apollymi: Duo and Heero back to back, text reads "Together" (GW**Duo/Heero: Together)
So. Damn. Sleepy.

I didn't have work today, but I still got up with [personal profile] katsuko to make sure she got off okay and arrived at work all right. And then I went back to bed and slept. I feel like I slept so much... but I also felt like I could have slept a few more hours and not been hurt by it.

Or I need words to cooperate earlier in the day so I can go to bed when I first start drifting off in the evening. I think in general, I need that to start happening, so that I'm getting more sleep during the week too. I'm already writing most of the train ride in, on my entire lunch break, and any quiet moments on the desk. I'm not sure how much more I can sneak into the work day. I guess I'll need to try and come up with something.

I'm just about to the point of telling [personal profile] katsuko to prompt me on these Worst Case Scenario stories. The initial few stories carried me through most of June and the first few days of July, but they're being difficult now. (I think I just wrote the world's vaguest cunnilingus. OMG.) I think I want to get through the sweet bit where I'm at and then go back to being mean to various versions of the characters, but the problem is that I'm not sure what kind of mean I want to be and to which version of the characters. I mean, we have eight different versions of this damn story, after all: main verse, modern au, femme Faraday modern, femme Goody modern, the femmes, worst case scenario femmes, worst case scenario bi!Goody, and BDSM verse. I think that's eight versions. I'm sleepy, and I can't count right now.

I'm seriously so tired that my brain feels like it keeps going offline and restarting every so often. I keep losing my train of thought and trailing off in the middle of sentences. I need sleep. Once I hit my 2000 words for the day, I'll go do just that. I'm probably going to have a lot of things to fix tomorrow, but I'll deal with that tomorrow.
apollymi: Stitch in a cape and hood, no text (L&S**Stitch: The... fuzzy blue alien kni)
Happy "When the hell are the fireworks ever going to end" day. I'm heartily fucking sick of them.

Happily, I do not have jury duty tomorrow. It seems that everyone who was supposed to show up at 8:00 was excused due to a case today running late. I am completely fine with this. It means I don't have to deal with trying to figure out the proper MARTA to get on and all that malarky.

So instead I have to figure out what time to get to the MARTA station in order to get to work to open tomorrow. That's a little less of a headache, since I did open today.

It does do such a good getting the day over with, opening and all, that I might ask if LaTrease needs me to do it next week also.

I feel like I'm giving out feedback on the other parts of this particular Camp story hand over fist... and getting pittances in return. It's not a feeling I'm enjoying. And yes, I've already said something. No real improvement beyond an hour or two.

I'm so close to the point of just giving up on the idea of getting feedback. I'm just going to write into the void and see what happens. It's not my favorite thing to do, because obviously I really enjoy feedback, but rather than have to force it, I'm just not going to bother trying.

And that's all I've got to say for myself for today.

Something

Thursday, 29 June 2017 10:27 pm
apollymi: Hicks, text reads "My hero" (Aliens**Hicks: My hero)
I have a whole lot of nothing to say for myself for today. I went to work. I made it through the day. I didn't kill anyone.

I wrote. I wrote a lot, actually, though not as much as [personal profile] katsuko managed. She broke 6,000 words today. I just managed half that: a little over 3,000. To be fair, I wrote both original versions of that scene she's rewriting for yet another version of Worst Case Scenario, but still...

But yeah, whole lot of nothing otherwise.

Writing

Monday, 26 June 2017 11:52 pm
apollymi: Ed glares & Al stands behind him, no text (FMA**Ed: Ed is unimpressed)
Well, I’ve managed another good writing day. I’m trying not to talk too much about it, since it's in the Worst Case Scenario.

Work today was all right. It was a Monday, that was for sure. I ended up not getting to leave until late because we just had one person who somehow managed to get the computer to let him go over his time by about ten minutes. I was ready to commit the most cheerful of murders for that. I now have about 45 minutes of comp time built up over the last week and this week that I need to use before Friday, so I am going to have to get creative.

And really, that's about all I have to say for myself.

Until later, my freaky darlings.

Another

Sunday, 25 June 2017 06:52 pm
apollymi: Black cat sitting on pumpkins, no text (Proud mom of a black cat) (Kitten: Black cat)
Another good writing day. I've topped 3,000 words so far, and I'm pretty much going to write up until I go to sleep tonight, I'm thinking.

I doubt I'll top my best writing day so far (just under 5300 words), but I'm going to see what I can do. If I do manage to top that, I'll be stupidly impressed with myself.

That said, it's not long until bedtime, and I'm going to try to cram in as much writing as possible between now and then.

Good night, all.

