All I can do

Friday, 16 June 2017 11:30 pm
apollymi: Stitch in a cape and hood, no text (L&S**Stitch: The... fuzzy blue alien kni)
It's all I can do today to keep my eyes open long enough to do much of anything.

It's kind of been a really long, long day. Tomorrow is going to be just as long.

I'm trying to get sick, and I'm not enjoying it.

And that's it for me.

Goodnight, all.

So tired

Tuesday, 13 June 2017 10:23 pm
apollymi: The ending of the manga, the scene that makes for happy shippers, no text (SDK**Kyo/Yuya: THAT final shippy scene)
Yeah, this is probably my most used subject line. It remains the most accurate one.

I'm about 600 to 700 words into the day's writing, and the boys are just fighting me. They've gotten through the porny bits, but they don't much care of letting me indulge in some aftercare and they don't want to talk either. So I got nothing.

I have a modern au version of these two who are a little less fucked up (Faraday) and a lot more fucked up (Goodnight), and I'm not sure I'm emotionally ready to tackle writing sex between the two of them just yet. It promises to be emotionally draining. I keep trying to get this one reined back in to a less emotional level, and it just keeps not happening. I'm not sure how much I'l be able to do for this collab. I'm going to keep trying, though.

And yeah, that's all I've got time for, because otherwise I'm going to lose my bed for the night.

Later.

A good plan

Thursday, 8 June 2017 09:55 pm
apollymi: Kyo and Yuya back to back, red background, no text (SDK**Kyo/Yuya: The red strokes)
I'm trying to convince myself that sleep sounds like a good plan.

I'm the kind of tired that requires sleep to correct, but I'm also the kind of tired that nothing sounds good, not even sleep.

That said, I'm still going to be trying to make a bit of sleep happen, so that we can accomplish all the things that need to be accomplished tomorrow.

Gotta get up early and go by the bank. Gotta get money from my Ally account, deposit in the Regions account, pay the rent (late), and go to the train station. If I have money left over, I'm so having breakfast. Then [personal profile] katsuko has got to come home, stop by the office and make sure they see the rent payment, probably do some stuff around the house, and go to Mirko for dinner shift. When I get off work, I have to catch the train to Lindbergh Station then catch the bus to the restaurant until she's done with dinner shift. Though to be fair, I'll probably hang at Panera Bread instead, because I don't want to be drafted into work or have to put up with Josh's bitch ass.

Also I may or may not have inducted my coworkers at New Job into calling Carlos "Car-LaLa" and "Carlito". Because I'm a grown-up like that.

And on that bizarre note, I think I'm going to go throw myself at my bed and see if it accepts me as one of its own. Peace, babes!

Tired

Tuesday, 6 June 2017 11:23 pm
apollymi: Manic look Ninth Doctor, text reads "I solemnly swear I'm up to no good" (DW**9th Doctor: Up to no good)
I'm sitting here watching [personal profile] katsuko sleep on the other end of the couch, and all I can think about is how much I wish that were me napping so hard. I really feel like I need one, even though I really should already be in bed by now.

As tired as I am, I should already be in my bed, curled up and bracing myself to face another day.

Also, distressingly, I'm looking at the GSU website. Everything I'm seeing says that my probationary period is 6 months, not 90 days like LaTrease was telling me. These are very different date ranges, and I really kind of have to have an idea of which one of these it is. If it's 90 days, then I can take my time off for Dragon*Con, Halloween, and when Mist comes to town. If it's 6 months, then that's October -- and the only one of those three sets of dates I'm hoping for off that I can even ask for will be Halloween.

It also means that that's the soonest I could go see a doctor is at the end of October.

I really hope that what LaTrease is telling me is the correct information. I'm well past needing to get back on my crazy pills. But also I'm just sick and tired of always feeling sick and tired.

And yeah, that's all I've got for today.

So... something

Wednesday, 31 May 2017 10:23 pm
apollymi: Usagi holding Luna, Artemis, and Diana, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Kitties!)
I'm not sure if I'm tired or drained or too into the shit I'm writing. It's hard to be certain.

I suspect it's a combination of the three. Holy shit, the story took a dark turn, and I really need to get through this bit, so that we can get back to your regularly scheduled kinky porn.

And yeah, that's all I've got to say for myself.

So long, my freaky darlings.

Long day was long

Tuesday, 30 May 2017 11:09 pm
apollymi: Bakura looking smug, text reads "Lead me into temptation" (YGO**Bakura: Lead me INTO temptation)
Today was a long day. I had to go to one of the federal buildings in town to get fingerprinted, so that I can test IRS candidates. Google Maps sent me to the wrong building. Security in that building didn't know what it was I needed, so they sent me to another building, who sent me to a third building, which turned out to be the correct one. After having to turn out my entire belongings and go through the metal detector, I went and had my photo and fingerprints taken by an absolutely charming Homeland Security officer. (Honestly, chatting with the guy was the least painful part of my day. He was just very easy to talk to. I guess that works well for his job, but still...)

