Pepper

Thursday, 11 May 2017 10:01 pm
apollymi: The Labyrinth goblins staring out of dark background, text reads "The goblins are out to get you" (Labyrinth**Goblins: Out to get you!)
Right now I have enough Dr Pepper in me to fuel a trip to Mars. I didn't want to fall asleep at the keyboard again today like I did yesterday, even though I'm running on even less sleep today than yesterday.

Just one more work day this week, and then I have a couple of days off. [personal profile] desolate03 is back in town, so I know that [personal profile] katsuko and I will be having dinner with her on Saturday, though if my paycheck doesn't get here soon, it's going to be an awfully slim dinner... like Taco Bell or something. Nothing wrong with that, mind you, because Taco Bell is what we tend to eat when we're short on cash anyway, but it seems pretty bad to do that when she's only in town a couple of times a year. Maybe it'll be here by tomorrow. I can hope anyway, because I also need to pay the Verizon bill Saturday as well.

The checks are mailed from Alpharetta, so you would think that would mean they would be arriving here soon. I was actually kind of hoping for it to arrive early, in fact. I guess that was hoping for too much, though.

And yeah, that's about all I've got for today. I call myself trying to make words happen on Wicked Ones, but it's fighting me. I got a lovely long, long review for it, and I feel like I need to update it now after that. I've got Chapter 18 finished, but I want more of 19 completed before I post it.

So, I admit to defeat. I'm gonna go do the sleep thing. G'night, all.

Sick kitty

Monday, 17 April 2017 11:25 pm
apollymi: Draco & Slytherin company, text reads "Real friends help you crucio the witnesses" (HP**Draco: Real friends)
Jimi's still acting like he doesn't feel well. I haven't seen him eat anything since early yesterday, and he's barely drinking water. Mist and Fluffy sent some money so that I can go ahead and take him to the vet as soon as possible. Honestly, if it deposits tomorrow, I'll probably go ahead and take him then. Otherwise, it'll be Wednesday morning first thing.

In other news, I've been so stressed over Jimi and being unable to do anything that I sublimated it into writing... and I've already done 2400 words today, with no signs of stopping yet. I'm just writing, writing, writing.

And yeah. That's it.

Lazy day off

Saturday, 8 April 2017 11:56 pm
apollymi: Stitch doing an handstand and wiggling his butt, no text, animated (L&S**Stitch: Kiss my ass)
Yeah, it was another day off. I wish I could say I was productive today, but I really, really wasn't. [personal profile] katsuko did the laundry, which was a good thing, but for the most part, I did very little. I shuttled us back and forth today, and that was about it.

I did end up taking [personal profile] katsuko to four different places to try to find her some green tea ice cream. It was either that or take her to Nori Nori for the green tea ice cream they serve as part of their buffet. The gas money was actually less expensive, since it's only a couple of dollars, compared to the $22 each we would have been spending at Nori Nori. (Or $32 each, if we had gone at dinner.)

And we found them anyway, so it was all good.

I'm still trying to get caught up with where I need to be for Camp. I'm running about 300 words behind where I need to be. It's not that bad a deficit, when gods know I've had a lot worse, but it's annoying to me. Mostly it's annoying because I know I can get it caught up if I could manage to stay awake and keep my mind on task.

Which so far isn't really happening today. I wrote a little on the zombie fic, and I glanced over the Leverage crossover, and I did a pass over the next chapter of Wicked Ones. But most of my words today have come from responding to comments and the like.

[personal profile] katsuko is going to work at 6:00 in the morning. There will be nothing open that early for me to kill time at, so I'm going to stay at the house in the meanwhile. I'm hoping that'll give me time to get caught up on... something. I need to be working on Wicked Ones, but I remain discouraged there, so writing on it is hard... plus we're bouncing from one emotional depth to the next in that story. It's whiplash. One minute they're being mean as hell, then they're being the sweet brothers we know they can be, and then there's sudden angst, and yeah, writing whiplash.

But that's a whole other story... and not one for today. Today, I still need 559 number of words to get caught up for today and 888 to get caught up to where I need to be for Camp altogether. Let's see how far I can get.

Goodnight, all. Wish me luck.

Called it

Monday, 3 April 2017 07:33 am
apollymi: Hicks training Ripley w/weapons, Ripley looking over shoulder at him, text reads "You started this. Show me everything" (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley: Show me everything)
Yep, I called it: it's fucking early, and I'm no more awake now than I was last night. I might even been less awake, as impossible as that sounds. I keep drifting off here at Panera, while I wait for IKEA to open.

