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Thursday, 22 June 2017 11:22 pm
apollymi: Bakura & Kaiba fanart commission, text reads "Apollymi" (Default)
You know what? Fuck it.

I'm re-deleting the whole damn thing again.

Fuck [community profile] 15kinks.

Oh well

Thursday, 22 June 2017 09:43 pm
apollymi: Drawing of cross-looking chick, holding a teabag. Text reads "No tea No work" (Stock: No tea = no work)
I'm in a contrary brain space.

I want to make more words happen. The harder I try, the less they want to come.
I get in a writing groove but have to leave at the end of my lunch break. I can't make words happen now.
"You look like you're enjoying your music." I cut off my music.
I'm so damn tired. I don't want to go to bed yet in case words do happen.
I feel like shit and want to talk. If I start thinking about talking, I start feeling like I'm choking.

As far as #365k/365Day is going, I've written over 268k so far. I'm approximately 73% of the way to goal. I've ended each month with at least 6,000 words over where I needed to be. My best month so far has been May, where I wrote nearly 36,000 more words than I needed. I might have the occasional shitty writing day, but I'm not letting myself get behind where I need to be.

I'm still on my goddamn period. I've been on my period since June 5. Monday will be three damn weeks. I'm fucking sick of it. It shows no sign of slowing down or stopping.

[community profile] 15kinks is... ongoing. I've had a few good writing nights in a row off it, so that's good. I still feel like it's ridiculous and unreadable and so fucking pointless, but I have one damn anonymous reader on Tumblr. I'm writing for them.

And on that contrary note, I'm fucking sick of Tumblr too. I haven't quite taken it off my phone yet. But it's not far from it either.
apollymi: Stitch looking shocked and dismayed, text reads "Oh noes!" (L&S**Stitch: Oh Noes!)
It's only Wednesday, and I'm already starting the 'ready for the weekend' song and dance routine. But it's true. I am ready for the weekend.

I'm hoping to get by the eye doctor this weekend, me and [personal profile] katsuko both. I need new contact lenses like months ago, and she's sadly in need of new glasses. If we can at least get prescriptions for them both, then we can start shopping around for good prices on them.

I'm still working on [community profile] 15kinks. I finished the "Fisting" prompt, and now I'm working on both "Spanking" and "Role Playing" at the same time. Because I'm crazy, apparently. [personal profile] katsuko is trying to make her way through the rest of the stuff at Rose Creek, so that we can start getting to the juicier bits, where they're starting a relationship, not just... you know... fucking.

And I guess I'm going to apply myself towards these two prompts.

Goodnight, all.

Something

Tuesday, 20 June 2017 09:52 pm
apollymi: Stitch lying on the beach with a lei, text reads "I like fluffy" (L&S**Stitch: I like fluffy)
I'm so ridiculously tired.

I made the mistake of doing Nyquil to get to sleep last night. Even though I went to bed early, I still ended up dragging ass all morning long today. The damnable part was that I slept really good, though. Granted, I ended up sleeping until about 15 minutes before I needed to leave the house to get to work on time and I never really recovered my energy, but I slept really, really fucking good.

It's almost going to be a shame to go back to the herbal stuff tonight, after last night's really good sleep.

And yeah, that's about all I've got in me for tonight. I'm not sure that I'm going to hit 1000 words this evening, but it'll have to be good enough.

Good night, all.
apollymi: Manic look Ninth Doctor, text reads "I solemnly swear I'm up to no good" (DW**9th Doctor: Up to no good)
I'm still kicking with the headache. It dimmed a bit earlier in the day, but it's back again full force now. I am not digging it, not in the least.

[personal profile] sharpest_asp, I fully intend to give your suggestion a try, but I have to buy both a hot back and s new cold pack before I can do anything like that.

In the meanwhile, I've already taken my Nyquil for the evening, so I'm going to try to go on to bed a bit early, see if that helps. I'm going to take my own advice and haul my pitiful ass on to bed.

Goodnight, all.

Screamer

Sunday, 18 June 2017 11:14 pm
apollymi: Vasquez firing his gun, no text (Mag7**Vasquez: Out of focus)
I've had a screaming headache since yesterday. Consequently, I did a lot of sleeping today to try to get rid of it.

