apollymi: Manic look Ninth Doctor, text reads "I solemnly swear I'm up to no good" (DW**9th Doctor: Up to no good)
Just when I think we've got our heads above water again, something comes crashing back down to change all that.

Because somehow, despite working over 70 hours in the last two weeks, [personal profile] katsuko's IKEA paycheck take-home was less than $300. Hell, it was barely $200. We needed that money to pay rent. In fact, we'd been hoping to get rent paid on time or early this month. Instead, now, we're going to have to wait until the 4th when my check goes in and hope that she makes enough at the restaurant to make up the difference.

And I still have to pay another $110 to the IRS as soon as possible. They want it within seven days (I'm not sure if that's seven business days or just seven days) in order for me to keep my part of the contract. But the other part of the IRS said that they will be sending me a letter saying it has to be paid in full within 30 days. And I just don't know. It's ridiculous.

But in addition to our nearly $1000 rent payment, I also have to come up with that $110 for the IRS. Plus $110 in late fees that will be assessed because we have to pay after the 3rd now. And I just have to hope that I have all this together by the 9th, because on the 10th, they evict us. Plus I have to pay for our storage building (another $70) and renter's insurance ($25). And then there's the Verizon phone bill ($214). But at least I managed to get the internet and car insurance paid before this.

I'm regretting going to the eye doctor, though. Yes, I didn't have any more contacts and, yes, [personal profile] katsuko's glasses were six years old, but we need that money now. I don't regret the money I spent towards getting Roo taken care of, even the $90 for them to make a paw print impression for us, because that needed to be done, but that was a huge $400 bill. Because, yes, cremation is apparently expensive as hell, but I wanted my boy to be treated right.

I'm just out of ideas. Obviously, I'm also out of money. I'm about to the point of trying to sell plasma for money. I'm already going to be selling a lot of my DVDs and BluRays for money and hoping I get a decent bit for them. I'm also probably going to be selling my XBox 360.

I'm just... This is all too, too much. I'm mentally and emotionally and physically exhausted. I'm at the point of possibly having to say no conventions this year. I might have to tell Mist not to come visit because we won't be able to afford anything while she's here, if I'm crunching the numbers right. And I might need to cancel my doctor's appointment for next month, the one that's supposed to tell me while I've had a period last three and a half weeks, go down to spotting for a week and a half, then start again ten days ago -- and is still ongoing.

I'm at my wit's end.
apollymi: Giles holding a blue cup of tea, text reads "cuppa tea" (BtVS**Giles: Cuppa tea)
Well, I've officially broken my 50,000 word goal. That's a good thing at least. I got out Write or Die, so I have a nice and high word count for the day, so I can go to bed at a semi-decent hour. I'm still working on the unofficial goal of 65,000 words. I'm not completely sure that I'll reach that, but I'm going to try.

Work was work. We had some computer issues and some difficult testers and all, but I made it through the day.

Roo was ready to pick up this afternoon, and [personal profile] katsuko did it, since she was already off work and I still had a couple hours left. We have him with Aya and Jimi. His paw print is on the mantle piece with Jimi's as well. That's significantly harder.

I found out the other day that part of my job is in a bit of jeopardy because I still owe the IRS money. Specifically, I still owe them $166 from 2013, money I thought was already paid. And after the rather huge bill with Roo, nearly $400, it's also money that I don't have. I have seven days from receiving the letter to have it paid in full or in a payment plan or risk losing that part of my job.

And yeah, that's the daily freakout.
apollymi: Don Schanke with a paper, looking very unimpressed, no text (FK**Schanke: Schanke is unimpressed)
I feel like I'm almost caught up with where I need to be for sleep, except that I'm about to start back to work tomorrow, which means a distinct lack of sleep again.

That isn't to say that I haven't spent the day drifting off at the odd moment, including at Panera Bread, but at least I haven't felt as drained as I usually do. I do, however, have the distinct impression that the weekend went by without me.

And I know that's because I spent the whole weekend drifting by in a sort of haze. Honestly, I'm a little bit still there. I keep looking for Roo on the end of the couch or Jimi snuggled up next to me. I feel like I'm constantly having to be the brave one and not let myself break down in tears... aside from the panic attack I had on the phone with Mom when I first got home on Friday and found Roo.

I hate having to feel like I need to be the strong one. I would love the opportunity to break down. I'm tired of being strong. But I can't seem to get past that block in my brain that says I have to be. I can't stop hearing Oyaji's voice in my head every time I start crying, calling them "crocodile tears" or telling me to grow up or something like that. It's not healthy, but that's where my brain is at.