I do have some things to do today, mainly pick up freshly printed copies of my resume and CV ahead of the interview tomorrow. I need to fill out my paperwork to turn into Georgia State for the background and credit checks I might need for another position there. Yes, both of these potentials are at Georgia State. The one that I'm currently in the background and credit checks stage of the game is in the Testing Center as an Administrative Coordinator. That's the one that's closest to a definite thing.

The one I want, though, is the one I'm interviewing for tomorrow. It's in the GSU Libraries, specifically their Special Collections Department. The position description reads like it was lifted directly from my resume. It would be a good fit for me overall, I think.

But I'm certainly not going to be turning down the Testing Center on the off-chance I get the library job, so I'm turning in the background and credit check paperwork for the Testing Center job tomorrow while I am on my way to the interview for the library job. I'm trying to cover all my bases here. Anything to get out of the restaurant as soon as possible. The sooner, the better, in fact. I would love be out of there by May, in fact. The Testing Center would have me out by the 24th, in fact.

Either way, I'm going to need to scrape up some money to buy some dress shirts and light blazers that are appropriate for warm weather again. I did a quick run through Goodwill yesterday to look, but I sort of struck out. There do tend to be a couple issues with shopping at that particular Goodwill: (1) most of the clothes are size six and smaller, and (2) when the clothes are of a size I can wear, they're raggedy. Of course, there are occasionally good finds there, but it takes some hunting. But when your budget is less than $100 and you need at least five articles of clothes (2 short sleeve shirts, 1 blazer, and maybe 1 dress skirt), needs must afford.

I'm also trying to talk myself out of buying this laptop bag/purse for the work thing, along with a new lunch box, because I can't find my FSU ones. Not right now, obviously, because my budget is $20 and that includes work shirts right now. Or, more likely, food. Let's be realistic. It's probably all going to spent on food.

I need to get back on a set eating schedule and so forth. I need to start packing lunches again. None of this really works well when Mirko Pasta is also a factor. Maybe once it's out of the way, I can attempt to start eating better. It's probably premature, but I've already started thinking of what kind of lunches I can pre-prepare and have ready for work meals. Mostly I've been thinking meals I used to make (Hawaiian Chickpea Teriyaki for instance, or Black Bean and Salsa Soup, or Soba Peanut Noodles, or even "Cheater" Pad Thai) which seem to mostly be Happy Herbivore recipes again. Whoops. Not my fault so many of her recipes are both tasty and easy.

And yeah, that's about it. I'm going to try to write like a mad woman today, see if I can get caught up on Camp NaNoWriMo. And I do still need to go pick up my copies of my resume and CV, so that might be my next step.

Either way, later, all.

Sucks

Saturday, 25 March 2017 11:11 pm
apollymi: Hatter talking, text reads "Hell no!", animated (Alice**Hatter: Hell no!)
Today sucked.

I did the catering that Carlos volunteered me for today. So rather than have my day off, I had to go with [personal profile] katsuko to IKEA, so that we could both go get this delivered. Only, once we got there, someone had told the coordinator that we were supposed to do all the setup and so forth. Since we had to wait for the guy to come sign the slip and leave a tip, we did that.

Finally, the dude got there, and when presented with the check, he hands it over to his 16 year old to fill in the tip and sign. She leaves us $80 on nearly $2800 worth of food, with doing twice the world we were told to do. It comes to a 3% tip.

Carlos waived the delivery fee because the guy promised to "take good care of us". $80 is not "taking good care" of us. A 15% or 20% would have been "taking good care" of us. Yes, I will get a commission from this job that will be good, but it won't be until two or three weeks from now. It'll pay next month's rent, not this month's, which was what that tip was supposed to do.

So now I'm pissed. I've already told Carlos I will not be doing any of these for him ever again. My head is throbbing, and I'm pissed. Writing is not going to be occurring tonight, I don't think. I think I'm just going to take the cat off the keyboard, and try to nap away this headache. With a lot of Roo assistance.

Later, all.

Well...

Tuesday, 7 March 2017 11:19 pm
apollymi: Trunks just after landing a punch, no text (DBZ**Trunks: Won't back down)
This is an update on yesterday, mostly.

[personal profile] katsuko managed to get in contact with the office while I was in my interview. And seriously, bless Alton. Bless the man. He said something along the lines of "I have no doubt that you reported at the beginning. We'll update your file. If you can find the receipts for doing the two payments, we're all good. If not, you can do two $300 payments. We'd prefer them with this month's and next month's rent, but we would prefer the rent honestly, so if you can't do it on those months, just let us know."

