butt scratched like she likes. All in all, this is an exciting household.

But mostly, I'm just tired and hungry and wishing I had some damn peanut butter to snack on. I guess technically I do have some, but it's extra crunchy and I only like creamy. (First world problems, huh?)

Anyway, I guess I'm going to make myself go lay down so that [personal profile] katsuko can stretch out on the entire couch. Good night, all.

Tuesday

Tuesday, 7 August 2018 10:33 pm
apollymi: Vasquez firing his gun, no text (Mag7**Vasquez: Out of focus)
Man, Tuesdays are always kind of weird at work. At least, for the most part, the testers were pretty nice today. As always, we had a couple of them (GACE) that didn't exactly respond well to Glynda's attitude, but I can't do anything about that. I can only do so much GACE whispering, after all.

I did a Hydroxycut this morning and another one at lunch. But I also had soda. I think I might have hit on why I had such a hard time getting to sleep yesterday and why I'm not tired tonight. It's late, but I'm really not tired. I'm hungry, but I'm not tired. Which sucks, because it's after midnight (ha ha!!) and I have to be up for work in a few hours. But yeah, hungry, with no peanut butter in sight and not too long before having to go lay down so that [personal profile] katsuko can at least get some sleep.

I need to find a way to balance this shit out. It looks like it was indeed the probiotics that caused the skin rash, which is both a bummer and a relief. Bummer, because it was supposed to help my digestion issues and nausea. Relief, because at least I don't have to quit taking the Hydroxycut. I'm not sure how well it was helping the weight loss, but it was certainly doing a lot towards keeping me awake at work. I might just have to cut out the afternoon dose or do the caffeine free one in the afternoons.

On a final note, I have a super affectionate Luci right next to me on the arm of the couch and a sweetly sleepy Boo napping on [personal profile] katsuko's leg on the other side of me. I like this.

And yeah, I guess I'm going to try to make myself sleep and ignore the growling stomach. I could stand to lose some weight anyway. Later, all.
apollymi: Zack looking confused, text reads "WTF?" (FF7**Zack: WTF?)
I’m hot and tired and cranky and hungry and thirsty. And there’s not a lot I can do about any of them. We’re running distinctly low on food at the house that isn’t for the cats. Oh, we have a few things here and there, mostly junk food and things that can be used with things we don’t have to make food. And what we do have isn’t exactly suitable for a late night meal. It’s meant to be a filling dinner, and that’s about it.

I think I’m finally caught back up on Camp NaNoWriMo, thanks to doing nearly 2200 words today. Granted, most of it was stupidly painful stuff, which is usually a good sign that I’m about to be on the rag. That does tend to be right about the time I torture my characters the most. Whoops.

Anyway, work starts back tomorrow, so I’m going to go throw myself at my bed and see what happens. Good night, all.
apollymi: Duo, lowering sunglasses to look out, text reads "Don't fear the reaper" (GW**Duo: Don't fear the reaper)
I wish I could think of something to say today. I'm tired, I'm cranky, I'm hot, and I’m ready to just pass the fuck out where I sit. I’m hungry, and that’s certainly not helping with the cranky. It’s just so hot, and by the time I finally got hungry, it was nearly 10:30 at night, which I deemed to be too late to cook for one, while [personal profile] katsuko is at work. So I’ve had two tablespoons of peanut butter and some Diet Doctor Pepper since the train ride home, so… 5:00? 5:30? And while I am indeed very hungry, I don’t want to eat this close to going to bed. It seems like a good way to guarantee an upset stomach during the remainder of the night or in the morning.

And obviously today has been a shit writing day. I did get a good deal handwritten, but I managed a severe case of feline paralysis earlier and was unable to go get the handwritten from my purse. So it’ll have to count for tomorrow’s word count. Because me? I’m going the fuck to bed now. Good night, all.

Noooo

Sunday, 3 June 2018 10:11 pm
apollymi: Vasquez firing his gun, no text (Mag7**Vasquez: Out of focus)
My lazy Saturday was replaced with a lazy Sunday this weekend, seeing as how my usual Saturday was spent going all over the Northern Atlanta Metro area looking at cars. I can't even say that I managed to do a lot today, because I really didn't. I think the most I managed to do today was get talked into getting froyo... though it didn't exactly take a lot of twisting my arm for [personal profile] katsuko to accomplish this. Where it comes to froyo, I'm easy.

I did manage to accomplish some writing, which is good. I haven't done as much of it in June as I would like. I mean, yes, it's still early in the month, but my weekend writing scores suck out loud compared to during the week.

