So. Tired.

Tuesday, 19 September 2017 10:05 pm
apollymi: Grover sitting on a cow, text reads "I'm on a cow" (SS**Grover: I'm on a cow)
Seriously, I'm so tired, but I seem to lack the ability to pass out, even for a quick nap, right now. I got to the work area in time to have some breakfast this morning, which was good... but it was a Tuesday at work, which means that every asshole and idiot was out in force. What is it with these people and testing on Tuesdays? I wish to all the gods I knew. But it's a definite trend we have all seen going for the last few weeks.

It definitely made last week good, because there was no Tuesday crowd to deal with. That might have been the one upshot of the bad weather, other than the school being closed.

But that's neither here nor there. I got to work. I made it through the long, long work day. I left work and took the MARTA to IKEA... where I waited on [personal profile] katsuko to get off work. And honestly the two hours and forty-five minutes I was there felt just about as long as my entire work day did. I found myself a quiet corner there... that kept getting invaded by loud people. So that wasn't a lot of fun.

Made it home, and I thought I would nap while [personal profile] katsuko finished up dinner. But Boo wasn't digging that too much, so it didn't really happen. She wanted pettings and to purr, so of course that's what ended up happening instead of a nap.

But I think I'm going to try throwing myself at my bed and seeing if she'll let me sleep this time now. Wish me luck!

Quick post

Wednesday, 13 September 2017 11:30 pm
apollymi: Ginji in taro/chibi mode with teary eyes (GB**Ginji: *wibble eyes*)
Yeah, I'm not sure I really actually have a lot to say today. I'm freaking exhausted. My foot hurts, my ankle hurts, my back hurts, and my shoulder hurts.

You see, I went into work this morning like normal. When I got to the right floor of my building, the lobby door was closed. It turned out that Prometric itself was closed, but Georgia State was open. So at first I thought, well, this will be a nice quiet day. That's what I get for thinking, though, because we ended up cleaning the waiting room, office, and testing room from top to bottom. Yes, literally from top to bottom: I dusted the ceiling vents and walls, and Glynda vacuumed. We ended the day with a two hour meeting, which wasn't quite as painful as it could have been.

But all that up and down took its toll on me, and now I hurt. If it wasn't so late at night and if [personal profile] katsuko didn't have a 6:00 a.m. shift tomorrow, I would take a Flexaril, but I completely forgot I had them until now. Whoops.

Anyway, that's it for me. I'm going to finish up this little bit of writing I have going, and then I'm off to bed. Later, all.

Quick update

Tuesday, 12 September 2017 11:52 pm
apollymi: Animated, Roy sparks the lighter, no text (FMA**Roy: Set the world aflame)
This is just a quick update. I'm back to work tomorrow. I'll be there tomorrow and Thursday, but then Friday I have two doctor's appointments. Well, technically three, but I think that the two gynecologist appointments may or may not count as one. I think I might count them as one, at least for now.

I worked on Resurrectionist a bit today, which was good. I'm getting closer to having "After First Love" done, as well as "New Orleans", "Setting the Stage", and "Bite". I actually thought that I had "New Orleans" done, but I'm having to add little bits here and there. I made a small change in one of the Shelter stories and loved it, so I'm incorporating it into a few of the other stories as well. It doesn't work for Monstrous: After Midnight or Wicked Ones, but it does for Shelter, Resurrectionist, and Uncollared... and nothing in Trinity contradicts it, so it can be a quiet bit of canon for me there too.

All that said, I might try to work on an AU I have in mind for the Monstrous universe some tomorrow. I mean, it's straight up crack, but come on: that verse needs some straight up crack. It features an Old God, a Fae, an Antichrist, and an angel of death. It needs some crack. And given that I can't share this AU until after I finish Monstrous: After Midnight and Monstrous: Dark Nights doesn't really bother me all that much.

After all, I've got pretty much all of Shelter and Uncollared that I'm not sure I have any intention of ever sharing. I guess that all depends on the reception that Resurrectionist gets.