Of course, that's a summary based completely on what [personal profile] katsuko relayed to me.

We stopped by the office after I picked her up from IKEA to discuss the whole cleaning thing. It's more like a warning, because the Orkin man complained. (WTF?! The Orkin man? Complained? Dude comes once every few weeks and just stirs the bugs up.) Office folks asked about my hand, and Krystal even scolded me for not getting someone to drive me to the Urgent Care. Wasn't a lot to do for that, though, when we don't know our neighbors all that well and no one was in the office on a Sunday.

On the other side of this, the massive panicked cleaning we did last night did results in a lot more living room space suddenly. I'm not faulting that. More living room space is nice. We do still need to vacuum my room, and I'm not entirely certain our little vacuum cleaner is going to hold up to that. It does well enough on the tile floor, but the bedroom is the only carpeted area in the house. Well, we'll see.

The interview today seemed to go really well. In fact, I described it more as a conversation mixed with the occasional interview-type questions. We even discussed stuff like GSU employee discounts with MARTA, books books and more books, the importance of not leading folks on, and the magic word "no", which would be an important part of this job. I'm hopeful, but I'm not holding my breath.

Carlos did call me to ask if I could do a catering delivery for him on the 25th, because he'll be out of town for his birthday. (Mind you, he just got back in town a few hours ago, from his third or fourth trip home to Miami this year.) It's a day off, but it would be a very sizable commission with a possibility of the company it's being delivered to tipping, so... Maybe?

And yeah, I worked more on the Wicked Ones AU that we are currently calling "the wandering boys". It goes AU after the chapter of Wicked Ones: The Early Years that [personal profile] katsuko is going to be posting Friday. This makes the third AU we've at least started based on various parts of Wicked Ones. And yes, this makes me happy.

And that's about it. Later, all.

Busy ass day

Monday, 6 March 2017 11:58 pm
apollymi: Lina, falm palming, giant sweat drop, no text (Slay**Lina: Fuckwittery (Facepalm))
I'm not even sure what to say for today.

I can safely state that my hand hurts worse today than it did yesterday, so obviously the lidocaine wore off quite thoroughly. We've been doing a bit of an emergency spot clean of the house, so it's definitely throbbing now.

[personal profile] katsuko and I could both swear that, when we moved into these apartments back in January 2016, we paid the $600 pet fee, spread between a few months. We got a notice on the door saying "You have pets and they aren't on your lease - fix this now". As well as one saying to clean the damn house, which we did. Oh god, how we've did. I hurt in all new ways than I was already hurting before. I'm actually waiting on the pain to die down a bit so that I can go to bed.

But I can't find any information with that kind of stuff on it, saying we paid or discussed it with her or writing. Looking back over the lease from last year, they put us down as having no pets, even though we provided information saying we do. So, I guess it'll be our word against theirs, and I imagine ours will lose, since it's apparently our verbal discussion versus their written information.

On a happier note, I did get everything up to date on [community profile] eternal_sailorm and DarkMagick.net, at least as far as The Magnificent Seven stories go. I also updated the Mag7 recommendations page too. So... productive, yes?

And I'm really out of things to talk about already. We need to be going to bed, so that we can get up and get interview/work ready in the morning ahead of [personal profile] katsuko's 7:00 a.m. shift, but all the cleaning we've done today means we're not tired. Sore? Yes. Hurting? Oh definitely. Shaky? Sadly so. But tired? Not even a little.

So early

Monday, 27 February 2017 06:36 am
apollymi: Close ups of Arthur and Eames, no text (Incep**Eames/Arthur: Perchance to dream)
Christ, it's early. I got here just as Panera was opening, and I'm going to be here until it's time for me to head over to IKEA again for the day. [personal profile] katsuko had the 6 a.m. shift today, and there just isn't a good way to get her over here without me coming too. So, unless I drive her up here, drive back home, and then drive back up here to pick her up... in time for us to go to Mirko... Unless all of that happens, I just have to find place to hang out for huge chunks of the day.

And of course, we're still trying to baby the car a bit yet, so I don't want to do all that driving on it. I could let her take the car and come back to pick me up after she gets off... but she would be driving right past Mirko to come back to Roswell and get me, so that's not really feasible.