Other than that, though, I've got nothing. I should be looking at used car places up in the Gainesville-Buford area for when Mum is next up, but I just lack the energy or will or gumption to do much of anything. Plus work starts back tomorrow, and I should be getting myself towards a bed before long. So I guess I'll go do that now.

Later, all.

Words

Tuesday, 22 May 2018 10:44 pm
apollymi: Test tubes with various coloured liquids in them, text reads "Culinary Scientist" (Stock: Culinary scientist!)
I'm not sure I have any words for today. The internet ended up breaking at work, so that turned into a major production, trying to get anything done. It remained a major production trying to get anything done all day, to the extent that someone is going to have to come work on the DSL at work tomorrow.

And with all that, I got very little writing done. I also ended up drifting quite a bit between dinner (of lazy woman's poutine when you have no access to cheese curds) and now, so I have zero idea how much sleep, if any, I've actually gotten today and if I'll manage much before it's time to go back to work. (I feel like I just left work. I feel like I live at work.)

And that's it. I'm dead. Good night.

Sleepy Saturday

Saturday, 5 May 2018 11:46 pm
apollymi: Vachon leaning close over Nick's shoulder, no text (FK**Nick/Vachon: Heartbreakers)
I swear, I feel like I waste my weekends because sometimes just about all I do is catch up on sleep from the week. Especially on Saturday. The problem is that, honestly, I'm so exhausted that I could literally sleep the whole day away. It's only because I make myself that I get up and do anything at all. Granted, what I did was get up and go to Taco Bell with [personal profile] katsuko, but that's still doing something! I did actually leave the house, which is pretty good for me on the weekends as of late.

God, if I could just pop my neck and stretch out every muscle between my head and the small of my back, I swear I would feel like a new human being.

And yeah, that's it. That's all I've got.

Two hours and counting

Wednesday, 25 April 2018 10:03 pm
apollymi: Chapter 301 of manga, redeeming power of love, text reads "Even Kyo and Yuya get shojo sparkles" (SDK**Kyo/Yuya: Shojo sparkles?)
It's only two more hours until I get to go see The Avengers: Infinity War, and I am so freaking ready. I'm still doing my best to avoid spoilers... except that there are "unintentional" ones in news articles' titles, and that's sort of pissing me off.

I'm gonna have to try to avoid everything pretty much until after this evening. Only about two more hours to go, and then it'll be movie time, and then I'll be able to quit avoiding spoilers like the plague.

I did manage to get some writing done today, and I'm trying to get it typed up before we head out. I think we're planning on having some milkshakes ahead of time because neither of us really know what kind of food, if any, is going to be available at the theater.

Anyway, I need to get this handwritten bit typed up. Later, all.

Blegh

Sunday, 8 April 2018 11:01 pm
apollymi: Sarah reading a book, text reads "can't talk reading fanfic" (Labyrinth**Sarah: Can't talk - Fanfic!)
Today I feel like I need that particular subject line more than ever. I always hear that the longer after a fall, the more you may start hurting. It's been two days since I fell, and I think I hurt worse now than I did on the day it happened or yesterday. The bonus is that I finally found my knee brace, so between it and the ankle braces, I'm almost steady on my feet... barring having to take the stairs.

I hate doing it, but I might have to dig my cane out of the trunk of Shinigami so that I can use it tomorrow for extra balance. The last few times I used it, Mirko coworkers made fun of me for using it, and on top of everything else, that's the last thing I need. And I wouldn't put it past Glynda. I don't put anything past Glynda.

Good gods, my knee is just a mess. It's scraped on one side and bruised up on the other, and I'm never quite sure which side to baby. So I'm trying to put weight on it at all, which means the weight is going on the other leg, which is now starting to hurt. All this from hitting concrete.

I'm more than half-tempted to wear my corset that doubles as a back brace tomorrow too. Given how much the rest of me hurts, after all, it might not be a bad idea to force myself into some good posture. Or it might, seeing as how sometimes I'm having to slump down into a nothingness position to successfully find a place and position that doesn't cause active pain.

I texted Mum to be talked out of going and getting a bean burrito and a cheese enchilada. Instead, though, she talked me into it. She said that sometimes we need treats after it's been a long, hard couple of days. She also mentioned how she has to treat herself to a Coke after dealing with Betsy for more than five minutes. Ouch. But I had my enchilada and burrito. The service sucked, but the food was good. I guess that's good enough for tonight, but it was also worth a mediocre review on Yelp.