Speaking of Resurrectionist, [personal profile] katsuko and I are planning on posting for the Mag7 week challenge at the end of the month. We'll be hitting the following days:
*Day 2 - September 24: Self-Sufficiency: Monstrous: After Midnight - Sam Side-Story
*Day 3 - September 25: Alternate Universe: Resurrectionist - Outbreak Pt 1
*Day 5 - September 27: Supernatural: Monstrous: After Midnight
*Day 6 - September 28: Aftermath: Monstrous: After Midnight
*Day 8 - September 30: Friends and Family: Wicked Ones

Yes, I know we're missing Days 1, 4, and 7 (Fall or Proposal, Celebration or Outside POV, and Downtime or Memories, respectively), but I'm afraid we're striking out on them. Or I am. [personal profile] katsuko might have some ideas that she hasn't shared.

But also yes, there will be three new parts of Monstrous: After Midnight coming out that week. That ought to make some people's days.

And now, it's time for me to go to bed. 5:30 comes awfully early. Good night, all!

Irma, Pt 3

Monday, 11 September 2017 08:41 pm
apollymi: Jensen playing with the homemade monsters,  text reads "I am sane-ish" (Losers**Jensen: Sane-ish)
So, bear with me here: I'm typing this out on my phone. Our power is completely out. It's been out since around 3:30 or 4:00 this afternoon. At this point, I'm not hopeful that it will be back on before tomorrow sometime.

We had warm Spaghetti-Os before the power went off and cold baked beans after we lost it.

Luci has been incredibly clingy, even for her, since the power went out, right next to one or both of us, especially when the wind picks up again. Given that that keeps happening pretty frequently, it should probably be no surprise that she's been right here as much as she can. Boo has spent the entire day under the bed, so no surprises there.

It amuses me a little that Roswell has lost power, but where Mum lives in Albany only lost water for an hour or so. She got hit with more of the wind and rain than we did, but we're the ones who have been without power. Of course the Atlanta area is woefully underprepared for a tropical storm, so there is a that.

Sadly, this does mean that I didn't get a lot written today. Mostly I did some editing before the power went off, and I'll be counting this entry towards my words for the day.

[personal profile] katsuko had today off IKEA for the weather, but apparently they're expecting people to go in tomorrow. I'm... not happy about this. MARTA is still down, as is Uber, and a lot of roads have debris and standing water on them. I haven't heard how the waterways are looking, but I imagine that the Chattahoochee is up significantly, given the amount of rain we've had so far.

And it's no surprise that Mirko will be open tomorrow and that she is expected to go in or risk losing her job... and I think she wants to quit on her own terms.

And that's about it for me. Later.

Irma, Pt 2

Sunday, 10 September 2017 11:02 pm
apollymi: Eliot, Parker, and Hardison walking, text reads OT3 (OT3: Eliot/Parker/Hardison)
So around noon, I finally got a text that GSU will be closed on Monday. Around 4:00 in the afternoon, I got another text, that GSU will also be closed on Tuesday. Since I have three doctors' appointments on Friday and will not be at work at all, that means -- if nothing else changes -- that I will have a two day work week next week. Monday and Tuesday, the university will be closed for Irma, (if nothing changes) I will work Wednesday and Thursday, and then I will be going to the gynecologist (first for a saline ultrasound and then for an appointment) and my regular general doctor.

I'm keeping in contact with all of my Florida friends and former coworkers, making sure they're all okay. So far, so good, on that front.

I overdrafted the bank account getting supplies in case the power goes out. We bought the literal last bottle of water in the grocery store; we did use the Brita water filter to get some extra water set aside, basically by filling every reusable container we had in the house with filtered water. We've got food that doesn't have to be heated. I've charged up the battery pack for the mobile phones. I've got one flashlight charged up, and the other is on the charger. I did, however, forget to buy D sized batteries for the Maglight flashlight. I have an extra flashlight somewhere in the car, but it's pretty crappy and is only for emergencies.

Things I need to get in case this ever happens again: a new crank flashlight like I used to use for camping, a decent first aid kit, more empty bottles that we can use for water, and I'm sure a few other things that I'm not thinking of right now. I still haven't purchased an Uninterrupted Power Supply for the laptops, but it's on my list of things to eventually get, when money permits. If money ever permits.

If I'd known we were going to have at least one extra day at home, I would have found the money somewhere to get the roach treatment. I would rather do it when one of us will be here, so that we can sweep up the corpses before the kitties get into them.

And the Paxil is starting to kick in, so I'm getting tired, despite all the wind and noise outside. I'm going to try to throw myself at my bed and see if maybe sleep will happened. It's a hope anyway.

So long, my freaky darlings. Stay safe!