I sometimes wish we could afford a place in Atlantic Station. It would really save us a lot of time and mileage. She could walk or take the shuttle to IKEA. Right now, I would only have to drive about five miles to Mirko. But it's a little bit in vain. We can't afford Atlantic Station right now. We can't afford the nearby Loring Heights or Ansley Park or even Midtown proper. (Definitely not Ansley Park. Definitely not.)

That's not stopping me from looking at the prices of homes in that area. It's wishful thinking, but still...

I've been putting in applications as much as I can over the last few days. It's been a bit of a headache. I'm ready to be working full-time again and be out of the restaurant, but it doesn't seem to be happening quickly. I've been applying for full-time jobs the entire time I've been at the restaurant... and nothing yet.

Still... what can I do but keep on trying? It's getting harder and harder to keep my chin up, but I'm still trying for now. I still keep on keeping on, for now, no matter how hard it is. For instance, this month, I'm not sure if we're going to be able to pay to keep the storage or pay to keep the lights on. I doubt there's going to be money enough to renew the hosting, which means all the sites and their emails are going to go dark for a while.

And ain't that the story of our life right now.

Stupid early

Tuesday, 21 February 2017 06:50 am
apollymi: Sleepy orange kitten, text reads "Not awake not not not not not" (Kitten: Not awake)
I said last night that I had to get up stupid early to take [personal profile] katsuko to IKEA. Hello and welcome to stupid early. This post will be a huge ramble, because it's stupid early. Those two words might well be a theme for this post. I'm really tired, so I'm really babbly.

Cut for politics, US healthcare, and rants on Buckhead )

Cut for talking about writing and Mag 7 )

And finally, without a cut... Tomorrow's my birthday. I'm not even sure that I'm going to be able to go visit the family for it. Money's just too tight. [personal profile] katsuko and I celebrated her birthday too hard earlier in the month. I feel like I would be remiss to not include a link to my Amazon wishlists, though. Ummm, I like fanart and fanfic?

And I've killed most of the time I needed to wait, so I'm gonna close this off now. Later, all.

No updates

Thursday, 16 February 2017 02:46 pm
apollymi: Bakura looking smug, text reads "He belongs to the dark" (YGO**Bakura: He belongs to the dark)
I don't really have anything to add to yesterday right now. I fell asleep on the couch pretty quickly after I finished it, and [personal profile] katsuko had to poke me until I got up and went to bed. I still think that maybe I should have stayed on the couch and damn the neck crick I would have gotten: waking up and getting out of bed this morning was one of the hardest things I've done in a while.

I guess I really do need to see about setting myself up for a doctor's appointment before much longer. I'm always tired, and it's not something I enjoy being. I still feel like, if I could just get back on something like a set schedule, I would be able to sleep better and feel more human, but there is more to it than just that. Yes, the wildly insane schedule doesn't help matters any, especially not the 9:30 or 10:30 nights at the restaurant and still having to eat after that, but I'm also without medication, with no idea what might be the best one for me to be taking. In the past, I've taken Wellbutrin (did good for a while then stopped), Zoloft (did good for a while then stopped), and many, many others, which I would need to go through my journal to find the names of.

My car should be finished by tomorrow morning, so I think the plan is to go pick it up pretty early in the day, return the rental car, go take it to the emissions place, and get it retested. When it passes--and it had damn well better--then I'll see about maybe going ahead and renewing the tag for another year now instead of waiting for closer to my birthday. If I don't do it tomorrow, then I'll do it on Monday. No sense in waiting until Wednesday.

[personal profile] katsuko is working tonight at the restaurant, so maybe she'll get enough to help cover that, since the rental deposit won't go back into the account that quickly.

I sent off a thank you email to the person I interviewed with yesterday, and that was a good thing to do, I'm thinking. I want to keep my name towards the top of the list.

Finally, I've worn my bustier under my shirt all day today and most of yesterday. I'm starting to feel a bit more constricted than I'm usually happy with, but I'm also liking the silhouette in the mirror a bit more too. It's not quite the figure I cut when I moved to Atlanta, but it's a bit closer. I'll get back down to there. Hell, I'll get back down to my goal eventually too.

And now it's time to head to Mirko. Later, all.

Interview two

Wednesday, 15 February 2017 10:25 pm
apollymi: Usagi holding Luna, Artemis, and Diana, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Kitties!)
I had my second interview today. I feel like it went pretty okay. I met with the State Librarian for about fifteen or twenty minutes, and then I did a Microsoft Office skills test. I did all right on most of the exercises, finishing the first six and starting on seven (out of ten) in the hour I was given. I think I fucked up the mail merge document, but that's about it. It's been a long time since I've had to do that one.

