Cupcakes

Saturday, 16 September 2017 11:26 pm
apollymi: Doujinshi art, Roy & Ed, no text (FMA**Roy/Ed: These quiet moments)
I finally got to have my "it's not cancer" dessert. I decided to go with cupcakes. I have a lemon drop one, because I love lemon drop cupcakes from Cami Cakes, and [personal profile] katsuko had a Cookie and Cream one, because what's a celebration if you can't include your best friend and better half? I even posted photos of my "it's not cancer" cupcakes on Instagram, Tumblr, and Facebook, because that's how I roll apparently.

I rebought a purse that I had returned for rent money last month, and I feel vaguely happy about this. I liked the purse quite a bit, but keeping a roof over our head was more important.

And yeah, that's about all I've got for today. I'm shortly to head back the hall for bed, and I think that [personal profile] katsuko is going to sleep out on her bed for the night, since Luci has decided she can't stand a closed bedroom door. (But she and Boo need some space, because otherwise the relationship between them is just going to keep getting worse and worse.)

And that's definitely it. Good night, all.

Not Cancer

Friday, 15 September 2017 11:59 pm
apollymi: Manic look Ninth Doctor, text reads "I solemnly swear I'm up to no good" (DW**9th Doctor: Up to no good)
So I had my two/three doctors' appointments today. And the good news is... it's not cancer.

I started my day with the saline ultrasound, and while I was on the bench, they finally got me my results back from the biopsies last week... with the "not cancer" results. The walls of my uterine cavity are very thick for my age and health: about 1.3" centimeters thick. And the wonky periods now have a likely root cause. And that is a 3 cm long, 0.5 cm thick fibroid in my uterine cavity.

And may I say for the record that the saline ultrasound sucked? Because it did. It really did. But it didn't suck nearly as badly as the biopsies did. Plus the ultrasound tech and Dr. Hathaway and I spent a large portion of the time we we doing all this chatting about Captain America, DragonCon, and the Avengers. That helped a lot towards distracting myself.

My second appointment was basically Dr. Hathaway explain the results of the ultrasound today and the one last week. She did discuss with me the fact that I"m going to have to have outpatient surgery to get the fibroid removed. I gave some thought to asking her to just take the whole damn uterus, because I have no interest in keeping it, but somehow I didn't.

All in all, I liked the staff at that branch of my gynecologist's better than the Sandy Springs location. Everyone was a lot nicer, and they all treated me like I had a brain in my head, which isn't to say that the other location talked down to me, but I've been to enough gynecologists who do.

I did a quick lunch with [personal profile] katsuko at The Flying Biscuit. It was delicious as always... and it turned out that it was only five minutes from my primary physician. That was a quick visit. We went over my blood tests, Dr Woodhouse upped my Paxil prescription from 10mg to 20mg, and I got two jabs: tDap and flu. Because I'm hoping not get sick on my birthday this year.

After all that, I went to Panera while [personal profile] katsuko was at Mirko, and after she got out, we did a celebratory dinner at Jinya. I feel like I stuffed myself, but it's a happy thing... Even if it means that I can't quite seem to keep my eyes open now.

So I'm going on to bed. Sleep well, all.

Quick update

Tuesday, 12 September 2017 11:52 pm
apollymi: Animated, Roy sparks the lighter, no text (FMA**Roy: Set the world aflame)
This is just a quick update. I'm back to work tomorrow. I'll be there tomorrow and Thursday, but then Friday I have two doctor's appointments. Well, technically three, but I think that the two gynecologist appointments may or may not count as one. I think I might count them as one, at least for now.

I worked on Resurrectionist a bit today, which was good. I'm getting closer to having "After First Love" done, as well as "New Orleans", "Setting the Stage", and "Bite". I actually thought that I had "New Orleans" done, but I'm having to add little bits here and there. I made a small change in one of the Shelter stories and loved it, so I'm incorporating it into a few of the other stories as well. It doesn't work for Monstrous: After Midnight or Wicked Ones, but it does for Shelter, Resurrectionist, and Uncollared... and nothing in Trinity contradicts it, so it can be a quiet bit of canon for me there too.