Sadly, it didn't help me nearly as much as I would have liked it to. Neither did all the Excedrin I've taken today. I would hate to think that the Excedrin is stopping to work, because it's been one of the only non-prescription medicines that work on my headaches.

Consequently, it's been a very bad set of days for writing for me. *sad face* All weekend has been bad writing days. Friday, I had just over 400 words, and Saturday I had just over 300 words. Today isn't shaping up to be too good either. But I'll take what I can get, and maybe tomorrow will be better. I'll be back on my usual schedule, and that usually helps me with the writing.

And that's about it. Later, all.

Visit

Saturday, 17 June 2017 10:36 pm
apollymi: Kyo and Yuya back to back, red background, no text (SDK**Kyo/Yuya: The red strokes)
Mum and I had a very nice visit today. We went to see Mamma Mia at the (fabulous) Fox. And yeah, I'm going to have to remember that, because it is a pretty fabulous theater. Supposedly it's an old silent movie house that's been converted fo using with plays and so forth.

What I do have is a nasty headache. I'm not sure I"ll be able to get fully to sleep with it, but the little catnaps I've been grabbing aren't exactly dissuading me from my bed. In fact, they're really rather tempting me that way.

It's taken me thirty minutes to type out this much. I don't think today's going to be a particularly good day for writing. writing. i'll just have to make it up tomorrow. I'm usually pretty good for that.

And besides, Roo is making a point of making a huge mess, so I need to deal with that first. And sleep sounds so damn good right now that even I can't talk myself into staying up to write instead. Plus it might help with the headache I've been kicking since halfway through the play.

So... yeah... sleep.

All I can do

Friday, 16 June 2017 11:30 pm
apollymi: Stitch in a cape and hood, no text (L&S**Stitch: The... fuzzy blue alien kni)
It's all I can do today to keep my eyes open long enough to do much of anything.

It's kind of been a really long, long day. Tomorrow is going to be just as long.

I'm trying to get sick, and I'm not enjoying it.

And that's it for me.

Goodnight, all.

Felined

Thursday, 15 June 2017 10:32 pm
apollymi: Doujinshi art of Sirius Black, no text (HP**Sirius: Do not approve)
My lap has been pretty thoroughly felined. In other words, Roo has taken over my lap and is using it as his secret base from which to launch sneak attacks on the keyboard. This means either trying to lift the keyboard cover off the keys themselves or bite at my fingers. He's fine with either one, even if I'm not.

The interesting thing about trying to do collaborate writing in Google Documents is being able to see the words someone else is writing go into the the file in almost real time. It gets funnier when you get to see the typos that go along with the writing live as well.

Reading-wise, my life has been pretty damn good. Two of my favorite The Magnificent Seven stories updated in the last two days: Luck of the Draw and Melt the Elements. These are actually two of my very favorite Mag7 stories, so it kinda makes my day to see them both updated. It would be lovely if one of the other Mag7 stories I love updates tomorrow to keep the trend going. (I'm hoping for "Shifting Through the Ashes" by [archiveofourown.org profile] SnubbingApollo. It hasn't updated in months, and I need more STAT.)

I spent nearly 6 weeks without a period. I finally got it last Monday after spotting all the weekend before. I've had it since last Monday. Let me repeat that: I have had my period ongoing since 05 June. It's showing no signs of stopping. Or easing. Or even slowing down. And I'm now googling veggie foods that are high in iron, because I actually came pretty close to passing out at work today. Obviously this was no fun (or else I wouldn't be trying so hard to find something to take or eat to counter it), but it would have been the ideal day for it: we had a bunch of doctors in today getting recertified.

And yeah, that's about it for me for today. I'm going to go lay down and try to see if some rest will make me feel better. Later, all.

Fluid

Wednesday, 14 June 2017 11:22 pm
apollymi: Bakura and Kaiba, close up on eyes, text reads "Your eyes" (YGO**Bakura/Kaiba: Your eyes)
I’m trying out making this entry with Fluid, one of those apps that turns webpages into apps. It’s just a thing I’m trying, since my browser keeps freezing up on me. Which is a pain, because it’s started right when [personal profile] katsuko and I started transitioning all of our [community profile] 15kinks stories to Google Docs to be worked on, so that we can both work on them whenever. It never fails.

