For today

Wednesday, 26 April 2017 11:01 pm
apollymi: White background with a black flashing cursor, text reads "It mocks me", animated (My Writing: Cursor mocks me)
I'm not sure what I have to say for today.

I went to New Job today. I thought I was going to have to figure out how to do new stuff there today, but instead the most new they're letting me do is that now I can assign lockers to people. Wow, I'm moving up so fast in the world. But I did get to leave a bit early, and that was good. It was nice getting out there at a fairly early time, even if it did mean that I caught every bit of 400 North traffic from North Springs, where it took 20 minutes to go five miles.

Other than that, I'm just trying to make words happen. Like I'm sitting here, staring at a cursor that continues to mock me and mock my pain, and the words are just refusing to happen. I might have to admit to defeat rather than keep on trying, because it's getting late and I have to be up at 6:30 in the morning.

So, yeah, I'm just going to go with that: admit some defeat, go to sleep, and then make myself some more soup in the morning for my work day. Plan? Yes. Good plan? Ehhh.

Either way, it's all I've got right now, with the boys refusing to be helpful, like the little bastards that they sometimes are. One Faraday is nervous because he's in the process of making peace with his brother. One Faraday is nervous because Goody got bit by zombies three days ago and may or may not turn into one. One Faraday is a confused little thief, sitting on an expensive couch going "Whaaa? I've got friends? Why didn't anyone tell me?" One Faraday just a monster and just got shot by a hedge witch. One Faraday just literally came back from the dead. One (bitty) Faraday just ran away from home (in one of the three Wicked Ones AUs). All these verses, and none of them want to talk right now. WTF, boys? Why do you have to be such little shits?

So yeah, fuck it, I'm going to bed.

Remaining

Tuesday, 25 April 2017 09:56 pm
apollymi: Eternal Sailor Moon against a bright yellow background, no text (BSSM**Usagi: Stand tall (ESM))
I am still a bit underimpressed with New Job. I am still feeling like a trained monkey or a student worker might be better suited for it. But it's decent enough money, nearly double what I was making at Mirko, so I'm pulling on my big girl panties and dealing with it for now.

I'm fighting hard to keep my eyes open long enough to make this post. I'm just so tired. I have to get up in the morning and make macaroni salad, because I forgot to do it tonight. There is a picnic-theme potluck at New Job tomorrow, and as the newest person, I'll have to attend in order to meet new coworkers. I'm making the only picnic-themed food I can do quickly, because otherwise I'll just be like "fuck this, time for more curry".

And that's about all I've got in me for today. I'm tired, I'm dealing, and I still will keep on keeping on. I did manage to write a little bit on Wicked Ones during break and before New Work. I finished up two sections that were still sitting at incomplete, so "Not quite forgiveness" and "Devious Boys" are now done. "Wild Jack" is now started. I've identified at least one more section that still needs to be written prior to "Devious Boys", but other than that, Chapters Seventeen and Eighteen should be just about done. Chapter Nineteen is quickly approaching done as well.

And that's it. Good night, my freaky darlings.

New Job

Monday, 24 April 2017 10:22 pm
apollymi: Vachon leaning close over Nick's shoulder, no text (FK**Nick/Vachon: Heartbreakers)
I started New Job today. Thus far, I'm underwhelmed. In fact, it feels like a trained monkey could do it... so I'm not sure why they required a bachelor's degree for it.

My best description for it is "I'm airport security". My job will consist of... )

I'm one day in, so I'm trying not to let my initial thoughts color the whole experience, but I'm decidedly underwhelmed. I'm very uncomfortable with this level of invasion of privacy we have to do to these people. It's not keeping bombs off airplanes. It's... taking a test.

Last day

Sunday, 23 April 2017 04:05 pm
apollymi: Close ups of Arthur and Eames, no text (Incep**Eames/Arthur: Dream bigger)
Today is my last day at Mirko. It feels like the end of an era... but a good thing at the same time. I've had this job for 2 1/2 years, and it's kept me (mostly) above water in some really hard financial times. But it's also been one of the most stressful times of my life, no thanks to the job. I'm not sad to see it go, but it's going to be weird now that's not here. If that makes sense.