Saturday, 9 September 2017 11:26 pm
apollymi: Zack facing away, text reads "So don't judge me by my failures, only by my dreams" (FF7**Zack: Judge me only by my dreams)
This is going to be a really quick post, since I keep drifting off to sleep here on the couch instead of writing, like I should be. In fact, writing all weekend was my original intention, but that just didn't happen.

It didn't happen because so much of m attention has been on Hurricane Irma, trying to track its progress, trying to see where it's going and if it's still going to come near or through Atlanta. Right now, it looks like we're only going to get the outer edges of it, and that will still mean some pretty nasty wind and rain.

Still no news on if Georgia State will be closing for the weather. Almost all the counties around Metro Atlanta are closing their schools, including the universities. But the ones within Metro Atlanta are still waffling on the matter, including GSU. So who knows? I might have work on Monday. I might not. At least [personal profile] katsuko is off at IKEA, though that's because it's a regular day off for her, not for Irma.

And as I keep up with the news coming out of Florida, I have to sigh. At least Florida State has already closed and gone down to essential personnel only. If I was still there, I probably would have already packed up [personal profile] katsuko and the kitties and come to Grandmother's, but at least I would have known my job gives a damn about my life and safety. None of this "we're not closing for a little wind and rain" nonsense. For all my issues with it, I can at least say FSU gave a damn about its staff and students, and there are a lot of days where I honest to all the gods miss it.

But there's nothing to be done for that right now. What I am going to do is take myself to bed.

So long, my freaky darlings. Sleep well.

I'm awake

Friday, 8 September 2017 10:44 pm
apollymi: Stitch holding his head in pain, no text (L&S**Stitch: Headache)
I'm so freaking tired, but I'm working towards getting everything finished up on various things, mainly After Midnight. I finished a Faraday part and a Teddy part today, and now I just need to finish up the Vasquez section I'm working on. Then I can move on to an Emma part. And after that, I think there's just the epilogue, though that might be multiple section long (and just all put together into one really long epilogue).

In addition to the bits I'm working on, [personal profile] katsuko just finished a Red Harvest chapter. She's working on a Sam chapter to come after it. I'm not sure, but we're going to be good to go for Mag7 week at the end of the month.

Now if I can just make fucking Wicked Ones talk to me... But nooooooo... Those boys are fucking stubborn as hell. They would rather do literally anything else in the world besides talk to me... or each other. I'm still going to give it a go this weekend, see if I can make something happen. I'm planning on releasing a chapter for Mag7 week, after all, the last finished chapter I have in reserve.

I'm going to give working on Resurrectionist a go as well. I know I'm going to be working on Shelter and Uncollared, because those are the two that are currently working for me. As for Shelter, I'm getting words done on both the regular verse and the modern femme Faraday verse. Oddly, the Worst Case Scenarios have chilled the fuck out finally, so that's good. If working on them will get me words, though, I might revisit them a bit.

I'm so tired and so out of it, that I keep forgetting what day of the week it is. I think it's Friday. I hope it's Friday. I'm honestly looking forward to my three doctors' appointments next Friday, because maybe they can tell me some of what's been going on with my body and all. Or at least get me one step closer to that goal. I'll take one step closer at this point.

So, yeah, I'm exhausted, so I'm going to go the hell to bed. Good night, all.

Something quick

Thursday, 7 September 2017 10:04 pm
apollymi: Hicks' face, faded icon, text reads "If in doubt, NUKE IT" (Aliens**Hicks: Nuke the site from orbit)
I'm honestly not sure what to say for myself for today. It was a day. I went to work. I didn't kill anyone while I was there. Honestly, the thought only occurred a time or two... and weirdly, not about testers. Sometimes boss lady just plucks my last nerve.

I had to take a Flexaril last night, and it left me all... "drifty" during the day today. So I'm going to avoid that today. It was nice not having to feel all stiff and tense and uncomfortable during the day, but being awake for the day is much, much better.

And I wrote on After Midnight. I'm actually really proud of what I wrote on After Midnight. It's some quality stuff. Creepy, but quality.

And I think that's about all I have to really say for myself. Later, all!