Progress

Saturday, 24 June 2017 11:00 pm
apollymi: White background with a black flashing cursor, text reads "It mocks me", animated (My Writing: Cursor mocks me)
I've actually made some writing progress today. I'm not sure how much of it I'm actually proud of, but I've made words happen. I'm choosing to be proud of this. I'm also choosing to be proud of the plotting and planning [personal profile] katsuko and I have done in this dark version of one of the verses we've got going. (In fact, we call the dark verse "Worst Case Scenario" for a reason.)

I can't say I've done much today, but I've managed to get a goodly number of words done. [personal profile] katsuko and I also went to see Wonder Woman. I feel like we spent a lot of time making D&D references (Wondie is so the tank in this situation) and a near equal amount of time comparing it to Captain America: The First Avenger. But it was really, really good. We both enjoyed it. [personal profile] katsuko only ended up crying once, so that's a step in the right.

And now I think I'm going to work a bit more on [community profile] 15kinks... and maybe a bit on 15k:WCS. Because apparently we're fucking sadistic. This is a verse that will never be shared. It's purely for [personal profile] katsuko and me. It's that level of dark and wrong.

Weekend!

Friday, 23 June 2017 10:42 pm
apollymi: Captain America in the middle of rubble, no text (Aveng**Cap: Devestation)
It's finally the weekend! It's not quite a sleeping in kind of weekend, but at least it's a don't have to be at either job kind of a weekend.

I'm getting really sick of Roo's new habit of chewing on typing fingers. I enjoy him sitting in my lap and being all sweet and purr-some, but this new thing of his with biting is getting very old very fast.

I've deleted [community profile] 15kinks off my Scrivener twice this week. I'm just very damn discouraged on the whole thing.

But then, I'm just very damn discouraged on life and everything.

And that's it.

Oh well

Thursday, 22 June 2017 09:43 pm
apollymi: Drawing of cross-looking chick, holding a teabag. Text reads "No tea No work" (Stock: No tea = no work)
I'm in a contrary brain space.

I want to make more words happen. The harder I try, the less they want to come.
I get in a writing groove but have to leave at the end of my lunch break. I can't make words happen now.
"You look like you're enjoying your music." I cut off my music.
I'm so damn tired. I don't want to go to bed yet in case words do happen.
I feel like shit and want to talk. If I start thinking about talking, I start feeling like I'm choking.

As far as #365k/365Day is going, I've written over 268k so far. I'm approximately 73% of the way to goal. I've ended each month with at least 6,000 words over where I needed to be. My best month so far has been May, where I wrote nearly 36,000 more words than I needed. I might have the occasional shitty writing day, but I'm not letting myself get behind where I need to be.

I'm still on my goddamn period. I've been on my period since June 5. Monday will be three damn weeks. I'm fucking sick of it. It shows no sign of slowing down or stopping.

[community profile] 15kinks is... ongoing. I've had a few good writing nights in a row off it, so that's good. I still feel like it's ridiculous and unreadable and so fucking pointless, but I have one damn anonymous reader on Tumblr. I'm writing for them.

And on that contrary note, I'm fucking sick of Tumblr too. I haven't quite taken it off my phone yet. But it's not far from it either.

Fluid

Wednesday, 14 June 2017 11:22 pm
apollymi: Bakura and Kaiba, close up on eyes, text reads "Your eyes" (YGO**Bakura/Kaiba: Your eyes)
I’m trying out making this entry with Fluid, one of those apps that turns webpages into apps. It’s just a thing I’m trying, since my browser keeps freezing up on me. Which is a pain, because it’s started right when [personal profile] katsuko and I started transitioning all of our [community profile] 15kinks stories to Google Docs to be worked on, so that we can both work on them whenever. It never fails.

But I think all of the Canon Era part of the story is now up. I’m still working on getting the various AUs posted and formatted. I do need to fix the formatting on some of the earlier stories to match with the later stories, but that’s something I’ll fuck about with tomorrow.

Tonight, I need to focus on getting a thousand words for #365k/365Day. According to my Excel spreadsheet, I have 259,874 words already this year, meaning that I’m already 71.2% of the way to my goal of 365,000 words in 2017. Having a few WriMos in there helped a lot towards that high total thus far. But even last month, which wasn’t a WriMo, I managed to get 65k done.

And a large part of that has been [community profile] 15kinks in the last month or so. I still don’t quite feel like we’re far enough along to start posting it. I think we’re hoping to be pretty close to done before we start posting. I mean, that’s what I’m taking away since we’ve been saying over and over that we’ve learned our lessons from Wicked Ones and After Midnight and so forth.

But be that as it may, we might have one reader for this: Mist Marauder. And there’s been the one lonesome person on Tumblr who PMed us to talk about loving GoodDay. Otherwise, we seem to be sailing this boat solo. Which is pretty familiar to me, from my Yu-Gi-Oh days.

Anyway, I need to get a thousand words today, even if I am literally months ahead at this point. I’m only somewhere in the 400s, so I need to get to work. Wish me luck!