I haven't written nearly as much today as I wanted to, but I'm still going. I'll get there. I'll get my word count in. I will get there. I'll get my words in before I have to go home for the night and do all those other things: cooking lunch, washing my hair, shaving my legs, etc.

And yeah, that's about it. I'm really a boring person right now. We'll see how I am tomorrow, though.

The tentative plan for tomorrow is to be at the train station by or before 7:00. I'll need to get the 7:19 train, so I need to allow myself time to find parking (though hopefully it won't be too long that early in the morning). [personal profile] katsuko will travel with me as far as Arts Center Station, where she will get off for IKEA. I'll go on to Peachtree Center Station, where I will then have a 10 minute walk to New Job. I'm trying to be there before 8:30. Today is sort of the test to see about times and so forth. At 5:15, when I get off work, I'll take the train as far as Art Center Station, get off, wait there for [personal profile] katsuko to get there from IKEA, and then we'll take the train all the way back to North Springs... and then drive the rest of the way home. It is a plan. We'll see how it ends up working, though.

And that's really it. I'm out of words for journaling. Later, my freaky darlings.

Something quick

Saturday, 22 April 2017 09:57 pm
apollymi: Yami no Bakura on a stripy background, text reads "Evil (crossed out 'looks like') IS a gay Japanese schoolboy" (YGO**Bakura: The face of evil)
It's late and I'm on my way to bed, so this is going to be quick.

I wrote like hell today. I hope I'm able to do that again today, because I'll need to go to bed early for New Job.

And yeah, that's about all I have to talk about: writing and sleep.

So... yeah.

okay

Friday, 21 April 2017 10:53 pm
apollymi: Draco & Slytherin company, text reads "Real friends help you crucio the witnesses" (HP**Draco: Real friends)
I opened this up s bit ago and forgot to make a post, so I'm just going to do a quick one right here and hope that it is somewhat coherent. I'm not placing bets on that being the case. I'm not placing bets one me being coherent in the first place at all.

Roo and Boo are being extra cute and cuddly today. This is nice. Except Roo wants to chew on fingers while he's being extra cuddly, and Boo is very very weighty. She and I both need to be exercising. I want to get a treadmill for us both.

And yeah, I'm still ridiculously super tired, so this is going to have to be the bulk of my post today. I'm not going to hit the minimum words I need for the day, and I'm going to have to accept that. Somehow I will live, and I'll just make up those words tomorrow.

So yeah, that's it for me for today. Tomorrow's plans include hella writing and maybe going up to Buford to look at some dress shoes for New Job (and eat at Genghis Grill while we're there).

Later, all.

Numb

Thursday, 20 April 2017 11:14 pm
apollymi: Faraday and Vasquez fighting back to back, no text (Mag7**Vasquez/Faraday: Back to back)
I'm not sure I've got anything in me today. I'm still feeling incredibly withdrawn from my body and from my mind. All I've wanted to do for days now is just find a vaguely horizontal surface and just collapse on it.

I'm still having to make myself eat. It's actually really hard. Food just doesn't sound good at all, and I get nauseated at the thought of it right now. Well, at least this ought to get some of the weight off me?

Why isn't there more fanfic out there for Wynonna/Doc/Dolls in the Wynonna Earp fandom? There is a sad dearth of them. The threeway chemistry is just too strong to ignore. Dammit, I think I picked up another rare pairing.

And that's it. I've got nothing else in me. Later, all.

Dark Matters

Wednesday, 19 April 2017 10:42 pm
apollymi: Zack facing away, text reads "So don't judge me by my failures, only by my dreams" (FF7**Zack: Judge me only by my dreams)
I need to say all this, and it's probably going to break me a little -- a lot -- to get any of it out, but it has to happen. It's just sitting behind my throat, eating away at me, and if I don't get it out, I feel like I'm going to go mad.

Jimi died yesterday, Tuesday the 18th. )
apollymi: Bakura looking smug, text reads "He belongs to the dark" (YGO**Bakura: He belongs to the dark)
I'm doing this to keep my mind of my sick kitty. I should have money by tomorrow to take him to the vet, and I'm just going to have to hope it will be soon enough. I've been working on Resurrectionist because it's pretty much the perfect combination of fluff and angst for getting through the day.