On the way back home, I got a call from the mechanic, saying he had found the issue, a connecting rod of some sort; he told me, but I was driving and couldn't write it down. It would be about $500 to replace the rod, with labor and all. It would be a short-term fix, one that might keep the car going another two or three years... or two or three months. Whatever the rod was, it completely unthreaded in the area it was supposed to be in. He's not sure what could have made it do that: time and age or something else entirely. If it's time, then the fix should hold me up a few years. If it's something else, then it's probably going to happen again at some point, possibly soon. But the only other real option, aside from fixing this one rod and all would be to replace the entire motor.

Fixing the rod = $500
Replacing the motor = $1500 to $1800

Yeah, you can just guess which one Mum and Charlie went with.

It wasn't going to be finished today, so I had to renew the rental car for another couple days. Since [personal profile] katsuko works at IKEA in the morning and I don't have anyone to go with and drive one of the cars, I won't be able to pick it up tomorrow if they finish it then. I'll have to go Friday morning when we're both free. But that's okay, because I've already heard that Friday's catering should be canceled. At least I kind of hope it is.

I do have a visit to one of my best petsitting clients, Lord Sammy Sam the Grump Master, tomorrow through the 18th, so there is a that. I enjoy getting to see him. He was my first client. He's been my most frequent flyer. He still hisses at me every damn time, hence the nickname.

We posted the new chapter of Monstrous: After Midnight on AO3, but I haven't gotten it up anywhere else. I think I might try to work on that tomorrow.

And yeah, that's about it. I'm going to try to go make words happen on something, likely either Wicked Ones, Monstrous: After Midnight, or Mag7/Lev. Later, all.

Updating

Wednesday, 8 February 2017 10:27 pm
apollymi: Hatter with a cuppa, text reads "Tea?" (Alice**Hatter: Tea?)
I managed to get the latest chapter of Monstrous: After Midnight up on almost all the usual places pretty much immediately after [personal profile] katsuko posted it today. So that's it up on [community profile] eternal_sailorm and Monstrous. I also transferred the entire Monstrous site from the subdirectory to the main directory of that subdomain. It was bothering me. It's fixed now, so maybe it'll quit bothering me.

I have had a great deal of help with everything today, in the orange stripes of a Roo-shaped helper. Every few minutes he's come to sit on me and "help" with everything I'm trying to do. It's not conducive to getting things done.

I did end up taking the car to get looked at by the mechanic that Claudio recommended, at least for a free diagnostic. It took the better part of an hour for him to look it over, in and amidst all the actually paying customers coming in and out. The verdict is... that he can't give me an actual verdict. It's not the easy fix stuff like spark plugs or loose wires. He would have to take off the engine manifold and get down into it to try to find the issue, and that simply could not be done in an hour or so... or for free. If it's an easy fix, then the repair cost could be between $400 and $500. If it's something more in depth, who knows? He even said it would be best for me not to drive it too much, because it could end up making matters worse. I think the problems with this are pretty self-evident, yeah? Given that there is only one car and two people in the household who need to go places.

It just never fucking ends. Hell, [personal profile] katsuko ranted about it over on her Tumblr. I think she's submitted it to [personal profile] copperbadge's Radio-Free Monday thing. Because honestly, we need all the help we can get. At least Katie isn't asking for her $1100 back just yet, because that would beyond break us.

I need one of these jobs to come through for me. Something. Anything. Please.

So damn tired

Thursday, 2 February 2017 10:55 pm
apollymi: Captain America and Bucky staring at each other, no text (Aveng**Steve/Bucky: Watching)
I'm so damn tired. I've taken a nap this afternoon, and I'm soon to bed this evening. I'm still so tired that I can't even think straight.

All in all, I don't really have much to show for myself for today. We did laundry. We gassed up the car. We ate lunch. We napped. We went to work at Mirko. We finished gassing up the car. We bought a few groceries, mostly for the cats. We went to the bank. We paid rent. We came home. We ate dinner and watched an episode of Leverage.

Added up like that it sounds like a lot of things, but it certainly feels like nothing at all.

At least I'm running pretty well ahead on #365k/365Day. I've gotten over 39,000 words done so far, and a fair chunk of them is The Magnificent Seven... because these boys don't stop talking.