Anyway, I need to go crawl into my bed. 5:30 gets here awfully early, after all.
apollymi: Captain America in the middle of rubble, no text (Aveng**Cap: Devestation)
I can't say that I feel much of anything today. I'm numb, is probably the best way to say it. I'm numb and emotionally void. I'm flying mostly on autopilot last night and today, and I just don't even know what to do about it.

I'm just tired and numb and void. I've got nothing in me. I'm trying to keep on keeping on, and I'm not sure how much of that I've got left in me.

Because we already had the appointments, both [personal profile] katsuko and I had our eyes checked today. She needed new glasses desperately, and my last pair of contact lenses ripped on Friday. Her glasses are being made, and I'll have my contacts in a week or so. I have a trial pair for now, which is better than nothing, I suppose.

We have had a Boo hanging out with us every time we're still for more than a few minutes at the time. She's not on the furniture with us while we're writing or anything, but she's hanging in the same room as us, which is new and different and definitely not unwelcome.

I keep worrying that she's going to get lonesome on her own. She's always had at least one other kitty around. I'm just not sure that [personal profile] katsuko and I are both ready for a new cat. I'm not sure if we're recovered from losing Jimi and now, after losing Roo, it's all so raw. But I also feel like we need to do what's best for her and think about if she needs a companion.

But like I told [personal profile] katsuko, no decisions right now, not while we're not at our best. Boo will forgive us that much at least, if she does feel lonely. We need a little time... and we need a chance to recover financially from the unexpected cremation cost. Because that was nearly $400 we did not have to spare.

And yeah, I'm just null and void. I'm numb beyond meaning of the word. I just don't care anymore. I can't make myself feel anything.
apollymi: Black cat sitting on pumpkins, no text (Proud mom of a black cat) (Kitten: Black cat)
I can't even. I've got nothing.

I came home from work today, to find Roo had passed away. We had him from the time he was six weeks old until he was eleven.

He had a bad bout of anemia from fleas last fall, though, and he never really recovered his health from it. Last night, he was a bit weak, a bit shaky in his back legs. This morning, he didn't want breakfast but nibbled on some dry food when I put it out. Given his low weight thanks to the anemia, we decided he needed a vet visit today. Neither of us could get off work on short notice, so we decided that, if I could get out on time, I would go get him and take him.

Well, I got off early, got [personal profile] katsuko dropped off at Mirko, and came to the house... to find he had passed away. Boo was right there with him, acting like she had been there for quite a while. Given how close they always were, I hope this means she was with him through it all.

I started 2017 with three cats. On 18 April, we lost Jimi. And today, 21 July, we lost Roo. Since we moved to these apartments, we've lost two cats. I'm trying not to see a pattern. I'm also trying not to see that I lost Jimi a week before I started at GSU and Roo a few days short of my 3 month anniversary there. I'm trying to tell myself it's bad luck piling on top of bad luck. Correlation, not causation.

But I cannot take much more of this. We only have Boo left. I'm thanking every deity I can think of that she's always been healthy as a horse, but then, until the flea anemia, so was Roo. I can't take any more of this. I just can't.
apollymi: Stitch looking shocked and dismayed, text reads "Oh noes!" (L&S**Stitch: Oh Noes!)
I swear, I am actually getting sleep (somewhat) on these days when I'm not at work. Okay, I got sleep yesterday, but not so much today, since I drove [personal profile] katsuko into work. And since I can't quite seem to get drifted off tonight, I don't think I'll have a lot before going into work on Monday. Oh well, lots of caffeine will have to do the trick. I think I can handle that.

I'll have to handle it.

It was a fairly decent writing day, for all that I spent it bouncing between Panera Bread restaurants, drinking way too much hot tea and trying to stay awake. Granted, I didn't get as much writing done today as I should have. I didn't get enough done to make up for the couple of bad days I had Friday and yesterday. I never wrote less than a thousand words so far this month, but I've written less than my minimum of 1,613 (for 50k) and 2,097 (for 65k). I'll have at least managed that much tonight. I just won't have rebuilt my surplus that I had had going before.

I seem to have a bad case of snap, crackle, pop going with my shoulders and back. I had been going to take my laptop with me tomorrow to work, but I think I'm just going to stick to my regular purse and iPad instead. See if I can't cut down on my shoulder pain where I can.