But I think all of the Canon Era part of the story is now up. I’m still working on getting the various AUs posted and formatted. I do need to fix the formatting on some of the earlier stories to match with the later stories, but that’s something I’ll fuck about with tomorrow.

Tonight, I need to focus on getting a thousand words for #365k/365Day. According to my Excel spreadsheet, I have 259,874 words already this year, meaning that I’m already 71.2% of the way to my goal of 365,000 words in 2017. Having a few WriMos in there helped a lot towards that high total thus far. But even last month, which wasn’t a WriMo, I managed to get 65k done.

And a large part of that has been [community profile] 15kinks in the last month or so. I still don’t quite feel like we’re far enough along to start posting it. I think we’re hoping to be pretty close to done before we start posting. I mean, that’s what I’m taking away since we’ve been saying over and over that we’ve learned our lessons from Wicked Ones and After Midnight and so forth.

But be that as it may, we might have one reader for this: Mist Marauder. And there’s been the one lonesome person on Tumblr who PMed us to talk about loving GoodDay. Otherwise, we seem to be sailing this boat solo. Which is pretty familiar to me, from my Yu-Gi-Oh days.

Anyway, I need to get a thousand words today, even if I am literally months ahead at this point. I’m only somewhere in the 400s, so I need to get to work. Wish me luck!

Later, all.

So tired

Tuesday, 13 June 2017 10:23 pm
apollymi: The ending of the manga, the scene that makes for happy shippers, no text (SDK**Kyo/Yuya: THAT final shippy scene)
Yeah, this is probably my most used subject line. It remains the most accurate one.

I'm about 600 to 700 words into the day's writing, and the boys are just fighting me. They've gotten through the porny bits, but they don't much care of letting me indulge in some aftercare and they don't want to talk either. So I got nothing.

I have a modern au version of these two who are a little less fucked up (Faraday) and a lot more fucked up (Goodnight), and I'm not sure I'm emotionally ready to tackle writing sex between the two of them just yet. It promises to be emotionally draining. I keep trying to get this one reined back in to a less emotional level, and it just keeps not happening. I'm not sure how much I'l be able to do for this collab. I'm going to keep trying, though.

And yeah, that's all I've got time for, because otherwise I'm going to lose my bed for the night.

Later.

So close

Monday, 12 June 2017 10:29 pm
apollymi: Pissed off Vasquez, no text (Mag7**Vasquez: Angry)
I'm so damn close to being done with this particular part of the [community profile] 15kinks story that I can almost taste it. No pun intended. So far, this bit is almost 4200 words, and I haven't even gotten to the aftercare bit that's going to be just as important as the kink that went on before it.

In other news, I have all this comp time built up from last week -- about an hour and a half -- that I'm not sure I'm going to get to keep. Anastasia didn't think she could stay all the way until 8:30 (my usual arrival time) getting the Prometric part of the center open and still administer her own tests at 9:00, so I came in at 8:15 so that she'd have time to get herself situated on all five days. But this was not approved by LaTrease or any of the managers. If it was up to me, I would just leave early on one of these days when the testers finish early and have done with it. But I don't know.

And yeah, that's about it. I'm going to try to finish up this damn part tonight or tomorrow, because I'm ready to move on to something else.

Later, all.

Things

Sunday, 11 June 2017 11:09 pm
apollymi: Blank background, text rewads "All ship wars should be resolved by threesome fic" (Text: More threesomes!)
I'm not sure how much, if anything, I have to say. I'm still working on that same damn scene. It just continues to defy me. I've tried working on the modern au instead of it for a while, but I only managed 130 something words before I had to go back to the previous story because it just wouldn't turn me loose.

I feel like I'm worrying too much over this one part. I'm sure it will turn out all right. [personal profile] katsuko keeps making little 'hot damn' comments and turning various shades of red and pink while reading it, so it's probably not as dry as it feels to me.

If I ever manage to finish the damn thing, I'll have to go back and reread it and see if it is a dry read. Obviously, right now it feels a bit that way to me.