So... stats and status updates... Wicked Ones, I'm coming up on Day 3 in Rose Creek. Overall, including later scenes that haven't been slotted into place yet, I'm at nearly 40,000 words for this alone. Monstrous: After Midnight is still coming along well. I'm waiting to be told where I'm next needed for writing. Trinity is slow going, mostly because the boys keep demanding porn. "Memento Mori" is on a temporary hiatus. And the Leverage crossover thing? It's eating my damn soul. It's the happy 'verse, after all... relatively speaking.

Anyway, yeah, that's about it. Later, all.

Updates

Monday, 30 January 2017 01:15 pm
apollymi: Stitch with a cape and a swimsuit top on his head, text reads "I'm the goddamn Batman" (L&S**Stitch: I am the goddamn Batman)
Yeah, I got nothing. There isn't really anything I can talk about that's any different from things I've said a hundred other times before.

Well, I guess I can say that we got a provisional credit for $60 put into [personal profile] katsuko's account after the ATM ate her money. It's not the full amount, since we think that's about $63, but it's a step. It's a step in the right direction... and in hoping that they don't decide to reverse said provisional credit... or if they do, they wait until after we've paid rent. It's a cynical hope, I guess, but it'll have to do.

The boys continue to be difficult. I did 1200 words yesterday, but every one of them was a struggle. I'm hoping that today goes easier. So far, not so much, but I'm still trying.

I have to go pick up some copies of my resume from the FedEx store in a bit. I want to have them ready in preparation for the interview on Wednesday. I also printed out a letter of recommendation I had from a former manager, so hopefully that'll help.

I even went over a series of interview questions with Mum yesterday, trying to formulate out how to say things best. I'm hoping that it's helped.

And yeah, I'm still struggling with words. I'm going to keep trying, and I guess I'll go focus on that until it's time to go get that resume picked up.

Another long day

Sunday, 29 January 2017 10:21 pm
apollymi: Blank background, text reads "What I really need are minions" (Text: I need minions)
I've been having a series of long days. Today was another in it. Mostly because I'm on the rag, and all I've felt like today has been: (1) a warm kitty laying over my uterus, (2) having a lot of cheap ass and terrible for me cheese, (3) saying a lot of words that I normally find very distasteful, and (4) dropkicking noisy coworker boys across the restaurant. In fact, I think my exact words for what I wanted to do was "cunt punt the noisy ass little fucks across the damn dining room if they don't shut the fuck up". Don't ask me how I'm going to cunt punt them: just know that I fully intended to do so.

However, I've now had my cheese dip--even if [personal profile] katsuko did spring for some fancier cheese dip than I was thinking--and I've watched some Leverage. I'm feeling a bit happier now, so there is less chance of that happening.

We do have to find out what's going on with the Suntrust ATM we usually deposit [personal profile] katsuko's money at. It ate about $63 worth of money and didn't deposit it into her account. Of course, well, that's rent money, so if it doesn't deposit, that's going to be a pretty huge issue. Every penny counts right now, ya know? So we're going into the branch tomorrow morning around catering, to see what exactly they have to say for themselves.

And I managed to get the Mean Faraday to start talking again... only right now he's being a maudlin Faraday. I don't care: he's talking again. Shit's about to go down that will help improve him some.

And Christ, we've been getting the best reviews lately. It's making me feel a whole lot better with this shit, especially Wicked Ones. Mean Faraday appreciates the love. It's got him willing to talk again.
apollymi: Buffy looking displeased, text reads "Not impressed" (BtVS**Buffy: Not impressed)
I'm trying to type up a long journal entry, because I'm not sure that I have coherency for writing in me today. I'm feeling very... not in my body today. Disassociated, I guess? Honestly, it sort of feels like when my blood sugar used to tank: like my brain isn't connected to my body. I'm not sure how to describe it. I'm not sure that I actually have words in my vocabulary for it. I just know it feels like I'm both too deep in my own head and yet also thousands of miles away from it. And it always gets worse when I have my headphones in (but weirdly, only the earbuds, not the over the ear ones... that I can't find).

I'm also not sure that I'll be able to find enough words to go in here. I'm trying, but things just aren't happening in my brain. It's distressing. I'm far enough ahead in #365k/365Day to take a day off or have a short day, but I don't want to. Slacking off leads to me not getting writing done.

Honestly, I think I'm just going to sit down and read until I can get my brain back in one place, instead of a hundred thousand and yet nowhere, like it feels like right now.