Wednesday, 6 September 2017 10:08 pm
apollymi: Ryou holding Thief King Bakura, text reads "Our Farewell" (YGO**Bakura/Ryou: Our Farewell)
I did the gynecologist visit today. That was... a trial. I think that maybe that's the best word for it: a trial. I got there at 9:30 and waited a bit before I was taken back. Once I showed the nurse my calendar of my periods, she immediately whisked me back for a trans-vaginal ultrasound. This technician was a lot better than the one in Tallahassee, who left me feeling like well churned butter. I got to the room and sat and waited... and waited... and waited... until eventually I got to see the doctor. She was good, if a bit abrupt. I felt like I barely started talking a few times before she was talking over me. I ended up having to have three uterine biopsies done, and I have an appointment for a saline ultrasound set for next Friday morning. So I now have two doctors' appointments on Friday. I'm going to have to take the whole day from my sick leave.

So the biopsies are, in the doctor's words, in part to "rule out cancer or pre-cancerous growths". Points to her for being honest, but I also didn't need the Big C word in my head. I also found out that my first Tallahassee gynecologist didn't do this job right as far as diagnosing whatever's wrong with me. He should have done more investigating, rather than listening to my symptoms and deciding it was endometriosis. Also, apparently D&Cs are not the proper procedure for endometriosis. But then, what do you expect from a doctor more willing to do surgery than proscribe birth control?

Also my uterine walls are unusually thick. That's the rest of why she did the biopsies.

And then I got on the train and went to work and was uncomfortable the rest of the day. I'm still uncomfortable. So sad.

But I've taken a Flexaril, and I'm probably not long to be awake, so I'm gonna cut this entry off here. Good night, all.


Tuesday, 5 September 2017 11:34 pm
apollymi: Duo, Usagi, and Heero with grunge border, text reads "OT3" (OT3: Duo/Usagi/Heero (grunge))
Oh my gods, Luci! The very last thing you need is any kind of coffee -- but you especially don't need espresso! You're hyper enough as it is! Coffee and you would be a horrible combination!

So... I opened for Glynda this morning. I feel sort of punch drunk, because so many early mornings. The only real advantage of it is that the sun isn't up yet, so it's not in my face when I'm walking the last block, where there are no tall buildings to block the sun. So I did work for Glynda, and she was not in at all. It took LaTrease a while, but she managed to get in touch with her. She'll be in tomorrow, which is good, but that's the only thing we've got.

And it's good that she'll be back tomorrow, since tomorrow is... my gynecologist appointment! (Yay!) It's scheduled at 9:30 in the morning (because for some reason LaTrease wants me to try to get morning appointments) until... when it's done? I know they've got me scheduled for an ultrasound and who knows what else. So there's that.

And yeah, that's about it. I think it's time for me to go crash into my bed. Good night, all.
apollymi: Bakura and Kaiba fanart, black & purple background, text reads "We'll make something out of nothing" (YGO**Bakura/Kaiba: Something out of not)
What I would like to know is where the hell my long weekend went? I know Friday, we were fairly productive, going up to the outlet stores. We ate at Chow Baby in Alpharetta. I got the gross stomach Friday night, but [personal profile] katsuko was sick all day Saturday. It cut into our apartment hunting, and yeah, we did come back to Roswell and try to sleep some of it off. Yesterday, we went to see Atomic Blonde, though I think that was about the bulk of what we did, not counting the sheer number of Google reviews I left on places. Because, yeah, I left enough Google reviews yesterday to get my needed word count. So, that was a something.

Today was spent returning the things we bought on Friday. I'm a little sad, because I found a purse I really liked and I had a pair of jeans that fit well, and I had to return them. We also tried to sell some DVDs, which didn't pan out, and some games, which only netted us $4. All in all, not a great day.

To cap off the day, I got a phone call from Glynda, in tears, asking if I could open for her one more day, tomorrow. I'm not sure I got even close to all the story, but I gathered she couldn't get a hold of LaTrease and she had some bruised/cracked ribs and some other kind of injury that meant she was going to be delayed or wouldn't be able to come in at all tomorrow. Since her husband is a son of a bitch, I have some suspicions.

But I'm going to be there at 7:15 to open again, just like I did all last week. I was actually sort of excited to be done with that, but I guess that's what I get for being too excited too early, huh?

very quick

Thursday, 31 August 2017 10:47 pm
apollymi: Jean Grey as the Phoenix, surrounded in flames and smirking, no text (XMen**Phoenix: The bitch is back)
This one is going to be very quick. In part, that's because I don't have a lot to say. But mostly, that's because [personal profile] katsuko had to wake me up to do this journal entry. I have drifted off twice in the time I've gotten been working on it.