Later, all.

So close

Monday, 12 June 2017 10:29 pm
apollymi: Pissed off Vasquez, no text (Mag7**Vasquez: Angry)
I'm so damn close to being done with this particular part of the [community profile] 15kinks story that I can almost taste it. No pun intended. So far, this bit is almost 4200 words, and I haven't even gotten to the aftercare bit that's going to be just as important as the kink that went on before it.

In other news, I have all this comp time built up from last week -- about an hour and a half -- that I'm not sure I'm going to get to keep. Anastasia didn't think she could stay all the way until 8:30 (my usual arrival time) getting the Prometric part of the center open and still administer her own tests at 9:00, so I came in at 8:15 so that she'd have time to get herself situated on all five days. But this was not approved by LaTrease or any of the managers. If it was up to me, I would just leave early on one of these days when the testers finish early and have done with it. But I don't know.

And yeah, that's about it. I'm going to try to finish up this damn part tonight or tomorrow, because I'm ready to move on to something else.

Later, all.

Things

Sunday, 11 June 2017 11:09 pm
apollymi: Blank background, text rewads "All ship wars should be resolved by threesome fic" (Text: More threesomes!)
I'm not sure how much, if anything, I have to say. I'm still working on that same damn scene. It just continues to defy me. I've tried working on the modern au instead of it for a while, but I only managed 130 something words before I had to go back to the previous story because it just wouldn't turn me loose.

I feel like I'm worrying too much over this one part. I'm sure it will turn out all right. [personal profile] katsuko keeps making little 'hot damn' comments and turning various shades of red and pink while reading it, so it's probably not as dry as it feels to me.

If I ever manage to finish the damn thing, I'll have to go back and reread it and see if it is a dry read. Obviously, right now it feels a bit that way to me.

Things I've researched today: Pitbull mixes that can get over 100 pounds, etymology of words and phrases (is this culturally appropriate for the time period I'm writing in? do I care?), a dildo big enough to earn the nickname "Big Blue" and be considered big hardware (and now I feel like I've seen things that cannot be unseen), Amazon web music player, the music video for Billie Myers' "Tell Me", and a few dozen other completely unrelated things.

And yeah, that's about it. I didn't write as much as I wanted to, but I'm running out of Sunday. Monday will be here in a very shortly, and I need to be prepared to face it with something approaching dignity and grace. Or awakeness. Take your pick.

Shame

Saturday, 10 June 2017 11:19 pm
apollymi: Chaucer looking annoyed, text reads "I will eviscerate you in fiction" (AKT**Chaucer: Eviscerate you in fiction)
I feel like I should be ashamed of some of the things I've googled today. I'm not even going to think about listing some of them here. Suffice it to say that they've almost all been very, very NSFW. Some have turned out to be rather NSFS (not safe for soul). Most of them were just complete NSFW, though, and I'm all right with that.

I've tried to do a nap today, but it never actually ended up working. I had way too much feline assistance as the case turned out.

I just need to finish the fill that I'm on right now, and then I think I'm going to switch over to the modern au for a bit again. I'm just feeling like I need to get most of my Goody's past their traumas and into the happier sexy times. Weirdly, the other three versions of this story aren't nearly as trauma filled as the two where both characters remain male.

Because yes, [community profile] 15kinks led us to developing five different versions of the same story: canon era (male Faraday/male Goodnight), modern au (male Faraday/male Goody), femme Faraday modern au (with male Goody), femme Goody modern au (with male Faraday), and femme Faraday/femme Goody canon era. The ones with probably the least issues and angst are probably the femme Goody/male Faraday ones, with femme Faraday/male Goody running a close second, then the femmes coming in third. Canon Era and Modern AU? Holy shit, the trauma, issues, and angst. We've spent way too much time working on the angst, issues, and trauma for those two verses. Canon era is the original one, followed by modern au. The other verses came later, in order: femme Faraday, femme Goody, and then the femmes.

And yeah, I guess that's enough babble about the shit I've been writing. Now to go back to actually writing it.

So... something

Wednesday, 31 May 2017 10:23 pm
apollymi: Usagi holding Luna, Artemis, and Diana, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Kitties!)
I'm not sure if I'm tired or drained or too into the shit I'm writing. It's hard to be certain.

I suspect it's a combination of the three. Holy shit, the story took a dark turn, and I really need to get through this bit, so that we can get back to your regularly scheduled kinky porn.

And yeah, that's all I've got to say for myself.

So long, my freaky darlings.

Day off

Monday, 29 May 2017 11:34 pm
apollymi: Kaiba looking pissed, purple overtones, text reads "Cursed" (YGO**Kaiba: Cursed)
So today was my holiday day off. I didn't go to bed until nearly 4 in the morning, and I slept in until nearly 10 in the morning. So that was nice.