I do need to buy a new good pair of folding headphones that I can carry around with me. The earbuds just aren't good for me in a lot of ways, aside from the weird way they play with these... periods for me. They're also incredibly uncomfortable to me. And yes, I have tried several different kinds of earbuds; they're all always uncomfortable. But I can't find my over the ear folding headphones. I guess it's not a huge loss, because they were only $25 or so, so it's not like I can't find a pair of Bose or Beats headphones or something. But it still makes me mad, because they were better for me and all and grrr...

But that's not what I need to get on Amazon next. I need to replace my screen protector and case. The card case is getting a little loose, and I'm worried about my cards falling out. And I've dropped my phone enough lately the screen protector is cracked in no less than four places. Better the screen protector than the screen, I say. I wouldn't bother replacing it yet, since it's not messing with my ability to see the screen too much, but I keep nicking my thumb on one of the cracks and I'm a little sick of that. The case I have in mind is $10, but I can't decide if I want the heavier duty screen protector or the privacy screen one. I lean towards the heavier duty one, since I keep dropping the phone. So it would be about $30 for both. Hopefully I can afford to get them both on Monday, if we have enough towards rent by then.

And I guess I did manage some words after all, huh?
apollymi: Ginji in taro/chibi mode with teary eyes (GB**Ginji: *wibble eyes*)
I... am a glutton for punishment. I just spent nearly an hour looking at rentals in Tallahassee (a lot less per month for a much bigger place) and how much a rental truck would cost me (less than $500). And sadly that's still more than we can handle right now, especially moving without a definite job. Not in the least of which being because the place we're currently requires a full month's rent, $864, as an early termination fee, in addition to forfeiting a security deposit.

I will admit to chancing my hand and putting one single application out to FSU. Honestly, if I don't get this job I'm interviewing for on Wednesday, I might actually start putting some serious thought to trying to get saved up to move back.

And maybe, just maybe, getting myself back on an even keel.

I haven't had any mock interviews before this one coming up on Wednesday. Mum hasn't had the time, and I don't know. I guess everyone else I asked has forgotten or doesn't give a shit. I lean towards the latter.

I'm already going through my closet to find something appropriate to wear. If the weather holds like it currently is, it'll be in the mid-40s to mid-50s on Wednesday. I'm thinking black dress slacks and either the grey patterned dress top I have or the maroon wrap top. I am wearing maroon dress shoes that match the wrap top and are the second most comfortable shoes I own. I do still need to find a bag to carry that is: a muted pattern or (preferably) solid color, big enough to carry a copy of my resume with me, and in good shape. This might necessitate a trip to Goodwill.

The interview is at the Georgia Public Library Service main office. From the staff photos on the website, it looks like the environment is business casual, which is roughly what I expected with any professional library-type situation.

I don't actually have any resume paper with me, but maybe I can afford to go by UPS or FedEx and print it out on their resume paper. I'll just need to turn up a flash drive to do this. I have a few dozen flash drives, so it's just a matter of finding one of them.

So yeah, I've said before and I'll probably say again between now and Wednesday (and probably after as well): I really want this job. I want this to go well. I'm past sick and tired of Mirko Pasta. I'm past ready to be shed of that place. And I'm ready for us to have enough money to live on. Not be rich or anything, but enough to not have to budget food for us versus food for the cats, not to have to struggle to make rent. If I get this job, it would really help with that.

And yeah, I guess I'm done babbling on this. Feel free to chime in if you have any tips or words of wisdom for me. Please?

Somethign

Wednesday, 18 January 2017 08:45 pm
apollymi: Duo, Usagi, and Heero with grunge border, text reads "OT3" (OT3: Duo/Usagi/Heero (grunge))
Today was supposed to be mine and [personal profile] katsuko's shared day off. Not so much this week, though, because IKEA scheduled her to work today. Grr, argh. So, since she helped me with catering yesterday, she doesn't really get a day off this week. This makes me sad.

After a minor heart attack last night, during which it looked like all our money disappeared from our Regions account, we finally have a wee bit of funds again. Granted, these funds were supposed to be for signing up for the new gym. It's going to take $120 to sign us both up: $60 each, for first and last month's membership dues. But now, I'm wondering if I should use that towards the emissions test and maybe starting towards whatever car repairs are needed to get me past the emissions test. I don't know. I feel like we need to do both--the gym and the emissions testing--but only one has a definite timeline for when things need to be done.

So yeah, I guess that sort of solves that problem. Maybe I'll just go buy some batteries and hook up the Wii Fit again. If I can find room in the living room that is.