And now, I haven't finished tonight's episode of Game of Thrones yet. No spoilers, please.
apollymi: Typewriter and paper, text reads "Fanfic writer" (My Writing: Fanfic Writer)
Today is my cousin Lee's birthday. If I'm mathing correctly, he will be 27 years old today. God, this makes me feel old. I remember him being a wee toddling thing. Now he's married with a four-legged puppy child. It just doesn't seem right.

I had a pretty decent writing day today. I'm coming along well enough toward both the 50,000 word goal I've had as my minimum and towards the 65,000 word goal that is my unofficial one as well. I doubt I'm going to go much over that unofficial goal, but we'll see. Who knows what the weekend will bring.

I do know that tomorrow we'll be paying the Verizon bill again, paying the renter's insurance again, and so forth. I do know that Saturday, [personal profile] katsuko and I have tentative plans to go down to the Tanger Outlets in Locust Grove and see about finding at least one new pair of jeans each, possibly at the Levi's outlet store. I think we might try to go see Spider-Man: Homecoming while we're out that day. I don't know yet, though. I think that's all of our weekend plans, though.

Aside from more writing, of course.

And that's about it for me for tonight. I guess I really don't have a lot to say for myself for today. It's been a long one, not to mention a long week, and I'm going to be glad for tomorrow to be over. Hopefully testers will be in better humors next week.

So, yeah, that's it. Later, all.
apollymi: Lina, falm palming, giant sweat drop, no text (Slay**Lina: Fuckwittery (Facepalm))
Today wasn't a great writing day. I tried to make words happen, but they were just stubborn. That or I just kept getting distracted. It could really go either way.

But I tried. I did meet the minimum word count I need to finish with 50,000 words for the month. I just didn't quite reach the number of words I need to reach 65,000 in the month. It's a sad but important distinction.

There was a lot of discussion today about setting up a martini bar at work. It's been that kind of week. Seriously. It's very much been that kind of week. Between attitudes and married men flirting hard and people coming in late (and thus making us have to stay late), it's been such a damn week.

I'm trying to help [personal profile] katsuko get her resume up to snuff, so that she can start applying around again. IKEA is doing a reshuffle, and it's going to end up negatively affecting her. It may just end up meaning that she's shuffled into a section of the store she doesn't like, but it might also mean that she either loses hours or takes a pay decrease. There's no telling until it actually starts happening in the next few weeks.

And yeah, I'm tired and I've had a few glasses of wine. I'm not drunk. I'm barely even tipsy. But I'm tired. I'm hoping that if I go lay down now, while feeling a little bit more relaxed, I might actually be able to get some sleep. I managed 3 and a half hours last night, and I need more than that for tomorrow, if the work week trend continues.

So I'm going to go collapse on my bed and see if something sleep like can occur. Later, all.
apollymi: Vachon leaning close over Nick's shoulder, no text (FK**Nick/Vachon: Heartbreakers)
I take back everything I said about work yesterday. Today was hell. Almost everyone came in today with an attitude. The ones that didn't come in with an attitude wanted to flirt poorly. I didn't think my outfit was that on point, but clearly I was mistaken.

I did manage to have a pretty good writing day today. It's not quite as good as I actually wanted, but it was still decent enough. I'm coming along nicely towards my goal.

If I keep up at the same pace I'm at, I'll manage the 50k well enough. That's not my ultimate goal, though. I'm aiming for at least 65,000 words. Yes, I'm aiming for 15,000 words more than what I actually need for the month. We'll see if I end up actually managing to make it.

I worked pretty much across the board today: I wrote on [community profile] 15kinks main verse and Worst Case Scenario Femmes, and I did some vague planning on Worst Case Scenario Femme Goody. I also read over parts of Resurrectionist to try to get an idea of where I want to go with it. (Other than that it will have to include an author's note saying:
"This story was originally meant to be a get together fic for Goodnight and Billy that someone we know requested. They acted like a dickweed, though, so we decide against that. The story was continued out of rage and spite, and the pairings changed. Oh my, how the pairings changed."

And yeah, that's pretty much it for me for today. Later.
apollymi: Chris and Vin with a heart, no text (Mag7**Chris/Vin: ❤)
I keep drifting off where I'm sitting, which is actually a little embarrassing, I guess. At least it wasn't happening at Panera Bread this time, though. There is a that, at least.