I also texted LaTrease to see if she would prefer I take the day off or come in and possibly have to leave early, since I'm not sure how long I'll be able to work. Of course, I got no answer. I never get any answer on those questions. Oh, I'll go in tomorrow, and I'll get an apology on missing my text, but that'll be it. It's damn hard to call out of work, when I'm given one way to do it, and it's not answered. Or I should say it's damn hard to call out if you're not Glynda. But then there's me being all salty again.

Anyway, I think I'm gonna take a couple more ibuprofen and go the fuck to bed. [personal profile] katsuko is sleeping soundly on the other end of the couch, and frankly, it looks nice. I think I would like to give it a try as well.

So... good night, my freaky darlings.

Another damn day

Wednesday, 21 March 2018 11:55 pm
apollymi: Hansel & Gretel in the woods, text reads "We've got the taste of blood" (H&G: Hansel & Gretel: Taste of blood)
Well, I made it through hump day. It's all downhill for the rest of the week from here. I almost feel like I can make it through the rest of the work week. I just need to concentrate on that. It's just two more days in the work week. After that, it's the weekend. After that, everything is gravy.

Why is it that every time I take my pills to go to bed, that the second my stomach starts growling? It makes me a little nuts. Of course, it doesn't help that my stomach is always growling, so...

Y'all, beat some sense into me. I keep getting so angry about my weight, to the point where I'm now just like "fuck it! I'm not eating anymore" or "fuck it, one meal a day from now on". Because that's not a healthy way to handle things.

And yeah, that's all I've really got to say for myself for today. Later, all.

Serious quickie

Monday, 19 March 2018 11:12 pm
apollymi: Drawing of cross-looking chick, holding a teabag. Text reads "No tea No work" (Stock: No tea = no work)
This entry is going to have to be a really, really quickly done one, not my usual all over the place rambles. It's storming outside, and I'm not sure how much I trust the power to stay on during this crap. It didn't manage to stay on during the last thunderstorm on Saturday, after all.

Before all this started, I did watch a couple of cooking videos. I've got a sauce I want to try making. It sounds like a simpler version of the thai peanut sauce I usually make, which I can appreciate. I'll have to find which video had the recipe in it. I have it on my YouTube favorites list, so that should make it easier to turn up.

And yeah, it's really starting to pick up, so I'm gonna go get under my covers and hope for it to go away. Or for them to cancel work tomorrow. Whichever.

So anyway, in the interst of missing some of the worst of the weather, I'm gonna go throw myself at my bed now. Good niht.

So yeah

Sunday, 18 March 2018 10:42 pm
apollymi: Faraday staring off, no text (Mag7**Faraday: Middle distance)
I think I was even lazier today than I was yesterday. At least yesterday I did the little bit of grocery shopping I could afford to do. Today, I didn't even leave the house, even to hit a PokeStop. Whoops. And it was a day 7 for me too. Oh well. I'm not sure I have a damn to give left in me.

The food we ate today was pretty much all the things I don't need to eating: pancakes and locally produced cane syrup for brunch, and loaded mashed potatoes for dinner. Even if it was all food I'm not meant to eat, it was so damn good. I'm not feeling much in the way of shame for it. Like I said, it was good. [personal profile] katsuko is good to me, making tasty foods.

Teeth are still seriously hurting. I would say that I'm going to OD on Orajel treating them, but I've used much, much more of it in a much shorter time frame than I am right now at various other points since this whole saga started. Honestly, I ought to buy stock in Orajel, so I can support myself.

Things to remember to pay on Friday: Progressive, Charter Spectrum, Georgia Power, Verizon, doctor's office, an oil change in the Malibu, and probably something else I'm forgetting about. At least I don't have to worry about paying for the storage facility anymore.

Man, filling the petrol tank in the Malibu is going to be even more of a pain than it was in Shinigami. In Shinigami, I could make $15 get me over half a tank from empty. In the Malibu, $15 doesn't even get to the halfway point. (Same gas station, roughly the same price per gallon, at that, too.)

I don't know what I need to do as far as getting a new car. I mean, I've had $50 come in on the fundraiser. It's helpful, yes, but it gets me nowhere near what I need for a down payment, which is at least $1500. I don't want to sell Shinigami until I'm closer to what I need, because I don't want to lose my long-term insurance membership that keeps me with a good discount... if I can even sell him quickly. I still need to clean him out, though I think I might need a cordless hand vacuum for that, really.

Honestly, so much is predicated on me having the energy to do stuff at a time when the weather will cooperate with the doing of stuff.

But alas, it's now time to stop my whinging and throw myself at my bed. Good night, all.