Things I've researched today: Pitbull mixes that can get over 100 pounds, etymology of words and phrases (is this culturally appropriate for the time period I'm writing in? do I care?), a dildo big enough to earn the nickname "Big Blue" and be considered big hardware (and now I feel like I've seen things that cannot be unseen), Amazon web music player, the music video for Billie Myers' "Tell Me", and a few dozen other completely unrelated things.

And yeah, that's about it. I didn't write as much as I wanted to, but I'm running out of Sunday. Monday will be here in a very shortly, and I need to be prepared to face it with something approaching dignity and grace. Or awakeness. Take your pick.

Shame

Saturday, 10 June 2017 11:19 pm
apollymi: Chaucer looking annoyed, text reads "I will eviscerate you in fiction" (AKT**Chaucer: Eviscerate you in fiction)
I feel like I should be ashamed of some of the things I've googled today. I'm not even going to think about listing some of them here. Suffice it to say that they've almost all been very, very NSFW. Some have turned out to be rather NSFS (not safe for soul). Most of them were just complete NSFW, though, and I'm all right with that.

I've tried to do a nap today, but it never actually ended up working. I had way too much feline assistance as the case turned out.

I just need to finish the fill that I'm on right now, and then I think I'm going to switch over to the modern au for a bit again. I'm just feeling like I need to get most of my Goody's past their traumas and into the happier sexy times. Weirdly, the other three versions of this story aren't nearly as trauma filled as the two where both characters remain male.

Because yes, [community profile] 15kinks led us to developing five different versions of the same story: canon era (male Faraday/male Goodnight), modern au (male Faraday/male Goody), femme Faraday modern au (with male Goody), femme Goody modern au (with male Faraday), and femme Faraday/femme Goody canon era. The ones with probably the least issues and angst are probably the femme Goody/male Faraday ones, with femme Faraday/male Goody running a close second, then the femmes coming in third. Canon Era and Modern AU? Holy shit, the trauma, issues, and angst. We've spent way too much time working on the angst, issues, and trauma for those two verses. Canon era is the original one, followed by modern au. The other verses came later, in order: femme Faraday, femme Goody, and then the femmes.

And yeah, I guess that's enough babble about the shit I've been writing. Now to go back to actually writing it.

Holy shit

Friday, 9 June 2017 10:09 pm
apollymi: Faraday in black and white, holding his gun, no text (Mag7**Faraday: Black and white)
Holy shit, the things I'm writing. It's... Well, I'm squirming in my seat because I'm getting a little turned on from my own writing. Jesus fuck. I feel like this is going to be one of my favorite chapters in this story. It'll probably be frequently reread, if nothing else.

Anyway, I survived the work week at GSU. I'm not sure yet if I'll be glad or sad to have LaTrease back in town on Monday. It's better for the department to have that fifth person, but I also feel like we sort of managed okay without a manager on duty. Granted, there were a few times where we could have used a manager, mostly thanks to difficult people, but we managed all right, I think.

We had an ass in today who was taking a mortgage test, who was sent in by Suntrust. He decided he wanted to try to throw his weight around and try to get people in trouble. I gave some thought to not letting him test and maybe getting him kicked out of the testing center, but we decided that it was best not to start all that shit. But gods, it reminded me all over again why I hate bullies.

And yeah, that's it. That's it for me today.

A good plan

Thursday, 8 June 2017 09:55 pm
apollymi: Kyo and Yuya back to back, red background, no text (SDK**Kyo/Yuya: The red strokes)
I'm trying to convince myself that sleep sounds like a good plan.

I'm the kind of tired that requires sleep to correct, but I'm also the kind of tired that nothing sounds good, not even sleep.

That said, I'm still going to be trying to make a bit of sleep happen, so that we can accomplish all the things that need to be accomplished tomorrow.

Gotta get up early and go by the bank. Gotta get money from my Ally account, deposit in the Regions account, pay the rent (late), and go to the train station. If I have money left over, I'm so having breakfast. Then [personal profile] katsuko has got to come home, stop by the office and make sure they see the rent payment, probably do some stuff around the house, and go to Mirko for dinner shift. When I get off work, I have to catch the train to Lindbergh Station then catch the bus to the restaurant until she's done with dinner shift. Though to be fair, I'll probably hang at Panera Bread instead, because I don't want to be drafted into work or have to put up with Josh's bitch ass.