I could have stood for a nap today before taking [personal profile] katsuko to Mirko, but that didn't end up happening. We finally watched Batman v. Superman: Dawn of Justice for the first time today. I think we were both rather underwhelmed. Wonder Woman was good in it, but I think we otherwise spent most of the movie shit talking the screen. Bat-ffleck was good. I guess. Jeremy Irons' Alfred was good. Again, I guess.

Honestly, most everything I have to say for the film is sort of "I guess". I couldn't find anything to feel strongly about one way or another within the movie... which actually has a lot to say about my feelings on Wonder Woman as well. Neither movie was bad, so to say, but I won't go as far as to say that either of them were good either.

I'm going to have to cut myself off with less than 2000 words today. [personal profile] katsuko has a 6:00 shift at IKEA tomorrow, so we have a very early morning ahead of us. Honestly, if I was smart, I would have already been in bed by now. Of course, we also had Mirko today, so we got home late, which throws everything off as far as sleep goes.

And wow, I spend most of my time on here talking about sleep, don't I? That's actually probably pretty damn sad.

So I'm going to cut this off here, throw myself at my bed, and then go write at the Peachtree Center Mall while I eat breakfast in the morning. Later, y'all.
apollymi: Duo and Heero back to back, text reads "Together" (GW**Duo/Heero: Together)
So. Damn. Sleepy.

I didn't have work today, but I still got up with [personal profile] katsuko to make sure she got off okay and arrived at work all right. And then I went back to bed and slept. I feel like I slept so much... but I also felt like I could have slept a few more hours and not been hurt by it.

Or I need words to cooperate earlier in the day so I can go to bed when I first start drifting off in the evening. I think in general, I need that to start happening, so that I'm getting more sleep during the week too. I'm already writing most of the train ride in, on my entire lunch break, and any quiet moments on the desk. I'm not sure how much more I can sneak into the work day. I guess I'll need to try and come up with something.

I'm just about to the point of telling [personal profile] katsuko to prompt me on these Worst Case Scenario stories. The initial few stories carried me through most of June and the first few days of July, but they're being difficult now. (I think I just wrote the world's vaguest cunnilingus. OMG.) I think I want to get through the sweet bit where I'm at and then go back to being mean to various versions of the characters, but the problem is that I'm not sure what kind of mean I want to be and to which version of the characters. I mean, we have eight different versions of this damn story, after all: main verse, modern au, femme Faraday modern, femme Goody modern, the femmes, worst case scenario femmes, worst case scenario bi!Goody, and BDSM verse. I think that's eight versions. I'm sleepy, and I can't count right now.

I'm seriously so tired that my brain feels like it keeps going offline and restarting every so often. I keep losing my train of thought and trailing off in the middle of sentences. I need sleep. Once I hit my 2000 words for the day, I'll go do just that. I'm probably going to have a lot of things to fix tomorrow, but I'll deal with that tomorrow.
apollymi: Loose jumble of books, text reads "The keyboard makes me their god" (My Writing: Keyboard makes me their god!)
Damn but today was a long ass day. I'm really, really glad it's over.

I'm not as happy with not getting quite as many words done as I wanted. I did manage to break two thousand written yesterday, but I don't think it's going to happen today. I'm just too tired, and my eyes just keep drifting shut for a few minutes at the time. I think they're staying closed for longer and longer each time, and it's not going to be long before I'm literally passed out on the couch with the laptop open in front of me.

It's been a while since that happened, however, so I'm kind of hoping to avoid it today. If at all possible anyway.

One more day at work this week... and then the weekend. I'm looking forward to getting to sleep in some on Saturday and Sunday. I do enjoy getting my days over with, opening the center this week, but when my brain isn't shutting off until late at night, I'm not getting enough sleep. (Obviously. See the fact that I'm talking about passing out at my laptop keyboard.)

I think, after Camp is over, I'm going to try to start setting myself a bedtime of perhaps 11 p.m. I mean, as opposed to midnight or one a.m., at least? Compared to those times, 11 at night is fairly reasonable. Especially when we have early mornings going. The downside is, of course, how it cuts into writing time so much, but if we try to buckle down harder and write more throughout the day, maybe it won't be as much of burden in the evening for writing lots and lots of words.

But then this is, more or less, me thinking "out loud". Who knows if I'll end up managing to do it? I know I used to go to bed fairly early back in Tallahassee, but that was back when [personal profile] katsuko and I had nearly identical schedules. That meant that we both got off at about the same time, so we could start writing the minute we got home, instead of one or the other of us having to sit around and wait on the other. (We also had the same days off, but I'm slowly starting to accept that that won't be happening again unless we get her a new job.)