I guess my body decided it needed the sleep. I told Coworker Anastasia that I would be going home, taking a nap, eating dinner, and then going back to bed. I guess that ended up being correct after all.

That firmly in mind, I"m going to go try to sleep in my bed. Good night, all.

Long days

Wednesday, 30 August 2017 10:41 pm
apollymi: Kaiba looking determined, text reads "Where angels fear to tread" (YGO**Kaiba: Where angels fear to tread)
I'm so sick of these long days. Leave the house by 5:30 every morning, getting to work by 7:15 every morning, work a 9 hour shift, walking back to the MARTA station, taking the train to Midtown, getting on a bus to Buckhead, and then waiting on [personal profile] katsuko to get off work at the restaurant.

In short, it means, for the last three days, I've left the house at 5:30 a.m. and gotten home no earlier than 10:00 p.m.

It makes for some stupidly long days, and I'm sick and tired of them. Thankfully, tomorrow is a relatively short day: no Mirko shift means that we get to come home right after I get off work at 4:00. I might celebrate by taking a nap.

Yeah, that sounds kinda nice.


Tuesday, 29 August 2017 10:51 pm
apollymi: Usagi in a swimsuit, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Summer)
I've taken my medicine for the night (the Paxil and the Protonix), so I have no idea how much longer I'll manage to stay awake. Probably not too long, because... yeah, the Paxil is known to knock me out flat. I'm actually pretty okay with this, because for the most part, it means that I get to get a good night's rest, even if it is a little drugged. Better than sleeping at work or sleeping in little fits and spurts here and there.

Let's see... We finished up The Defenders tonight. That was a good. I have to say that I enjoyed it a lot. There were some weaker points to the series, but all in all, it was a strong outing for all four of Marvel TV's major anti-heroes. [personal profile] katsuko and I were discussing that Danny is the idealism of the group, Luke is the heart, Jessica is the cynic (and self-preservation), and Matt is the brain. Together, they make a pretty good person.

I made it through another early work day, though to be honest, it was a fucking Tuesday, which seems to be the day the testers bring the attitudes. I wanted to cunt-punt one girl if she didn't rein in her impatience and impertinence. But I didn't. I was good. It was hard, but I was good. But oh, I entertained thoughts of cunt-punting. Yes, I did.

Not too much written today. These early mornings, it seems, are not conducive to me getting shit done, because I feel draggy the rest of the day... which sucks because I have plenty of day to get shit done. But I'm trying. I did do some editing and wrote a little here and there. Not as much as I should have, but more than I expected to.

And with that in mind, I'm going to go through myself at my bed, so that I can get up and do it all over again. Damn it.


Monday, 28 August 2017 10:51 pm
apollymi: Buffy looking displeased, text reads "Not impressed" (BtVS**Buffy: Not impressed)
This is just going to be a quick entry, because it's past bedtime and I really need to already be sleeping. That 7:15 shift every day this week comes so damn early.

So... watched Sunday's episode of Game of Thrones. Holy. Shit. Holy shit. No spoilers, but holy shit. So much shit happened, and the whole game has officially been changed, and I'm actually proud of and liking Theon for once, and Jon is a stupid but honorable son of a bitch, and Cersei is a crazy bitch with no idea the issues she has just made for herself, and Daenerys is a different kind of crazy bitch who loves to make a goddamn entrance like woah, and I want to dick-punch Euron all the way to Pike and back (but I've always wanted to dick-punch Euron, so this is no change), and the Starks make me so damn happy and so damn frustrated, and Jaime might be a character that I'm starting to love again (because I really kind of hate him when he's with Cersei because those two are terrible for and to each other), and Tyrion is a sly son of a bitch who has the best lines and character interactions with everybody (both good and bad), and the last season cannot come soon enough.

And that might have been a ridiculously run-on sentence, but I don't even care. These are my spoiler-free feels. I have a lot more feels that are not spoiler-free, but I'm holding on to them. I will not be the person handing out spoilers.

I'm trying to decide how I feel about this opening shift thing. Glynda is on vacation all week, so I have to open instead. Which means getting there by 7:15. Which means leaving the house no later than 6:15. Which is way too damn early for every single day in a week. But it's okay. I'll deal. I'm just not happy about it.

Sadly, I only got a bit of writing done. Not as much as I wanted, but it's almost enough to make me happy. I think I'll end up being behind for the month of August, but I've already gotten my minimum for the year, and that's a good thing, I'm thinking.