Either way, I wanted to share some of the "shippier" stories I've enjoyed in The Magnificent Seven with you, [personal profile] daimeryan_rei, since the last recs post gave you mostly gen fics.

Pretty much all of these are some permutation of Vasquez/Faraday (Varaday), usually with some Goodnight/Billy (GoodRocks) in the background, and most of them are by the same couple of authors. Because [archiveofourown.org profile] Hazel_Athena and [archiveofourown.org profile] ThrillingDetectiveTales deserve so much love.

The recs )

I might have gone a little nuts there. Sorry!

[personal profile] katsuko (or anyone else), if you can think of any others to add into this list, please leave them in the comments!

Sick kitty

Monday, 17 April 2017 11:25 pm
apollymi: Draco & Slytherin company, text reads "Real friends help you crucio the witnesses" (HP**Draco: Real friends)
Jimi's still acting like he doesn't feel well. I haven't seen him eat anything since early yesterday, and he's barely drinking water. Mist and Fluffy sent some money so that I can go ahead and take him to the vet as soon as possible. Honestly, if it deposits tomorrow, I'll probably go ahead and take him then. Otherwise, it'll be Wednesday morning first thing.

In other news, I've been so stressed over Jimi and being unable to do anything that I sublimated it into writing... and I've already done 2400 words today, with no signs of stopping yet. I'm just writing, writing, writing.

And yeah. That's it.

Sleepy

Sunday, 16 April 2017 11:09 pm
apollymi: Chococat sitting in an orange chair, no text (Sanrio**Chococat: This is my ROOM!)
Okay, this one is going to be hella short and hella quick, because I don't really have anything to say. I'm just... Yeah, I'm just not. I have a whole lot of just not going on right now, and I'm not enjoying that at all.

Today at work was... well, today at work. It was the same as it always is.

We got some of the things done today that we set out to do, but I don't think we even came close to accomplishing all of them. I don't even think we've accomplished a half or a third of them. We moved the dressers so that the apartments can do fireplace maintenance, but we haven't swept or vacuumed yet today. Maybe we'll get up early and do all that tomorrow. I'm not sure I have it in me to do it all tonight.

I did get a chapter of Wicked Ones posted to AO3. Apparently, I sent [archiveofourown.org profile] Hazel_Athena into feelings fits with this chapter, so that's a nice, I guess.

And yeah, that's about all I've got for me for today. More tomorrow when I'm hopefully feeling a bit more... me.

Honestly

Saturday, 15 April 2017 10:26 pm
apollymi: Kyle holding his head, text reads "*facepalm*" (Term**Kyle: *facepalm*)
Honestly, writing the journal entries is way harder than it needs to be right now. I'm not sure why. Maybe because it's not as enjoyable as the rest of the writing is.

Granted, right now, none of the writing is particularly enjoyable, but then, also, nothing is enjoyable right now. Saying I'm in the midst of a downswing is a major understatement. I wish I could get said downswing to go away, but it's just not working.

Jimi is peeing outside the box again, so we're back trying to get apple cider vinegar in the cats again. When we can get them to take it in, it always helps, but it's getting the cats to eat or drink it that's always the problem.

And yeah, that's about all I've got to say for myself for today. I'm going to try to finish getting my words done for Camp and #365k/365Day. Later.

So early

Friday, 14 April 2017 06:49 am
apollymi: Bakura & Kaiba fanart commission, text reads "Apollymi" (Default)
Seriously, it's so early. I've been up from an hour and a half now, and I'm still not awake yet. It's everything I can do today to keep my eyes open, and I'm really not enjoying that. I ended up falling asleep on the couch last night before I managed to get all my words for the day, so I'm running behind now. I'm going to be trying to get all caught up, but I'm not sure how well that's going to work.

So tired

Thursday, 13 April 2017 10:48 pm
apollymi: Drawing of cross-looking chick, holding a teabag. Text reads "No tea No work" (Stock: No tea = no work)
I'm so damn tired. I just want to keel over and cry into my pillow, I'm so tired. For me, that's a whole new level of tired.