And yeah, that's about all I've got to say for myself for today. Later, all.
apollymi: Heero staring forward, Duo staring off to side, no text (GW**Duo/Heero: Starry Night)
I am so not awake. The only reason my eyes are still open is because the fireworks are still going off around here. I'm not sure, actually, when they'll be done. Soon I hope. I've got an early day to tomorrow, and I could really use some damn sleep.

Not that I think I'll get it. I lack [profile] katusko's ability to drop off to sleep at a moment's notice once I'm in bed. On the couch? Yeah, sure, I can nod off like nobody's business. Actually in my bed, though? It's my herbal stuff to help me sleep, two fans on (because there's no overhead fan), the air purifier going, an ambient sound tract going, and as little light as possible coming in. That's a good night. Tonight will not be a good night, not with all the fireworks.

I'm going to do my best to get some actual rest, but I am not overly hopeful. Basically, everything is still noisy as hell and I'm not sure I'll be able to pass out right away either way.

Either way, I'm going to give it a try. Good luck, all. Sleep well.
apollymi: Captain America and Bucky staring at each other, no text (Aveng**Steve/Bucky: Watching)
I'm trying to get my words for the day, and it's just not cooperating. Maybe because I'm working on conversation today, instead of porn? I don't know. I don't like it.

I'm still ahead for the month and well ahead overall for the year, but today isn't going to be a great day for words. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better.

That said, I have tomorrow off work, because it's a federal holiday in the US. I'm hoping to get caught up on some sleep and then caught up on some writing. After [personal profile] katsuko gets off work and home, maybe we'll go do a write-in somewhere, like Qdoba or Panera Bread, if either of them are open. If not, then I don't know. I just don't anticipate Roo letting us get a lot of work done. Or letting me get a lot of work done, since [personal profile] katsuko is not the mommy he likes to torment.

And yeah, that's about all I've got to say for myself for today. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better writing day, and I'll manage to get caught back up to where I want to be.
apollymi: Loose jumble of books, text reads "The keyboard makes me their god" (My Writing: Keyboard makes me their god!)
I have a certain biting/nibbling feline son trying very desperately to help me write this journal entry, so it's probably going to be very short. Getting your fingers bitten when you're trying to type does tend to make that activity very difficult.

And to make matters worse, I think he thinks that this is a fun play game we're doing. He takes a bite out of my finger, I put him back on the floor, he gets right back up and does it again, I put him right back down on the floor, and repeat ad nauseum. Because in a battle of stubborn, Roo and I are evenly matched.

No, actually, I'm lying there to try to protect my own dignity. Roo usually wins these battles of wills. He's a lot more stubborn than I am, sadly enough.

I've spent most of the day cramping like a son of a bitch and editing stories for [personal profile] katsuko in Worst Case Scenario. Because that's a thing.

And yeah, I think that's about all he's going to let me do. I think I'm going to take the laptop back the hall and try to make words happen that way.

(I keep thinking that maybe he would let me get words done on the desktop, but... I seriously doubt it.)

Something

Thursday, 29 June 2017 10:27 pm
apollymi: Hicks, text reads "My hero" (Aliens**Hicks: My hero)
I have a whole lot of nothing to say for myself for today. I went to work. I made it through the day. I didn't kill anyone.

I wrote. I wrote a lot, actually, though not as much as [personal profile] katsuko managed. She broke 6,000 words today. I just managed half that: a little over 3,000. To be fair, I wrote both original versions of that scene she's rewriting for yet another version of Worst Case Scenario, but still...

But yeah, whole lot of nothing otherwise.

Progress

Saturday, 24 June 2017 11:00 pm
apollymi: White background with a black flashing cursor, text reads "It mocks me", animated (My Writing: Cursor mocks me)
I've actually made some writing progress today. I'm not sure how much of it I'm actually proud of, but I've made words happen. I'm choosing to be proud of this. I'm also choosing to be proud of the plotting and planning [personal profile] katsuko and I have done in this dark version of one of the verses we've got going. (In fact, we call the dark verse "Worst Case Scenario" for a reason.)

I can't say I've done much today, but I've managed to get a goodly number of words done. [personal profile] katsuko and I also went to see Wonder Woman. I feel like we spent a lot of time making D&D references (Wondie is so the tank in this situation) and a near equal amount of time comparing it to Captain America: The First Avenger. But it was really, really good. We both enjoyed it. [personal profile] katsuko only ended up crying once, so that's a step in the right.

