Friday, 27 January 2017

apollymi: Buffy looking displeased, text reads "Not impressed" (BtVS**Buffy: Not impressed)
I'm trying to type up a long journal entry, because I'm not sure that I have coherency for writing in me today. I'm feeling very... not in my body today. Disassociated, I guess? Honestly, it sort of feels like when my blood sugar used to tank: like my brain isn't connected to my body. I'm not sure how to describe it. I'm not sure that I actually have words in my vocabulary for it. I just know it feels like I'm both too deep in my own head and yet also thousands of miles away from it. And it always gets worse when I have my headphones in (but weirdly, only the earbuds, not the over the ear ones... that I can't find).

I'm also not sure that I'll be able to find enough words to go in here. I'm trying, but things just aren't happening in my brain. It's distressing. I'm far enough ahead in #365k/365Day to take a day off or have a short day, but I don't want to. Slacking off leads to me not getting writing done.

Honestly, I think I'm just going to sit down and read until I can get my brain back in one place, instead of a hundred thousand and yet nowhere, like it feels like right now.

I do need to buy a new good pair of folding headphones that I can carry around with me. The earbuds just aren't good for me in a lot of ways, aside from the weird way they play with these... periods for me. They're also incredibly uncomfortable to me. And yes, I have tried several different kinds of earbuds; they're all always uncomfortable. But I can't find my over the ear folding headphones. I guess it's not a huge loss, because they were only $25 or so, so it's not like I can't find a pair of Bose or Beats headphones or something. But it still makes me mad, because they were better for me and all and grrr...

But that's not what I need to get on Amazon next. I need to replace my screen protector and case. The card case is getting a little loose, and I'm worried about my cards falling out. And I've dropped my phone enough lately the screen protector is cracked in no less than four places. Better the screen protector than the screen, I say. I wouldn't bother replacing it yet, since it's not messing with my ability to see the screen too much, but I keep nicking my thumb on one of the cracks and I'm a little sick of that. The case I have in mind is $10, but I can't decide if I want the heavier duty screen protector or the privacy screen one. I lean towards the heavier duty one, since I keep dropping the phone. So it would be about $30 for both. Hopefully I can afford to get them both on Monday, if we have enough towards rent by then.

And I guess I did manage some words after all, huh?