That done, I walked back to work and went about my day. I spent as much of the day as possible trying to stay off my feet. Honestly my right foot still feels like I'm stepping on a nail most of the time.

Just a couple more days and then I have insurance. It'll be a while after that yet before I can go to the doctor, because I have to be out of my probationary period, but that's a whole other kettle of fish.

And that's it. I need to be asleep.

G'night, all.

Day off

Monday, 29 May 2017 11:34 pm
apollymi: Kaiba looking pissed, purple overtones, text reads "Cursed" (YGO**Kaiba: Cursed)
So today was my holiday day off. I didn't go to bed until nearly 4 in the morning, and I slept in until nearly 10 in the morning. So that was nice.

I wrote a bit today. Not quite like those nights last week where I wrote 5000 words in a night, but still, I managed something.

I've been called obsessed with this verse. I don't know. I'm enjoying writing it. I might be obsessed with editing it, but I hope I'm not actually obsessed with writing it.

But I'm otherwise out of things to say. Later.

Home again

Sunday, 28 May 2017 11:49 pm
apollymi: Ginji in taro/chibi mode with teary eyes (GB**Ginji: *wibble eyes*)
I'm so damn tired that it's everything I can do to keep my eyes open long enough to get this typed up. I'm not sure how long I'll be able to stay awake otherwise.

I'm trying to get caught up on words. In all honesty, I wrote just over 250 yesterday, mostly via editing. I'm still massively ahead for the month and even more so for the year, but I don't want to start slacking off now. Last thing I want is for my momentum to break, when I've been doing so well so far.

If I can get at least a thousand words, I can go to bed. That's the deal I'm making with myself. It's a bit of a sad one, when I've been awake since 6:30, no nap, and am denying myself sleep... but I want to get through this scene and get to this certain number of words.

So I'm going to keep working and get those words and then go to bed. G'night, all.

So tired

Saturday, 27 May 2017 08:57 pm
apollymi: Luke holding a lightsaber, no text (SW***Luke: Lighter side of the Force)
I'm so tired, but it's been a fun day. Jellybean took it upon herself to remind me why I'm not interested in kids by being wide open all day. Betsy was in rare form as usual; no such thing as a peaceful or quiet visit when she's also around.

My back hurts. My feet hurt. Oh gods, but do my feet hurt. But it's been a lot of fun.

Right now I have a black cat sleeping on my knees. It's both a little heartbreaking (because that's how Jimi used to sleep with me... and a little healing for the same reason.

I'm going to try to write a little and then I'm probably going to crash hard.

Good night, my freaky darlings.

Not sure

Friday, 26 May 2017 11:17 pm
apollymi: Steve & Danny on couch, text reads "It is what it is" (H50**Steve/Danny: It is what it is)
I'm not sure that I really have anything much to say. I'm tired. I'm tired almost beyond meaning of the word, but I need to get some more words done, because I won't really be able to write tomorrow, since I'll be at Mum's and Grandmother's for a very belated Mother's Day.

I still feel like I need to apologize to any potential readers and my characters for what I've been writing and editing the last couple of days. I swear, I only do it out of love.

And now I guess I need to go the fuck to bed, so that I can maybe get a little sleep, so that maybe I can get up at a good time to get on the road. I'm hoping to leave between 6 and 8 tomorrow, after all, so that I can spend plenty of time visiting.

Anyway, I'm going to try to finish up a bit more of this scene, so that I can maybe go do that sleep thing. Later, all.

Another fail

Wednesday, 24 May 2017 09:47 pm
apollymi: Trunks just after landing a punch, no text (DBZ**Trunks: Won't back down)
I definitely didn't manage a thousand words yesterday. Everything I wrote today will probably have to be scrapped, because it's utter shit. None of it really works for the stories they're in.

For now, though, they're words. I guess that's what matters.

Work was long. My right heel continues to hurt. I bought some insoles for shoes, the kind that can be moved from shoe to shoe. Now it hurts like stepping on a nail, instead of before it hurt like stepping on a hot nail. I'm hoping that a few days of wearing the insoles will help... or at least ease the pain enough to be to tolerable levels. Though I guess saying that my heel hurts is a bit of a misnomer: it's more the area between the arch of my foot at the hell, sort of where the heel curves up into the arch? That's the part that hurts. And I'm pretty sure I did it on my feet at Mirko so much.