All that said, I might try to work on an AU I have in mind for the Monstrous universe some tomorrow. I mean, it's straight up crack, but come on: that verse needs some straight up crack. It features an Old God, a Fae, an Antichrist, and an angel of death. It needs some crack. And given that I can't share this AU until after I finish Monstrous: After Midnight and Monstrous: Dark Nights doesn't really bother me all that much.

After all, I've got pretty much all of Shelter and Uncollared that I'm not sure I have any intention of ever sharing. I guess that all depends on the reception that Resurrectionist gets.

Speaking of Resurrectionist, [personal profile] katsuko and I are planning on posting for the Mag7 week challenge at the end of the month. We'll be hitting the following days:
*Day 2 - September 24: Self-Sufficiency: Monstrous: After Midnight - Sam Side-Story
*Day 3 - September 25: Alternate Universe: Resurrectionist - Outbreak Pt 1
*Day 5 - September 27: Supernatural: Monstrous: After Midnight
*Day 6 - September 28: Aftermath: Monstrous: After Midnight
*Day 8 - September 30: Friends and Family: Wicked Ones

Yes, I know we're missing Days 1, 4, and 7 (Fall or Proposal, Celebration or Outside POV, and Downtime or Memories, respectively), but I'm afraid we're striking out on them. Or I am. [personal profile] katsuko might have some ideas that she hasn't shared.

But also yes, there will be three new parts of Monstrous: After Midnight coming out that week. That ought to make some people's days.

And now, it's time for me to go to bed. 5:30 comes awfully early. Good night, all!

I'm awake

Friday, 8 September 2017 10:44 pm
apollymi: Stitch holding his head in pain, no text (L&S**Stitch: Headache)
I'm so freaking tired, but I'm working towards getting everything finished up on various things, mainly After Midnight. I finished a Faraday part and a Teddy part today, and now I just need to finish up the Vasquez section I'm working on. Then I can move on to an Emma part. And after that, I think there's just the epilogue, though that might be multiple section long (and just all put together into one really long epilogue).

In addition to the bits I'm working on, [personal profile] katsuko just finished a Red Harvest chapter. She's working on a Sam chapter to come after it. I'm not sure, but we're going to be good to go for Mag7 week at the end of the month.

Now if I can just make fucking Wicked Ones talk to me... But nooooooo... Those boys are fucking stubborn as hell. They would rather do literally anything else in the world besides talk to me... or each other. I'm still going to give it a go this weekend, see if I can make something happen. I'm planning on releasing a chapter for Mag7 week, after all, the last finished chapter I have in reserve.

I'm going to give working on Resurrectionist a go as well. I know I'm going to be working on Shelter and Uncollared, because those are the two that are currently working for me. As for Shelter, I'm getting words done on both the regular verse and the modern femme Faraday verse. Oddly, the Worst Case Scenarios have chilled the fuck out finally, so that's good. If working on them will get me words, though, I might revisit them a bit.

I'm so tired and so out of it, that I keep forgetting what day of the week it is. I think it's Friday. I hope it's Friday. I'm honestly looking forward to my three doctors' appointments next Friday, because maybe they can tell me some of what's been going on with my body and all. Or at least get me one step closer to that goal. I'll take one step closer at this point.

So, yeah, I'm exhausted, so I'm going to go the hell to bed. Good night, all.

Something quick

Thursday, 7 September 2017 10:04 pm
apollymi: Hicks' face, faded icon, text reads "If in doubt, NUKE IT" (Aliens**Hicks: Nuke the site from orbit)
I'm honestly not sure what to say for myself for today. It was a day. I went to work. I didn't kill anyone while I was there. Honestly, the thought only occurred a time or two... and weirdly, not about testers. Sometimes boss lady just plucks my last nerve.

I had to take a Flexaril last night, and it left me all... "drifty" during the day today. So I'm going to avoid that today. It was nice not having to feel all stiff and tense and uncomfortable during the day, but being awake for the day is much, much better.

And I wrote on After Midnight. I'm actually really proud of what I wrote on After Midnight. It's some quality stuff. Creepy, but quality.

And I think that's about all I have to really say for myself. Later, all!