A lot of it has to do with how much my feet hurt from wearing my dress flats today. Yeah, those are getting returned to the store. Once the money is back in my account, I'll be going to Payless shoe store to buy my usual flats again. But I had thought to myself that Target should have nicer shoes than Payless. Clearly I was wrong, and sore feet is what I get for trying to think.

I finally managed to get myself a few words ahead yesterday by writing over 3000 words. I just need to do 1600 to 2000 today to at goal or pull a little ahead. If it weren't how tired I was, I would try for that 2000 number, but for now, I'm just shooting for the lowest common number. In this case, that would be 1,667 words.

Either way, though, I might need to take a nap in order to be able to stay up even a little bit to get this done. Yes, I have to nap to write and write to go to sleep. My life, people. OMG.

And yeah, that's about all I've got for me for today. Later, all.

Wednesday Funday

Wednesday, 12 April 2017 10:55 pm
apollymi: Jensen playing with the homemade monsters,  text reads "I am sane-ish" (Losers**Jensen: Sane-ish)
I know it's supposed to be "Sunday Funday", but Sunday's are still work days for now, so I'm still calling Wednesday my fun day for now. At least until I officially start the new job. Then Sundays will be fun days again. I'm looking forward to this. You have no idea how much I'm looking forward to this.

I barely have anything written yet for today, though. I need to be working on correcting that, and that's what I'm going to do once I'm finished here.

I have a happy Roo in my lap. This is also good. Chat is happy and is flowing well. This is a good too.

But now... writing.
apollymi: Lina making a V for Victory sign and grinning, no text, animated (Slay**Lina: Victory!)
No, seriously, it's been such a long day, and yet I feel like I've accomplished nothing at all...

...except I know I have. I just haven't accomplished writing.

I took [personal profile] katsuko to IKEA at 6:00 this morning. I went to Panera Bread and used their wifi to accept the offer for Job #1. I did the catering. I went up to IKEA and had lunch with [personal profile] katsuko. I went to Target and bought myself two new bras, because I didn't really have any that fit well. (It turned it that was because I was wearing ones that were two sizes too small.) I picked [personal profile] katsuko back up, and we turned in our notice at Mirko, giving our last days as the 23rd. We came back home and waited for my new laptop bag to be delivered. We went to another Target and shopped for [personal profile] katsuko a new bra too, as well as replenishing our base powder supply. We came back home, and I filled out the paperwork for the GSU job... only to find out that our printer is out of ink, so we had to go back to Target for ink. And now I'm so tired.

Tomorrow, I need to go by the bank and see if they can print me a copy of a check for my account, because it's required to set up the direct deposit, which is also required. Because FML.

Benefits, Katarina. Benefits. Free tuition.

No, seriously, I'm thrilled about this, but I'm still not announcing it anywhere else yet. I still haven't heard anything from the HR checks. I'm assuming that's a good thing--a "no news is good news" kind of thing--but I'm also still a wee bit nervous.

Anyway, yeah, I'm going to lay down for a little bit and see if I can't get some creative juices flowing after a brief nap. Wish me luck.

Grumpy warnings

Monday, 10 April 2017 10:31 pm
apollymi: Godzilla - Text reads "Warning: Cranky! Proceed with caution" (Godzilla**Godzilla: Warning: cranky - U)
I'm in a goddamn pissy mood, so we're taking it out on the boys.

Damn it, the zombie verse is supposed to be my happy place. It went and got dark, though.

Of course, [personal profile] katsuko helped me figure out what the issue is: these boys have rather horrible lives until they all finally connect with one another.

The one I'm working with has a worse life than most, but then I love tormenting my Faraday's.

And yeah, that's all I've got for myself for today. Later.

OMG

Sunday, 9 April 2017 11:03 pm
apollymi: Annie smiling happily, text reads "omg squee!" (BH**Annie: OMG! Squee!)
Okay, I've been having the OMGs and squees and just general happy dances for the last few hours. And I 100% know the reason why:

This. This right here. This is why I'm a happy, happy person tonight. Kirayamidemon drew fanart for Wicked Ones!