It actually doesn't hurt too bad when I wear my old Skechers, but I can't wear those to work, sadly enough. I can't wear any kind of trainers to work, because they don't look professional. I have other Skechers with memory foam and all, but none of them are broken in to the point that my old trainers are. In other worse, the other shoes might help the heel a wee bit... but at the expense of the rest of my foot: one is too loose at the heel and gives me blisters, the Mary Janes have a strap that constantly rubs blisters, etc.

I have a sneaking suspicion that I should be trying to find a good pair of Clarks to wear to work. I have a few currently on their web site that I don't dislike... but I'm not sure if I like either.

And anyway, that's all I've got for today. Good night, all.

Failed

Tuesday, 23 May 2017 11:16 pm
apollymi: Trunks staring off in the middle distance, no text (DBZ**Trunks: Sentinel)
I failed at going to bed before 11:30. Hell, I failed going to sleep last night before midnight. One freaking thirty in the morning was when I finally dragged myself to bed last night. I got on a roll. I think I'm almost done with this particular section (and that will have my "mirrors" prompt done), but I'm not sure yet. I did manage my best writing day ever, though: 5,285 words.

Today is not going nearly as well: I haven't even broken a thousand words. I'm going to keep trying, but I don't really think it's going to happen, sadly enough. But I'm a stubborn cuss, and I'm going to keep trying.

I keep thinking that I need to start posting this over on [community profile] 15kinks and [community profile] eternal_sailorm, but I have yet to arse enough willingness to do so just yet. I mean, I'm like months behind again on updating websites. I hate being so tired when I get off work that I just don't want to do anything but sit and write. Nonetheless... That's what I end up doing.

And yeah, I'm out of things to say here. Later, all.

An hour ago

Sunday, 21 May 2017 11:23 pm
apollymi: Chococat sitting in an orange chair, no text (Sanrio**Chococat: This is my ROOM!)
I meant to be in bed an hour ago. We've got a six a.m. day tomorrow, so the sooner we're in bed, the more sleep we'll have.

But the [community profile] 15kinks story took over my brain, and I've slammed out about 2900 words for the "Possessiveness" prompt, plus another 300 of the modern day alternate universe and 200 of editing on various other parts of the main verse. I'm not sure if the story is itself actually completed, though.

So... yeah...

Long day was long

Saturday, 20 May 2017 10:51 pm
apollymi: Chaucer looking annoyed, text reads "I will eviscerate you in fiction" (AKT**Chaucer: Eviscerate you in fiction)
So the porn scene [personal profile] katsuko and I were working on ate away at our respective brains. I ended up being up until 2 this morning working on it. I intended to catch a quick nap until I had to be up by 5 for the TOEFL test I was administering, but Roo decided I needed to wake up around 3 or 3:30 to acknowledge him.

Honestly, I ended up sitting at the end of the bed crying because he keeps doing this and it makes sleep so difficult. [personal profile] katsuko evicted him, and I moved to my bedroom couch and got a little sleep.

The test itself was... all right. We had one no show and two people who showed up with invalid IDs.

After the test, I caught the train to North Springs, let [personal profile] katsuko pick me up, we had some dinner, and then we came home and we both passed the fuck out. We got home around 2:30 or so, and neither of us woke up until after 5:30. I could still drop off where I'm sitting.

That said, I think I'm going to go ahead and crash. Sleep is sounding o damn fantastic, after all.

Falling asleep

Tuesday, 16 May 2017 10:32 pm
apollymi: Faraday and Vasquez fighting back to back, no text (Mag7**Vasquez/Faraday: Shootout)
I keep almost falling asleep on the keyboard. That's actually a bit embarrassing. It's probably a sign that I should be heading on to bed, but I want to finish up more of the scene that [personal profile] katsuko and I have been working on for the last couple of days now. Yeah, the less than happy but somewhat canon compliant Goodnight/Faraday... though in both of the cases where we've written it, it's been Faraday/Goodnight. I'm not too sure what to do with that.

Yeah, I haven't got too much awake left in me, so I'm going to try to get a bit more done on this scene then go collapse.

Plan?
Plan.

So tired

Sunday, 14 May 2017 11:26 pm
apollymi: Ryou holding Thief King Bakura, text reads "Our Farewell" (YGO**Bakura/Ryou: Our Farewell)
I wonder if this is the subject line I've used the most on this journal. Probably so.

Either way I'm trying like hell to keep my eyes open long enough to get this entry typed up, so that I can go the fuck to bed. Because I'm tired enough to say shit like 'go the fuck to bed' at this point in the day. Yeesh.