Follow-up

Wednesday, 6 September 2017 10:08 pm
apollymi: Ryou holding Thief King Bakura, text reads "Our Farewell" (YGO**Bakura/Ryou: Our Farewell)
I did the gynecologist visit today. That was... a trial. I think that maybe that's the best word for it: a trial. I got there at 9:30 and waited a bit before I was taken back. Once I showed the nurse my calendar of my periods, she immediately whisked me back for a trans-vaginal ultrasound. This technician was a lot better than the one in Tallahassee, who left me feeling like well churned butter. I got to the room and sat and waited... and waited... and waited... until eventually I got to see the doctor. She was good, if a bit abrupt. I felt like I barely started talking a few times before she was talking over me. I ended up having to have three uterine biopsies done, and I have an appointment for a saline ultrasound set for next Friday morning. So I now have two doctors' appointments on Friday. I'm going to have to take the whole day from my sick leave.

So the biopsies are, in the doctor's words, in part to "rule out cancer or pre-cancerous growths". Points to her for being honest, but I also didn't need the Big C word in my head. I also found out that my first Tallahassee gynecologist didn't do this job right as far as diagnosing whatever's wrong with me. He should have done more investigating, rather than listening to my symptoms and deciding it was endometriosis. Also, apparently D&Cs are not the proper procedure for endometriosis. But then, what do you expect from a doctor more willing to do surgery than proscribe birth control?

Also my uterine walls are unusually thick. That's the rest of why she did the biopsies.

And then I got on the train and went to work and was uncomfortable the rest of the day. I'm still uncomfortable. So sad.

But I've taken a Flexaril, and I'm probably not long to be awake, so I'm gonna cut this entry off here. Good night, all.

OMG

Tuesday, 5 September 2017 11:34 pm
apollymi: Duo, Usagi, and Heero with grunge border, text reads "OT3" (OT3: Duo/Usagi/Heero (grunge))
Oh my gods, Luci! The very last thing you need is any kind of coffee -- but you especially don't need espresso! You're hyper enough as it is! Coffee and you would be a horrible combination!

So... I opened for Glynda this morning. I feel sort of punch drunk, because so many early mornings. The only real advantage of it is that the sun isn't up yet, so it's not in my face when I'm walking the last block, where there are no tall buildings to block the sun. So I did work for Glynda, and she was not in at all. It took LaTrease a while, but she managed to get in touch with her. She'll be in tomorrow, which is good, but that's the only thing we've got.

And it's good that she'll be back tomorrow, since tomorrow is... my gynecologist appointment! (Yay!) It's scheduled at 9:30 in the morning (because for some reason LaTrease wants me to try to get morning appointments) until... when it's done? I know they've got me scheduled for an ultrasound and who knows what else. So there's that.

And yeah, that's about it. I think it's time for me to go crash into my bed. Good night, all.

Something

Sunday, 3 September 2017 09:01 pm
apollymi: 3 sections, 1st close up of Nick's lower face, 2nd Nick & Cassie at table, 3rd Cassie holding head in pain, no text (Push**Nick+Cassie: Watcher Mover)
At least [personal profile] katsuko and I are both feeling approximately 80% better today. Well, she's feeling better, but I'm still crapping out everything I have ever eaten.

We did go see Atomic Blonde today, and I think we both enjoyed it. I kind of guess the twist about halfway through the movie, and that's all right. I don't think it was meant to be a thought inspiring movie or anything.

We have to spend some of our tomorrow cleaning up, in case our house is selected for the inspection that scheduled to go on tomorrow. The rest of our tomorrow includes taking back a lot of the stuff we bought Friday, including both of our new purses and new jeans. Rent is getting way too close and all that jazz.

And now I think it's time to admit defeat and go the hell to bed. Good night, all.

Not so busy

Saturday, 2 September 2017 10:17 pm
apollymi: Zack holding Cloud, doujinshi art, text reads "Dream of me" (FF7**Zack/Cloud: Dream of me)
Today wasn't nearly as busy as we had intended for it to be. For starters, both [personal profile] katsuko and I got sick off the food at Chow Baby last night. It made for a pretty miserable day.