Oh my fucking gods... someone drew a fanart for Wicked Ones?! I've been excited enough that I've made it the lock screen on my phone, I've showed it to completely uninterested coworkers, I've had to go into the bathroom to squeal like a fangirl, and I've literally bounced around in circles. It's been nearly twenty years (since around 2000) since anyone has drawn fanart for one of my stories. (Any other fanart I've ever received was fanart unconnected to a story or commissioned.) And apparently no one has ever drawn anything for [personal profile] katsuko's stories. So this is like a double whammy of awesome.

And okay, discussing DB is harshing my happy a bit, but I'm still ridiculously thrilled about this.

And now I want to write on Wicked Ones... but the next scene I have to write is either Faraday making peace with Chisolm or the fight that drove the brothers apart in the first place. And/or beg [personal profile] katsuko to write more sex for Joshua and Vasquez now that they have... *cough* provisions. Once she's done with the current scene in Monstrous: After Midnight of course.

OMFG, fanart!!!

Okay, I was working on Resurrectionist, and I need to type up what I had handwritten. So I'm going to go do that now and then try to redirect my brain back towards Wicked Ones.

Lazy day off

Saturday, 8 April 2017 11:56 pm
apollymi: Stitch doing an handstand and wiggling his butt, no text, animated (L&S**Stitch: Kiss my ass)
Yeah, it was another day off. I wish I could say I was productive today, but I really, really wasn't. [personal profile] katsuko did the laundry, which was a good thing, but for the most part, I did very little. I shuttled us back and forth today, and that was about it.

I did end up taking [personal profile] katsuko to four different places to try to find her some green tea ice cream. It was either that or take her to Nori Nori for the green tea ice cream they serve as part of their buffet. The gas money was actually less expensive, since it's only a couple of dollars, compared to the $22 each we would have been spending at Nori Nori. (Or $32 each, if we had gone at dinner.)

And we found them anyway, so it was all good.

I'm still trying to get caught up with where I need to be for Camp. I'm running about 300 words behind where I need to be. It's not that bad a deficit, when gods know I've had a lot worse, but it's annoying to me. Mostly it's annoying because I know I can get it caught up if I could manage to stay awake and keep my mind on task.

Which so far isn't really happening today. I wrote a little on the zombie fic, and I glanced over the Leverage crossover, and I did a pass over the next chapter of Wicked Ones. But most of my words today have come from responding to comments and the like.

[personal profile] katsuko is going to work at 6:00 in the morning. There will be nothing open that early for me to kill time at, so I'm going to stay at the house in the meanwhile. I'm hoping that'll give me time to get caught up on... something. I need to be working on Wicked Ones, but I remain discouraged there, so writing on it is hard... plus we're bouncing from one emotional depth to the next in that story. It's whiplash. One minute they're being mean as hell, then they're being the sweet brothers we know they can be, and then there's sudden angst, and yeah, writing whiplash.

But that's a whole other story... and not one for today. Today, I still need 559 number of words to get caught up for today and 888 to get caught up to where I need to be for Camp altogether. Let's see how far I can get.

Goodnight, all. Wish me luck.

My shot

Friday, 7 April 2017 11:04 pm
apollymi: Zack facing away, text reads "So don't judge me by my failures, only by my dreams" (FF7**Zack: Judge me only by my dreams)
I am not throwing away my shot!
I am not throwing away my shot!
Hey yo, I’m just like my country
I’m young, scrappy and hungry
And I’m not throwing away my shot!


Okay, yeah, that's back in my head again. That's hardly the worst thing ever.

I did manage to get all my recipes back off LiveJournal. They're all now on [community profile] lastcraving. I'm a little proud of myself for getting it all ported over, even if the importer wasn't playing nice. Obviously. Or they wouldn't all be on one day.

I'm even thinking about about starting to post more of the recipes I've done up over the last few years on there. So there might be more content before long. We'll see. I'm hoping to start back cooking again soon, maybe with new job.

I sat around Mirko Pasta today, debating on telling Carlos about the job offer but not give a departure date or anything like that: just that I would be starting somewhere else soon. Maybe next time I work with him I'll tell him. Bit too late for it today, after all. Whoops.

And I'm getting those weird spasms I get when I'm falling asleep too soon or when I'm tireed or whatever. Rather than have a whole lot of sleeping sitting up and all tat.

So, good night, all.