So I guess I'll be going to do the emissions test on Shinigami tomorrow. Fun times. I hate being a damn grownup sometimes. I'm also dreading finding out what all issues I'm going to find. I don't want to have to call Mum to ask for help, if it turns out that the issues with the car make it fail the test... that I will still have to pay for, pass or fail.

But that's enough ranting for now. I'm going to keep playing with Tumblr Savior for a bit and see if I can't get it to block all political posts. I just can't right now.

Highlights

Tuesday, 17 January 2017 09:15 pm
apollymi: Quentin Collins on a dark green background, one eyebrow raised, no text (DS**Quentin: Oh really? (eyebrows))
I got up and did the catering this morning. That was... fine, I guess. I only got one check deposited. The other turned out to be a duplicate from last week. ~.~ I did have one catering payment that I had to go pick up from Corporate, but it was only for $44.

I went by and cancelled the gym membership at Planet Fitness today. I did end up having to pay $58 to cancel it, but I think it was worth it. Watching him fill out the paperwork, we hadn't been there since September or October, so that was $20 to $30 a month that we could have been spending elsewhere... or at a gym that had hours and locations better suited to us. But that's not a matter for today. That's a matter for tomorrow or whenever my $44 catering check goes into the bank. At that point, I'll sign us up for Lifetime Fitness again.

I'm still struggling with this scene in Wicked Ones. Seriously, I'm just about ready to write it to the romantic cliffhanger and leave it for now. Are romantic cliffhangers even a thing? Well, they are now. After all, [personal profile] katsuko and I spent the day talking about the "puppies" (Joshua/Faraday = the grumpy puppy, Vasquez = the shy puppy, Goodnight = the sad puppy, and Billy = the homicidal puppy). Currently, the grumpy puppy is grumpy because he has indicated some interest to the shy puppy but shy puppy has made no moves on this information. The sad puppy is elsewhere with the homicidal puppy... and the homicidal puppy is thinking that the grumpy and the sad puppies are looking like good places to stick his knives. Because none of these asshole are mature adults.

And both [personal profile] katsuko and I fell asleep on the couch when we needed to be writing. Whoops. I'm almost to where I need to be, and [personal profile] katsuko has written double what she needed for today.

And that's it. Later, all.

Too much help

Monday, 16 January 2017 11:29 pm
apollymi: Kyo and Yuya with Kyo's sword, black background, no text (SDK**Kyo/Yuya: Still of the night)
I'm trying to type this up and type on various things, all with Roo being right fucking here in the middle of everything. In fact, at the moment, he's currently sitting on my right arm in the crook of my elbow. He's still not back to his full weight yet, though he's getting there quickly enough, but he's still heavy enough that my elbow cannot hold him up. I need to figure out a way to figure out his weight. Maybe if I buy up enough batteries to use the Wii remote and board again soon... Yeah, maybe that'll work.

I managed a little bit of writing, mainly because today has just been hella hectic and because I only had the iPad Mini with me today. I do have a keyboard for that one, but it doesn't always work out as well as using an actual keyboard. Some of the keys are in odd places or require I use special keys to utilize, and it throws off my groove.

So, yeah, here's a little dorky thing. I name most of my electronics. Basically, if it's a Mac of some sort, it has a name. So it breaks down like this:
iMac = Wanda
MacBook - Ripley
iPhone - KaiPhone
iPad 2 - Serenity
iPad Mini - Faraday

I think you can kind of tell which one is the newest of that lot. I mean, I bought Faraday used and with some minor damages, but he's been a good little iPad Mini so far. He's not the prettiest or the fastest or anything like that, but I wanted something small, portable, that used iOS, and that I could connect a Bluetooth keyboard to. Faraday won.

Randomly, I hate bank holidays. My money won't be in my account until tomorrow at this rate, and I had had every intention of going to the gym today to buy out my membership. But since my money didn't deposit, I couldn't do that. If it's there tomorrow like it should be, I'll go do that after the catering. I also will be doing the emissions test on the car, since that has to get done before my birthday and doing it nearly a month in advance will give me a chance to see if there are any issues with it that need to be worked on to keep it on the road before I pay to have the tag renewed by my birthday in February.

I just hope there aren't any actual issues that have to be fixed. Otherwise, it's going to be another GoFundMe campaign for the repairs. Or begging Mum for a loan... again. I don't like having to keep on doing that, especially when [personal profile] katsuko's family doesn't kick in any.

But that's an old rant, one that's not likely to change at any point in the foreseeable future. I'm gonna go try to get some actual writing done now. Later, all.