We did attempt to have lunch with Mum and Grandmother today. I managed to choke down some food, but unfortunately, [personal profile] katsuko couldn't even get plain white rice or cabbage to stay down. We had some moderate success with crackers and Sprite, so I'm counting that as a tentative win. She's spent most of the afternoon and evening sleeping off the worst of it, so there is a that. Hopefully it'll be enough to let her feel better and for us to be able to enjoy the rest of this little vacation.

I keep drifting off as I try to write this, though, so I' going to call it a night. HOpefully tomorrow will be a better day all around than today was. I'm back at the point, where this feels like I'm drifting off all the time, so I'm going to throw myself at my bed. Maybe tomorrow will be a more pleasant thing than today.

Good night, all.

Quick

Tuesday, 29 August 2017 10:51 pm
apollymi: Usagi in a swimsuit, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Summer)
I've taken my medicine for the night (the Paxil and the Protonix), so I have no idea how much longer I'll manage to stay awake. Probably not too long, because... yeah, the Paxil is known to knock me out flat. I'm actually pretty okay with this, because for the most part, it means that I get to get a good night's rest, even if it is a little drugged. Better than sleeping at work or sleeping in little fits and spurts here and there.

Let's see... We finished up The Defenders tonight. That was a good. I have to say that I enjoyed it a lot. There were some weaker points to the series, but all in all, it was a strong outing for all four of Marvel TV's major anti-heroes. [personal profile] katsuko and I were discussing that Danny is the idealism of the group, Luke is the heart, Jessica is the cynic (and self-preservation), and Matt is the brain. Together, they make a pretty good person.

I made it through another early work day, though to be honest, it was a fucking Tuesday, which seems to be the day the testers bring the attitudes. I wanted to cunt-punt one girl if she didn't rein in her impatience and impertinence. But I didn't. I was good. It was hard, but I was good. But oh, I entertained thoughts of cunt-punting. Yes, I did.

Not too much written today. These early mornings, it seems, are not conducive to me getting shit done, because I feel draggy the rest of the day... which sucks because I have plenty of day to get shit done. But I'm trying. I did do some editing and wrote a little here and there. Not as much as I should have, but more than I expected to.

And with that in mind, I'm going to go through myself at my bed, so that I can get up and do it all over again. Damn it.

another today

Sunday, 27 August 2017 10:01 pm
apollymi: Bakura and Kaiba, close up on eyes, text reads "Your eyes" (YGO**Bakura/Kaiba: Your eyes)
Today... was an exceptionally lazy day. I watched The Defenders and Voltron: Legendary Defender. I read Jurassic World fanfiction.

For the most part, that was it. I did go pick up my last prescription from CVS -- one for prescription strength Vitamin D, because apparently my levels on that are abysmal. I'm going with "abysmal" as a definition: the levels should be 30.0 to 100.0 ng/ml (nanograms per milliliter)... and mine was 8.5 ng/ml. So "abysmal" seems to work.

My LDL was also kinda shitty, and my A1C wasn't fantastic either. So I'm gonna have to start worrying on getting those two down, while at the same time getting my Vitamin D levels up. Everything I'm reading says you can get LDL and A1C down with diet and exercise, though the diet is mostly vegetables, whole grains (especially barley and oats), and fruit. To that end, I got us a blender for fruit smoothies again in the mornings. And I guess I'm going to have to learn to start choking down some oatmeal. Blegh. Not a fan.

What I haven't done today is write. I fully intended to, but nope, I got sucked into a hundred other things.

So yeah, not a lot to prove for today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better?

something

Friday, 25 August 2017 11:07 pm
apollymi: Usagi looking determined, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Determination)
I took my pill not that long ago, so I don't think I'll be awake to do much with this entry. We'll see if I manage to make any kind of sense. I'm not exactly counting on it, obviously.

It's been a very, very long day. I had GSU, followed by hanging around waiting for [personal profile] katsuko to get done at Mirko. Granted, it was a bit more in depth than I'm making it sound,, but still... It has been a long very long, far long than the simple explanation give or makes it sound.

I did manage to write a couple hundred words on Wicked Ones, which is something I haven't managed in a bit. I'm hoping for more tomorrow, but I'm not exactly holding my breath here. But I am going to try. Compared to the somewhat more light-hearted stuff I've been writing, Wicked Ones is almost unbearably dark.