I wrote a bit today. Not quite like those nights last week where I wrote 5000 words in a night, but still, I managed something.

I've been called obsessed with this verse. I don't know. I'm enjoying writing it. I might be obsessed with editing it, but I hope I'm not actually obsessed with writing it.

But I'm otherwise out of things to say. Later.

Not sure

Friday, 26 May 2017 11:17 pm
apollymi: Steve & Danny on couch, text reads "It is what it is" (H50**Steve/Danny: It is what it is)
I'm not sure that I really have anything much to say. I'm tired. I'm tired almost beyond meaning of the word, but I need to get some more words done, because I won't really be able to write tomorrow, since I'll be at Mum's and Grandmother's for a very belated Mother's Day.

I still feel like I need to apologize to any potential readers and my characters for what I've been writing and editing the last couple of days. I swear, I only do it out of love.

And now I guess I need to go the fuck to bed, so that I can maybe get a little sleep, so that maybe I can get up at a good time to get on the road. I'm hoping to leave between 6 and 8 tomorrow, after all, so that I can spend plenty of time visiting.

Anyway, I'm going to try to finish up a bit more of this scene, so that I can maybe go do that sleep thing. Later, all.

Apologies

Thursday, 25 May 2017 11:26 pm
apollymi: Yami no Bakura on a stripy background, text reads "Evil (crossed out 'looks like') IS a gay Japanese schoolboy" (YGO**Bakura: The face of evil)
Oh gods, I think I need to apologize to the world for what I spent the day writing. I'm not sure if it was necessary to write out a scene that probably will never appear in the [community profile] 15kinks story to begin with, but my brain insisted that it was necessary for backstory purposes, to show (part of) why Goodnight is so fucked up in that story.

And yeah, that's about it. I've got nothing else.

My most sincere apologies, world, and good night.

Failed

Tuesday, 23 May 2017 11:16 pm
apollymi: Trunks staring off in the middle distance, no text (DBZ**Trunks: Sentinel)
I failed at going to bed before 11:30. Hell, I failed going to sleep last night before midnight. One freaking thirty in the morning was when I finally dragged myself to bed last night. I got on a roll. I think I'm almost done with this particular section (and that will have my "mirrors" prompt done), but I'm not sure yet. I did manage my best writing day ever, though: 5,285 words.

Today is not going nearly as well: I haven't even broken a thousand words. I'm going to keep trying, but I don't really think it's going to happen, sadly enough. But I'm a stubborn cuss, and I'm going to keep trying.

I keep thinking that I need to start posting this over on [community profile] 15kinks and [community profile] eternal_sailorm, but I have yet to arse enough willingness to do so just yet. I mean, I'm like months behind again on updating websites. I hate being so tired when I get off work that I just don't want to do anything but sit and write. Nonetheless... That's what I end up doing.

And yeah, I'm out of things to say here. Later, all.

Intentions

Monday, 22 May 2017 10:58 pm
apollymi: Jensen playing with the homemade monsters,  text reads "I am sane-ish" (Losers**Jensen: Sane-ish)
Today I fully intend to be in bed by 11:30. We'll see if that actually ends up happening or not, but that's my intention.

I am in the middle of writing my "Mirrors" prompt for [community profile] 15kinks (since I already finished "Possessiveness" and [personal profile] katsuko has already finished "Rimming"), and the words don't want to stop coming.

Anyway, I'm going to see how many more words I can get by 11:30 (or 11:45) and then I'm off to bed.

G'night, all.

An hour ago

Sunday, 21 May 2017 11:23 pm
apollymi: Chococat sitting in an orange chair, no text (Sanrio**Chococat: This is my ROOM!)
I meant to be in bed an hour ago. We've got a six a.m. day tomorrow, so the sooner we're in bed, the more sleep we'll have.

But the [community profile] 15kinks story took over my brain, and I've slammed out about 2900 words for the "Possessiveness" prompt, plus another 300 of the modern day alternate universe and 200 of editing on various other parts of the main verse. I'm not sure if the story is itself actually completed, though.

So... yeah...

Kinkster

Friday, 19 May 2017 11:10 pm
apollymi: Close ups of Arthur and Eames, no text (Incep**Eames/Arthur: Perchance to dream)
So, yeah, apparently this story is going to be super kinky, even if we never hit all the things these characters think about doing to and with each other.

Let's just say that [community profile] 15kinks might end up being like double that in length... and that's just the canon era, not counting if we decide to do the modern au also. With Faraday's fantasies alone...

Anyway, Mum texted me to say that she doesn't want me on the road with the bad weather this weekend, so I'll be going down next weekend when it's supposed to be pretty.

I do still have to administer a test tomorrow, but after that, I've got a free weekend. I will try to not go see Guardians of the Galaxy, Volume 2 again. Who knows though?

Anyway... bed now. Morning comes really early after all.