And clearly this whole entry is going to be a mess of run-on sentences and nonsense, so I'm going to call a halt on it right now.

So long, my freaky darlings, and good night.


Friday, 25 August 2017 11:07 pm
apollymi: Usagi looking determined, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Determination)
I took my pill not that long ago, so I don't think I'll be awake to do much with this entry. We'll see if I manage to make any kind of sense. I'm not exactly counting on it, obviously.

It's been a very, very long day. I had GSU, followed by hanging around waiting for [personal profile] katsuko to get done at Mirko. Granted, it was a bit more in depth than I'm making it sound,, but still... It has been a long very long, far long than the simple explanation give or makes it sound.

I did manage to write a couple hundred words on Wicked Ones, which is something I haven't managed in a bit. I'm hoping for more tomorrow, but I'm not exactly holding my breath here. But I am going to try. Compared to the somewhat more light-hearted stuff I've been writing, Wicked Ones is almost unbearably dark.

And getting these words out in a sensible manner is taking way too long, so I think I'm going to head towards my bed and collapse hard. Sleep sounds lovely, and it's calling my name.

And that's about it. Later, all.


Thursday, 24 August 2017 10:57 pm
apollymi: Black cat sitting on pumpkins, no text (Proud mom of a black cat) (Kitten: Black cat)
So I heard back from my temporary doctor: I'm to take the Paxil at night, since it apparently makes me hella sleepy. I took it about an hour ago, so I'm waiting to see when it kicks in. If this suddenly descends into gibberish, you'll know it kicked in. We'll see.

I do keep drifting off. That's probably a sign that they're kicking in, yeah? Or it's just a sign that it's been too long of a day, and I'm ready to be done with it? I guess that one could go either way, huh?

I've done fuck all for writing today. Mostly, I've just been too tired for much of anything. That's... actually pretty typical for me starting a new pill. Plus the work day was kinda crazy, between 15 MCATs and one STEP 2 tester. The STEP was the issue, because she came wandering in late and then tried to catch an attitude. Glynda shut that down pretty hard, though. In turn that meant that I had to be "good cop", but alas, c'est la vie.

I don't think that I'm going to hit my goal of 1000 words today. I'm just too tired right now for that. I've edited a few hundred words in, but that's not going to be nearly enough. I'm not exactly upset by this. I probably should be, but I'm not. Good thing?

I did manage to win a $25 Amazon gift card recently. Everyone keeps telling me to spend it on something just for me, but I'm debating on using it to get a baby gate to go up in the house, so that Boo has some guaranteed privacy. The trick is going to be finding one that fits the wide hallway entrance. It's over 40 inches wide, approaching 50, so most traditional baby gates aren't going to work.

And yeah that's all I'v got for today. Later, all.
apollymi: Hicks holding Ripley as Ripley holds Newt, text reads "Family" (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley+Newt: Family)
So the doctor's appointment went fairly well. I'm pretty pleased with how it went.

I saw a temporary doctor today because my regular PCP is still on maternity leave. I kind of adore my temporary doctor, but she assures me that I will like the regular one once I get to meet her. Everyone at the office was super impressed with my record keeping and the fact I brought them in copies of some of my medical records. They all said it was a big help and gave them a good place to start, even if the records are four years out of date (because I haven't been to a doctor for more than a prescription top off or urgent care visit since then).

It did help that one of the records I found way a yearly summary, including medications I was taking at the time and what lab tests I had had done recently. Mostly those were checking and rechecking my A1C, my C-Reactive Protein, iron levels, and my thyroid levels. She expressed some concerns over the number of times they checked and rechecked my C-Reactive Proteins and thyroid levels. It seemed odd, she said, that they never managed to pin down the cause of my joint pain and just stopped at fibromyalgia without ever sending me to a rheumatologist. So she's not beating around the bush: she's sending me to one to try to pin down the problems with my joints.

Fibromyalgia is a diagnosis you only come to when you've exhausted all other possible diagnoses, apparently, and she was a little unhappy that they hung that diagnosis on me without those last few steps. If that makes sense.

So I'm back on some of my old medication: Albuterol (asthma), Maxalt (migraines), and Pantoprazole (gastroenteritis). I'm on a new antidepressant, Paxil. She's starting me on 10mg and will be building me up to 20mg in about a month. It's a chance to see if it's something that works better for me than some of the other things I've used over the years (Effexor, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Zyprexa, and Elavil), since it might also help with my anxiety.