And getting these words out in a sensible manner is taking way too long, so I think I'm going to head towards my bed and collapse hard. Sleep sounds lovely, and it's calling my name.

And that's about it. Later, all.

updates

Thursday, 24 August 2017 10:57 pm
apollymi: Black cat sitting on pumpkins, no text (Proud mom of a black cat) (Kitten: Black cat)
So I heard back from my temporary doctor: I'm to take the Paxil at night, since it apparently makes me hella sleepy. I took it about an hour ago, so I'm waiting to see when it kicks in. If this suddenly descends into gibberish, you'll know it kicked in. We'll see.

I do keep drifting off. That's probably a sign that they're kicking in, yeah? Or it's just a sign that it's been too long of a day, and I'm ready to be done with it? I guess that one could go either way, huh?

I've done fuck all for writing today. Mostly, I've just been too tired for much of anything. That's... actually pretty typical for me starting a new pill. Plus the work day was kinda crazy, between 15 MCATs and one STEP 2 tester. The STEP was the issue, because she came wandering in late and then tried to catch an attitude. Glynda shut that down pretty hard, though. In turn that meant that I had to be "good cop", but alas, c'est la vie.

I don't think that I'm going to hit my goal of 1000 words today. I'm just too tired right now for that. I've edited a few hundred words in, but that's not going to be nearly enough. I'm not exactly upset by this. I probably should be, but I'm not. Good thing?

I did manage to win a $25 Amazon gift card recently. Everyone keeps telling me to spend it on something just for me, but I'm debating on using it to get a baby gate to go up in the house, so that Boo has some guaranteed privacy. The trick is going to be finding one that fits the wide hallway entrance. It's over 40 inches wide, approaching 50, so most traditional baby gates aren't going to work.

And yeah that's all I'v got for today. Later, all.

Some results

Wednesday, 23 August 2017 10:26 pm
apollymi: Eternal Sailor Moon against a bright yellow background, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Stand tall (ESM))
So, I got back all but three of my test results. The three I haven't gotten back are my iron levels ones. Per her notes, I have a severe Vitamin D deficiency, severely enough that she called me in a prescription for some to take weekly. My A1C was a bit high, just under Pre-Diabetic levels, so I need to work to get it lowered. My LDL was high, so I need to work on getting down as well.

She also included a note to get in contact with EAP through work. Which sounds good, but I have no time at work to spare to do these visits, so I might see about the online therapist thing offered through work. We'll have to see there. It was one thing to go in a little early at FSU to make up for EAP visits. Plus we had plenty of coverage. At GSU, we are running with precisely the number of people needed... but there's no room for anyone to be out. There's no fallback or extra coverage.

So I'm thinking I'm going to start making my vegetable barley soup, because it's full of things that can lower LDL and A1C levels: barley, high fiber vegetables, beans, and so forth. I'm also looking at more recipes that (1) are vegetarian friendly and (2) contain foods that lower A1C and LDL levels. I'm going to see how adding sweet potatoes and brussel sprouts to the vegetable soup goes. I'm going to have to get a blender this weekend, I guess, so that we can start making smoothies at home, because a lot of the articles I've been reading specifically say to avoid smoothies you don't make yourself, because you can't control the amount of sugar in them.

I need to start watching what I eat more. Less soft drinks, for one. I'm going to have to start weaning myself off my morning soda, which will be hard, because I use it to wake up in the mornings. I'm going to have to start being better about eating more rounded meals, instead of just cooking quick packaged meals or getting Taco Bell all the time. I don't know: maybe this will be a good excuse to go back to Happy Herbivore meal plans or planning out what I'm going to eat throughout the week ahead of time. Because, of course, the rest of her advice was to exercise and lose weight. Of course. Because that's so easy.

Tomorrow, I need to call the gynecologist and rheumatologist and schedule appointments with them both. I might try to get all three appointments (these two and my follow-up with the primary) set for the same day, and then I can just take the whole day as a sick day. Get it all over with at once... and make it easier on my coworkers where there isn't a lot of coverage. We'll see what I can manage.