Also I may or may not have inducted my coworkers at New Job into calling Carlos "Car-LaLa" and "Carlito". Because I'm a grown-up like that.

And on that bizarre note, I think I'm going to go throw myself at my bed and see if it accepts me as one of its own. Peace, babes!

Exhaustion strikes again

Wednesday, 7 June 2017 11:23 pm
apollymi: Bakura & Kaiba fanart commission, text reads "Apollymi" (Default)
Yeah, here's another post about how damn tired I am. Surprise, surprise. Yeah, I know: not at all. I'm always tired. I'm always exhausted. I'm always ready to just drop down into a nap of some sort... until I get on a writing jag and end up staying up until 3 or 4 in the morning. Because I'm fucking stupid like that. All that effort for shit that no one is going to appreciate.

And yeah, I've got nothing at all for myself for today. I've only managed a few hundred words yesterday and again today. But my brain is off in la-la land and yeah. That's it.

Later.

Tired

Tuesday, 6 June 2017 11:23 pm
apollymi: Manic look Ninth Doctor, text reads "I solemnly swear I'm up to no good" (DW**9th Doctor: Up to no good)
I'm sitting here watching [personal profile] katsuko sleep on the other end of the couch, and all I can think about is how much I wish that were me napping so hard. I really feel like I need one, even though I really should already be in bed by now.

As tired as I am, I should already be in my bed, curled up and bracing myself to face another day.

Also, distressingly, I'm looking at the GSU website. Everything I'm seeing says that my probationary period is 6 months, not 90 days like LaTrease was telling me. These are very different date ranges, and I really kind of have to have an idea of which one of these it is. If it's 90 days, then I can take my time off for Dragon*Con, Halloween, and when Mist comes to town. If it's 6 months, then that's October -- and the only one of those three sets of dates I'm hoping for off that I can even ask for will be Halloween.

It also means that that's the soonest I could go see a doctor is at the end of October.

I really hope that what LaTrease is telling me is the correct information. I'm well past needing to get back on my crazy pills. But also I'm just sick and tired of always feeling sick and tired.

And yeah, that's all I've got for today.

Whoops

Monday, 5 June 2017 10:23 pm
apollymi: Stitch doing an handstand and wiggling his butt, no text, animated (L&S**Stitch: Kiss my ass)
I fell asleep on the couch tipped at a very uncomfortable angle. Now my neck hurts.

[personal profile] katsuko's parents are going to loan us some of the money towards rent... with stipulations. It has to all be paid back... and she has to consider if she wants a roof over her head or to go to Dragon*Con. Honestly, it read more like "You aren't to go to this thing if you ever want financial help again". And it's like, I wash my hands of these people. I'm done with them.

So that's some of the worry off our heads. We're still going to be tight as hell for the next two weeks, but we'll muddle through. I've got bulk meals that I know how to make to stretch our money a ways further, and I have coupons (and I'm not afraid to use them).

But yeah, that's the state of things. Fun times all around.

Stress

Sunday, 4 June 2017 11:19 pm
apollymi: Kaiba and Bakura, close up on faces, text reads "Don't fear the reaper" (YGO**Bakura/Kaiba: Don't fear the reape)
We're no closer to an actual solution to the dilemma.

I know now that the closest extended stay motel that will allow pets is the Studio 6. I know that it will end up being close to $500 a week to stay at one of these places, and that's just really not feasible, not right now. And yes, that is at the cheaper end of the scale. Yes, the need for paying separate utilities would be eliminated, but we would have to get a bigger storage unit to put all the furniture into.

Apparently, we just need $300 more, if we draft every single penny of my paycheck on Friday towards rent. Yes, it will leave me with absolutely no money until the end of the month, but needs must. We need a place to live a lot more than I need food. I'm pretty sure I can live off my fat for a few weeks.

Yeah, I got fucking nothing. I got a whole lot of fucking nothing.