And now I think I'm going to work a bit more on [community profile] 15kinks... and maybe a bit on 15k:WCS. Because apparently we're fucking sadistic. This is a verse that will never be shared. It's purely for [personal profile] katsuko and me. It's that level of dark and wrong.
apollymi: Stitch looking shocked and dismayed, text reads "Oh noes!" (L&S**Stitch: Oh Noes!)
It's only Wednesday, and I'm already starting the 'ready for the weekend' song and dance routine. But it's true. I am ready for the weekend.

I'm hoping to get by the eye doctor this weekend, me and [personal profile] katsuko both. I need new contact lenses like months ago, and she's sadly in need of new glasses. If we can at least get prescriptions for them both, then we can start shopping around for good prices on them.

I'm still working on [community profile] 15kinks. I finished the "Fisting" prompt, and now I'm working on both "Spanking" and "Role Playing" at the same time. Because I'm crazy, apparently. [personal profile] katsuko is trying to make her way through the rest of the stuff at Rose Creek, so that we can start getting to the juicier bits, where they're starting a relationship, not just... you know... fucking.

And I guess I'm going to apply myself towards these two prompts.

Goodnight, all.

Fluid

Wednesday, 14 June 2017 11:22 pm
apollymi: Bakura and Kaiba, close up on eyes, text reads "Your eyes" (YGO**Bakura/Kaiba: Your eyes)
I’m trying out making this entry with Fluid, one of those apps that turns webpages into apps. It’s just a thing I’m trying, since my browser keeps freezing up on me. Which is a pain, because it’s started right when [personal profile] katsuko and I started transitioning all of our [community profile] 15kinks stories to Google Docs to be worked on, so that we can both work on them whenever. It never fails.

But I think all of the Canon Era part of the story is now up. I’m still working on getting the various AUs posted and formatted. I do need to fix the formatting on some of the earlier stories to match with the later stories, but that’s something I’ll fuck about with tomorrow.

Tonight, I need to focus on getting a thousand words for #365k/365Day. According to my Excel spreadsheet, I have 259,874 words already this year, meaning that I’m already 71.2% of the way to my goal of 365,000 words in 2017. Having a few WriMos in there helped a lot towards that high total thus far. But even last month, which wasn’t a WriMo, I managed to get 65k done.

And a large part of that has been [community profile] 15kinks in the last month or so. I still don’t quite feel like we’re far enough along to start posting it. I think we’re hoping to be pretty close to done before we start posting. I mean, that’s what I’m taking away since we’ve been saying over and over that we’ve learned our lessons from Wicked Ones and After Midnight and so forth.

But be that as it may, we might have one reader for this: Mist Marauder. And there’s been the one lonesome person on Tumblr who PMed us to talk about loving GoodDay. Otherwise, we seem to be sailing this boat solo. Which is pretty familiar to me, from my Yu-Gi-Oh days.

Anyway, I need to get a thousand words today, even if I am literally months ahead at this point. I’m only somewhere in the 400s, so I need to get to work. Wish me luck!

Later, all.

Things

Sunday, 11 June 2017 11:09 pm
apollymi: Blank background, text rewads "All ship wars should be resolved by threesome fic" (Text: More threesomes!)
I'm not sure how much, if anything, I have to say. I'm still working on that same damn scene. It just continues to defy me. I've tried working on the modern au instead of it for a while, but I only managed 130 something words before I had to go back to the previous story because it just wouldn't turn me loose.

I feel like I'm worrying too much over this one part. I'm sure it will turn out all right. [personal profile] katsuko keeps making little 'hot damn' comments and turning various shades of red and pink while reading it, so it's probably not as dry as it feels to me.

If I ever manage to finish the damn thing, I'll have to go back and reread it and see if it is a dry read. Obviously, right now it feels a bit that way to me.

Things I've researched today: Pitbull mixes that can get over 100 pounds, etymology of words and phrases (is this culturally appropriate for the time period I'm writing in? do I care?), a dildo big enough to earn the nickname "Big Blue" and be considered big hardware (and now I feel like I've seen things that cannot be unseen), Amazon web music player, the music video for Billie Myers' "Tell Me", and a few dozen other completely unrelated things.

And yeah, that's about it. I didn't write as much as I wanted to, but I'm running out of Sunday. Monday will be here in a very shortly, and I need to be prepared to face it with something approaching dignity and grace. Or awakeness. Take your pick.

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