And that's about it. Later, all.
apollymi: Hicks holding Ripley as Ripley holds Newt, text reads "Family" (Aliens**Hicks/Ripley+Newt: Family)
So the doctor's appointment went fairly well. I'm pretty pleased with how it went.

I saw a temporary doctor today because my regular PCP is still on maternity leave. I kind of adore my temporary doctor, but she assures me that I will like the regular one once I get to meet her. Everyone at the office was super impressed with my record keeping and the fact I brought them in copies of some of my medical records. They all said it was a big help and gave them a good place to start, even if the records are four years out of date (because I haven't been to a doctor for more than a prescription top off or urgent care visit since then).

It did help that one of the records I found way a yearly summary, including medications I was taking at the time and what lab tests I had had done recently. Mostly those were checking and rechecking my A1C, my C-Reactive Protein, iron levels, and my thyroid levels. She expressed some concerns over the number of times they checked and rechecked my C-Reactive Proteins and thyroid levels. It seemed odd, she said, that they never managed to pin down the cause of my joint pain and just stopped at fibromyalgia without ever sending me to a rheumatologist. So she's not beating around the bush: she's sending me to one to try to pin down the problems with my joints.

Fibromyalgia is a diagnosis you only come to when you've exhausted all other possible diagnoses, apparently, and she was a little unhappy that they hung that diagnosis on me without those last few steps. If that makes sense.

So I'm back on some of my old medication: Albuterol (asthma), Maxalt (migraines), and Pantoprazole (gastroenteritis). I'm on a new antidepressant, Paxil. She's starting me on 10mg and will be building me up to 20mg in about a month. It's a chance to see if it's something that works better for me than some of the other things I've used over the years (Effexor, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Zyprexa, and Elavil), since it might also help with my anxiety.

I'm just ready to start feeling more like who I used to be again. I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.

I have to go back in three weeks, which is going to be fun, let me tell you, trying to get more time off work. I'll figure something out. I always do. (I always have to.)

Anyway, sleep now. It's an early, long day tomorrow, between [personal profile] katsuko's 6:00 IKEA shift, my 8:30 GSU shift, and [personal profile] katsuko's 5:00 Mirko shift. If nothing else, this visit has resulted in an admonition to try to take things easier... as well as a note to let me wear trainers to work, so that my plantar fasciitis has a chance to start trying to heal some.

And yeah, that's it. Later, all.

(no subject)

Monday, 21 August 2017 10:50 pm
apollymi: Trunks staring off in the middle distance, no text (DBZ**Trunks: Sentinel)
I'm trying to be better about sharing pictures of the girls on my Instagram. It's a sort of ongoing thing. I'm not so sure how great it's going to end up working, but it's encouraging me to play around more with my photography. I think that's a good thing.

Tomorrow is my doctor's appointment. I'm seriously looking forward to the thing. I know I need to leave my house tomorrow morning at 6:00 a.m. to drop [personal profile] katsuko off at IKEA and then still get to work on time, having the car with me. I'll leave work at 1:15, which should give me just enough time to get there ahead of time and fill out all my requisite paperwork ahead of my 2:45 appointment. I've got my list of things I want to discuss with my doctor. The top three are (1) getting back on an antidepressant, (2) figuring out what's going on with my period, and (3) what the fuck is up with my foot and can I get a note to my job saying I can wear supportive tennis shoes (instead of dress shoes) because of the pain.

I've gotten as many of my medical records together as I can easily find. I'm not sure if they'll all be of any use, but I brought them out anyway. I'll try to remember to switch bags tomorrow so that I can carry it with me. I can't eat anything after 10:30, which is going to fucking suck out loud.

Or I'm going to do these things if [personal profile] katsuko lets me do any of the things.

I'm going to go commandeer this task back from her now. Later, all.

stuff

Sunday, 20 August 2017 06:48 pm
apollymi: Sarah reading a book, text reads "can't talk reading fanfic" (Labyrinth**Sarah: Can't talk - Fanfic!)
Of the past 75 days, I've been bleeding for 51 of them. I had a relatively blood-free day yesterday, just some light spotting, but it's back with a vengeance today. I haven't wanted to move at all, thanks to the cramps, and I feel like I've only barely choked down food all day. Big not fun, really.