All I did today was write. I did talk to Mum on the phone a bit, which was really nice, but that was about all I did. Most of what I worked on today was the semi-canon compliant GoodDay story. Seriously, I'm going to have the ending written before we get through the beginning... except that I'm not sure I'm actually working on the ending; I think it's possible I'm working on something a little bit more towards the middle. It's not going to end as quickly or as neatly as we originally intended for them.

That said... I think it's time for me to go the fuck to bed. Goodnight, all.

sorta blah

Friday, 12 May 2017 11:18 pm
apollymi: Ginji in taro/chibi mode with teary eyes (GB**Ginji: *wibble eyes*)
Okay, I'm sorta blah today, and I guess that's sort of expected. It was a long day at work, in which I tried to get writing done, but nothing was willing to cooperate.

I mean, I did manage a few words on Wicked Ones, in the "The Mine" section, but that's it so far. I'm not even sure I've hit 1000 words for the day.

I just can't seem to get my head in the game once I'm at home in order to make the words happen. Usually that's because I'm too tired when I get home to do much of anything.

Maybe once I'm adjusted to New Job, I'll be able to get more done in the evenings. Right now, my body is still slowly adjusting from the craziness of the restaurant to the steady hours of higher education. Once that's done, maybe -- maybe! -- I'll be back to writing more full-time.

Or maybe I'm just burning out. We've been writing pretty much nonstop since November. Or maybe I'm just at difficult sections of all the stories, and trying to make words happen on difficult parts is... well... difficult.

Or maybe it's some combination of some or all of the above.

Pepper

Thursday, 11 May 2017 10:01 pm
apollymi: The Labyrinth goblins staring out of dark background, text reads "The goblins are out to get you" (Labyrinth**Goblins: Out to get you!)
Right now I have enough Dr Pepper in me to fuel a trip to Mars. I didn't want to fall asleep at the keyboard again today like I did yesterday, even though I'm running on even less sleep today than yesterday.

Just one more work day this week, and then I have a couple of days off. [personal profile] desolate03 is back in town, so I know that [personal profile] katsuko and I will be having dinner with her on Saturday, though if my paycheck doesn't get here soon, it's going to be an awfully slim dinner... like Taco Bell or something. Nothing wrong with that, mind you, because Taco Bell is what we tend to eat when we're short on cash anyway, but it seems pretty bad to do that when she's only in town a couple of times a year. Maybe it'll be here by tomorrow. I can hope anyway, because I also need to pay the Verizon bill Saturday as well.

The checks are mailed from Alpharetta, so you would think that would mean they would be arriving here soon. I was actually kind of hoping for it to arrive early, in fact. I guess that was hoping for too much, though.

And yeah, that's about all I've got for today. I call myself trying to make words happen on Wicked Ones, but it's fighting me. I got a lovely long, long review for it, and I feel like I need to update it now after that. I've got Chapter 18 finished, but I want more of 19 completed before I post it.

So, I admit to defeat. I'm gonna go do the sleep thing. G'night, all.

Awake

Wednesday, 10 May 2017 09:45 pm
apollymi: Cup of coffee, pen, and written on paper, text reads "Writer" (My Writing: Writer)
I'm not sure I'm actually awake typing this. I feel more asleep than awake.

Which means tomorrow is absolutely going to suck. It's going to fucking suck out loud. Because tomorrow is my morning to open at New Job. To learn how to open, I guess is the better way to put that.

At least I got to pick the morning I was going to train. I picked tomorrow because [personal profile] katsuko has to be at IKEA at 6:00 a.m. Getting to pick the day I'm training does help.

But either way it's going to suck because it's so early.

But it's so that I know what I'm doing when I have to go in on the 20th from 7:00 until 12:30 in order to administer the TOEFL test.

But I'm still just trying my best to keep my eyes open. At least until I finish typing up what I handwrote and then go to bed. I'm gonna go do that now.

Tired

Tuesday, 9 May 2017 10:06 pm
apollymi: Duo, Usagi, and Heero with grunge border, text reads "OT3" (OT3: Duo/Usagi/Heero (grunge))
[personal profile] katsuko and I went back to see Guardians of the Galaxy, Volume 2 today. It was every bit as good the second time around.

Tomorrow at New Job is my new employee orientation. Because I'm on my third week, and I'm just now getting my orientation in. Of course, Anastasia has been there two weeks longer than me and is just now getting her orientation in too.

Anyway, I'm falling asleep where I sit, so I'm going to finish this up. I still need to type up what I wrote at work today. I keep thinking that, if I get a nap, I'll be good to go to knock this bit of copying over, but I know how I am after a nap: I'm tired, grouchy, and lethargic; I'll be even less enthused about getting this done than I already am.

But I also keep falling asleep where I sit, so I'm going to get this done and go the fuck to bed. Later, all.