I'm just ready to start feeling more like who I used to be again. I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.

I have to go back in three weeks, which is going to be fun, let me tell you, trying to get more time off work. I'll figure something out. I always do. (I always have to.)

Anyway, sleep now. It's an early, long day tomorrow, between [personal profile] katsuko's 6:00 IKEA shift, my 8:30 GSU shift, and [personal profile] katsuko's 5:00 Mirko shift. If nothing else, this visit has resulted in an admonition to try to take things easier... as well as a note to let me wear trainers to work, so that my plantar fasciitis has a chance to start trying to heal some.

And yeah, that's it. Later, all.

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Monday, 21 August 2017 10:50 pm
apollymi: Trunks staring off in the middle distance, no text (DBZ**Trunks: Sentinel)
I'm trying to be better about sharing pictures of the girls on my Instagram. It's a sort of ongoing thing. I'm not so sure how great it's going to end up working, but it's encouraging me to play around more with my photography. I think that's a good thing.

Tomorrow is my doctor's appointment. I'm seriously looking forward to the thing. I know I need to leave my house tomorrow morning at 6:00 a.m. to drop [personal profile] katsuko off at IKEA and then still get to work on time, having the car with me. I'll leave work at 1:15, which should give me just enough time to get there ahead of time and fill out all my requisite paperwork ahead of my 2:45 appointment. I've got my list of things I want to discuss with my doctor. The top three are (1) getting back on an antidepressant, (2) figuring out what's going on with my period, and (3) what the fuck is up with my foot and can I get a note to my job saying I can wear supportive tennis shoes (instead of dress shoes) because of the pain.

I've gotten as many of my medical records together as I can easily find. I'm not sure if they'll all be of any use, but I brought them out anyway. I'll try to remember to switch bags tomorrow so that I can carry it with me. I can't eat anything after 10:30, which is going to fucking suck out loud.

Or I'm going to do these things if [personal profile] katsuko lets me do any of the things.

I'm going to go commandeer this task back from her now. Later, all.


Thursday, 17 August 2017 10:53 pm
apollymi: Ninth Doctor, text reads "Oh, look who just graduated from idiot school" (DW**9th Doctor: Idiot school)
Okay, I guess I need to write a little something. I'm not sure what, if anything, I have to say, but words do still need to happen.

Something about Tuesdays and Thursdays brings out the crazies to the testing center. I get the ones who want to argue about each and every little thing (mostly GACE testers, which OMG, they're teachers, why are they always late and rude). I get the ones who are "running late (also, mostly GACE, but sometimes STEP testers). I get the ones who pick their toenails under the desk. I get the ones who heave heavy sighs when I make them take their feet out of the chairs. I get so many rolled eyes that it's freaking ridiculous. I want to tell them that their eyes are gonna roll out at the rate they're going.

Mondays aren't usually too bad. Maybe it's because everyone's having a bad day, and we can all kind of laugh it off with one another as a bad case of the Mondays. Fridays aren't usually too bad, because sometimes we can leave a little early, and usually everyone's just counting down for the weekend, us and the testers alike. And Wednesdays are usually pretty calm. Except yesterday. Yesterday, I met Isla Fisher. That cancelled out any calmness I might have had. I played it cool and didn't say a word about knowing who she was. She was pretty freaking awesome, though, and a much better mum than most of the ones we get in for the (unfortunately named) SCAT test.

Tomorrow is a long day. I have to be at work between 7:30 and 7:45, so that I can leave when the MCAT students are done testing. I'm seriously looking forward to that. I'm ready for an early day. Maybe not the arriving early part of the day, but the leaving early is appealing. But then it's just a trip over to Mirko to get the car then Panera to wait for [personal profile] katsuko to get off from the restaurant. Normally, I would pack up my laptop to take with me for Long Day, but I think I'm just going to stick with the iPad tomorrow.

Saturday, we're going to try to go to the tour at Oakland Cemetery. Saturday's topic is Oakland and the Civil War, which seems topically important right now. I want to find out about parking and all before we go with Mist in September.

Also, the AC is now supposedly fixed. I'm enjoying having airflow without hearing water dripping.

And that's it. It's time to go to bed, since tomorrow is an early day. Later, all!