And yeah, I've barely gotten any writing done. I've been trying. Gods know that I've been trying, but obviously, when I feel like shit, not a lot gets done. I'm trying to get caught up for the month, but that's looking sort of iffy.

So yeah, I'm tired. I'm bleeding again. I'm roasting. I'm cramping. I'm nauseated. I'm enjoying exactly none of this.

If I put all my symptoms into WebMD, it's convinced I'm in perimenopause. I... think I could live with this. Yeah, it's incredibly early. Yeah, I already asked Mum, and both she and Grandmother had hysterectomies in their 30s, so they don't feel like they're good examples of when women in our family have menopause. Granted, I'm now old enough to have a hysterectomy if I wanted to; Georgia state law says I have to be over 35 or have 3 kids... and have my husband's permission. But still... That's a topic for another day, after the doctor's appointment and whatever results I get from it.

And yeah, I think I'm going to try to make some words happen today. I'm not greatly hopeful, but I'm going to try. Later, all.

Tuesdays

Tuesday, 15 August 2017 11:06 pm
apollymi: Stitch doing an handstand and wiggling his butt, no text, animated (L&S**Stitch: Kiss my ass)
Why are Tuesdays at the testing center always so weird? If weirdos are going to come in, it always seems like it's going to be on Tuesdays. If people are going to try to game their tests to get more time, it always seems like it's going to be on Tuesdays. If something on the computers is going to mess up, it always seems like it's going to be on Tuesdays.

Well, next Tuesday is going to be my doctor's appointment. I'm actually looking forward to it. I'm developing a list of things that I want to talk to her about. On the top of said list is getting back on a new antidepressant. Another high point on that list is the pain I keep having in my right heel, if it's a heel spur or if it's plantar fasciitis or some new bizarre twist on my fibromyalgia, and can I have a note telling my job that it's okay for me to wear tennis shoes. And that suggestion came from LaTrease.

Luci has already ditched her new collar. Seriously, she wore it for two days, if that. I haven't been able to find it yet, and I've been looking since we finally got home. It'll turn up eventually, but it's very annoying since she just got it.

And I think I'm going to try to go on to bed now. Later, all.

Tired

Friday, 11 August 2017 11:19 pm
apollymi: The ending of the manga, the scene that makes for happy shippers, no text (SDK**Kyo/Yuya: THAT final shippy scene)
I'm so freaking tired. I keep falling asleep in the weirdest places and the weirdest times. It's actually all I can do to stay awake long enough to accomplish anything right now.

I'm back on my period again. To give some context to that "again" bit, since 05 June, I've had 23 days when I'm not on my period. On 05 June, I started a period that went until 02 July, then I had another go from 18 July to 01 August, and now on 11 August, I'm starting again. In the last 66 days, from 05 June until today, I've had been bleeding for 43 of them.

And this is why I'm worried that my anemia might be back again. One of those days, July 28, I believe, I bled through so many pads in a day that it was ridiculous. In fact, I know I had to change three times in one hour, one of which times I was wearing two pads on top of each other.

I'm looking forward, actually, to my doctor's appointment on the 22nd. I'm hoping I can get my new GP/PCP to write me a prescription for some kind of birth control to get me back to some kind of regular. If not, I'm hopeful she can get me into a OBGYN soon to get me said prescription.

And yeah, that's about it.

Later, all.

dark eyes

Thursday, 10 August 2017 10:01 pm
apollymi: Typewriter and paper, text reads "Fanfic writer" (My Writing: Fanfic Writer)
Apparently, I look like I got punched in the eyes, as dark as the circles under them are. I don't get it. I went to bed at a decent-ish hour yesterday. Maybe it was the getting up at 4:30 that did it.

To any effect, I managed to accidentally fall asleep in Peachtree Center Mall this morning. The security guard I always talk to woke me back up, and we discussed the wisdom of my going for coffee. I ended up grabbing a $5 hot chocolate, but it kept me going a few hours... then I started almost drifting off at work. Anastasia, darling blunt Russian that she is, told me I looked like I had been punched in the eye.

So... I'm going to get this typed up and what I handwrote typed up, and then I'm going on to bed for the night early again. I just hope I'm not getting sick from where we were rained on so much on Monday.